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immerse your soul in love.
2.8.4
i hope all is well with you.


11.30.4
thanksgiving break was awesome:

abby's love for my little dog. playing catch phrase. the poker tournament. hanging out with abby,  sam and ernst (what a ridiculous person he is) at steak n shake.  just dicking around with her. watching movies and eating those chocolate-covered peanut butter crackers my mom makes. dad's side of the family freaking out about how "beautiful" she is. (neck kiss and the hand holding, seriously - rhodie is sly) watching The Incredibles. ("The remote controls the robot!" Samuel L. Jackson as a speed-skater?) abby thinking my mom was so little and cute.  dad drinking whiskey out of a mason jar. holding hands, drinking coffee and sitting at a stop sign watching the sun set. telling her to cover her eyes only to open them and see the lights of the city. clinging to me as i drive. my dad generally being a badass and always handing the catch phrase...machine (?) to my mom. lots of good memories.

also, a couple of weekends ago, good ol' kenny drove up from bloomington to hang out. it was fun. kenny is the man.

now playing: acoustic Thrice stuff


10.27.4
the pictures section is back and working. yes oh yes. there are some new ones in there as well. as usual, the music and film sections are updated. i think the last good movie i watched was the producers. hard eight is awesome, too. bah. thanksgiving break is fast approaching.

now playing: Wilco YANKEE HOTEL FOXTROT / Isis PANOPTICON


10.20.4
wisconsin is better than indiana.


10.8.4
going home today. playing poker/getting paid todeal cards (!) over the weekend and hanging out with the family. i'm looking quite forward to it. remember to watch the presidential debate tonight. remember to watch bush pause a lot. remember to vote for a presidential candidate that can speak well.


9.29.4
updated pictures, films, and music sections. remember not to vote for bush on nov. 2

now playing: Dismemberment Plan IS TERRIFIED


9.9.4
if there happens to be a huge blank space above this text, simply disregard - i dont know what's happening. i'll share some climady stuff (climady is this ridiculously idiotic girl who talks to sam online - she's so dumb, seriously):

convo 1

climady: hi
SammyD 316: hey
climady: what up
SammyD 316: just moved back in at BSU today
SammyD 316: about to head out to a party
climady: cool
climady: men i thing a big poop to day
SammyD 316: im sorry?
climady: noting whatyou do to day
SammyD 316: moved in / went to a cookout / now going to a party
climady: cooolwhat your name again
SammyD 316: Sam
climady: from wear
SammyD 316: FC
climady: sam o yeah
climady: soul h old are you again
SammyD 316: 19
SammyD 316: i gotta go right now
SammyD 316: ill talk to you later
climady: h do you think is c at c
climady: hello
SammyD 316: what
climady: do you thing ther areinning c girl at c
climady: i mean girls
SammyD 316: cool / college ?
climady: no c
SammyD 316: c?
SammyD 316: i dont know what that means
climady: chuch
SammyD 316: uh, probably
SammyD 316: im running out the door
SammyD 316: talk to you soon
climady: y
SammyD 316: going to a party
climady: yup dog ok
SammyD 316: ok
SammyD 316: bye
climady: ok dog by little man have

convo 2

climady: hi
climady: are form my ch
climady: hello

convo 3

climady: hay how are u
SammyD 316: im good
SammyD 316: very busy day
climady: ya well do u need me to let u go since ur busy
SammyD 316: i dont have to leave for 15 minutes
climady: lol wow thats alot of time so hows school and etc.. its been ahwile since weve chatted
SammyD 316: that it is, and that it has
SammyD 316: school is going well, a bit stressful
climady: ya well im sure u can handle it
SammyD 316: i hope so
SammyD 316: how's life with you?
climady: over all good not working or going to school at the moment but all is well
SammyD 316: thats good to hear
SammyD 316: how's c going?
climady: ya well ill let u go but its G8n to hear all is well u take care and god bless
SammyD 316: ok, talk to you later
SammyD 316: have f at c
climady: bye bye
SammyD 316: bye
climady: sorry blond wats f and c
climady: f at c
SammyD 316: you know, fun at c
climady: owww lol
climady: thanz ill try
climady: god bless bye
SammyD 316: see, i went to FC for high school. it was a play on words
SammyD 316: bye

now playing: Eric Dolphy OUT TO LUNCH


9.7.4
life is good.

now playing: motW


9.3.4
sinuses are stupid. so are the vietnamese.

now playing: The Shins


8.29.4
DirtyNomadd5: my foreign roommate is still sleeping
DirtyNomadd5: it's 3 oclock asshole, wake up
VntgEyes: that lazy mother fucker
DirtyNomadd5: i know. what a fag
VntgEyes: I'll go jump the fuck out of him
DirtyNomadd5: i woke him up when i got up, but then the son of a bitch went back to sleep
VntgEyes: oh wow
VntgEyes: maybe you should blast some linkin park
DirtyNomadd5: !!!
VntgEyes: he'd get all pumped and want to party
DirtyNomadd5: HAHAAHAHA
VntgEyes: or tell him there's a female robot asking for him and watch him get all turned on and shit
DirtyNomadd5: oh wow
VntgEyes: people like him get off to robots

now playing: Charles Mingus BLACK SAINT & SINNER LADY (best jazz ever)


8.28.4
i haven't updated this in almost 4 months. i'll just pretend like i've done it everyday and that nothing has happened in my life since then. i moved all of the musicfan stuff into its own section. i also updated the films, films to watch, and music sections.

now playing: Converge YOU FAIL ME

5.2.4
today i realized what a precious commodity summer breaks are. i am very anxious to come home, have lots of fun, and see people/hang out with people i haven't done so with in a long time. one day i will also have a cookout. everyone is invited, unless i don't like you. also, that kid IMed me today, finally:

now playing: Minus The Bear, Buckley, BTBAM


5.1.4
that kid hasn't talked to me since wednesday (more on that later). last night was great. went to a party at the producers' house and partied with sam price (among others). left at 3, then walked for an hour to sunshine cafe and enjoyed a meal. got back a 6, went to sleep. had a very leisurely day today. sam & i watched north by northwest, which is my favorite hitchcock film at this point, i think. alright, so that random IM kid. i last talked to him on wednesday, and here's what transpired:

i clearly didn't show up to the commons on thursday to meet him. the kid lives in new jersey. is he on to me? is that why he hasn't spoken to me since? man, i sure hope not because being fake gives me the time of my life.

now playing: Kayo Dot CHOIRS OF THE EYE / Isis RED SEA / Ulver QUICK FIX OF MELANCHOLY


4.28.4
man, this kid just keeps talking to me. here's what went down the night before last (i was pretending to be drunk [as opposed to tripping shrooms the night before]) - i promise this one won't be as long as the previous:

man, i love my fake life.

cups of coffee today: 3

now playing: Kayo Dot CHOIRS OF THE EYE / Botch WE ARE THE ROMANS / Isis OCEANIC / Novembre ARTE NOVECENTO


4.26.4
updated the 12 albums section. so some kid i've never talked to sends me an IM today...this dude is awesome (is he a real person?). the highlights are below:


apparently i'm 14 and live in Walden. jess is a whore.

cups of coffee today: 2

now playing: Ulver PERDITION CITY


4.2-.4
today marks the one year anniversary of my relationship with victoria. i have made some amazing memories in that timespan. it's incredible. please continue praying for zak kamerer, even if praying's not your thing. it might make a difference. on a lighter note, i have updated the 12 films list. the films and albums sections have been updated as well. kill bill vol 2 is excellent. also, Explosions In The Sky are so transcendently great  that i will burn the album for anyone that requests it. just email me. i updated the jackie-isms. check this site out as well. some people are awesome/insane. i am planning on starting a section where i collect the best ones. this should be up in the next week or so. today is link central here.

cups of coffee today: 1

now playing: Explosions In The Sky THE EARTH IS NOT A COLD DEAD PLACE / Cynic FOCUS / Porcupine Tree SIGNIFY


4.18.4
pray for zak kamerer.


4.14.4
procrastination = update. man, i seriously gotta get my shit together. all of that aside...godspeed you black emperor's music is incredible. i used to simply think they were pretty good until they finally started "speaking to me," if you will (if you will what? what a useless phrase). anyway, GYBE are fantastic. i encourage all to listen. while procrastinating/being bored earlier, i photoshopped this collage of conceit. i think it's somewhat neat.

cups of coffee today: 5

now playing: Godspeed You Black Emperor F#A# (INFINITY SYMBOL) /
Atrox ORGASM / Spiral Architect A SCEPTIC'S UNIVERSE / Thrice MIDIs


4.13.4
"it's not that i'm lazy - it's that i just don't care. see, it's a simple problem of motivation."

i must get motivated. or drive away. i picked up 2 ligeti pieces from bracken/the office today. his concertos for cello / violin / piano is quite good. also, president bush is stupid. the way he dodges questions is hilarious. what an asinine leader.

cups of coffee today: 4

now playing: Gy�rgy Ligeti CONCERTOS FOR CELLO/VIOLIN/PIANO / Pain Of Salvation ONE HOUR BY THE CONCRETE LAKE


4.12.4
enjoyable weekend. had fun with my family. watched blood simple last night (first coen bros. film, for the uninitiated). i recommend it. for the coen bros., it's "only" a good movie, but compared to everything else, it's quite good. we also started the pre-kill bill vol. 2 tarantinofest tonight with reservoir dogs. still an awesome movie. after watching pulp fictyion a few days ago, i think i've decided once and for all i prefer reservoir dogs to pulp fiction. it's a more subtle film, which i prefer. looking forward to day 3, when we will watch jackie brown - it's been a long time since i've seen that. everyone should consult my playlist for the day and get those albums - all are excellent. a day of listening excellence.

cups of coffee today: 3

now playing: Atrox ORGASM / Aghora AGHORA / John McLaughlin SHAKTI WITH JOHN MCLAUGHLIN / As The Sun Sets 8949/7744 / Solefald IN HARMONIA UNIVERSALI


4.9.4
going home later. looking forward to the drive home, sort of. should be relaxing/stress (slore?)-free. the weekend itself will not be fun at all. don't really wanna go home - i just wanna drive westward instead, never looking back. one day i'm pulling a holden caufield and randomly leaving. except i would be required to have money beforehand or i'd make it...5 miles. looks like i'm stuck in muncie.

cups of coffee today: 3

now playing: Tori Amos UNDER THE PINK / driving compilations vol. 1 & 2


4.7.4
finally finished the script for this movie my brother and i devised about a conflict between a bum and an elitist businessman. i think it's interesting. we will shoot it this summer. definitely something to look forward to. by the way, if you don't like the prospect of having to do work, do not go to college. you'll want to kill yourself instead.

cups of coffee today: 6

now playing: Agalloch PALE FOLKLORE / King Crimson DISCIPLINE


4.6.4
watched the 400 blows and glengarry glen ross yesterday. both are recommended. i especially liked GGR. the cast is one of the finest i've ever seen, and the acting is some of the best i've ever watched, along with mystic river, the royal tenenbaums, and the godfather. the ending is kinda weak though. i also watched man bites dog today - one of the coolest movies ever. i highly, highly recommend it. the plot goes something like this: there's a small film crew following this serial killer around, documenting his killings, as well as his interaction with friends and family. the killer explains stuff like how much weight to tie to a corpse to get it to sink. the movie is also incredibly graphic and pretty disturbing in places. but alas, i haven't laughed so much while watching a movie since...a long time. darkest comedy ever. brutal, unflinching violence. amazing. here's something awesomely funny.

cups of coffee today: 3

now playing: Minus The Bear, Gordian Knot, Thrice, Porcupine Tree, etc etc


4.4.4
filmed about half of my short today. special thanks to sam and jen for their stupendous acting, and jason for use of his apartment. the raw footage looks pretty good. the other half or so will be filmed...hopefully before this weekend. i think i'll put up a few stills after i capture.

watched a mighty wind with sam and carley. good, funny movie. i recommend it. here's a little backstory for you before i continue: some girl keeps emailing me, asking me all sorts of questions about linkin park (she has obviously seen my amazing faux-linkin park page and thought i was serious). she asks some weird stuff, particularly about "mike," whom i believe might be the bassist or something - creepy things like "which does Mike like better gold or silver" and "what is his fav music video they made". moving on, here is the email she sent me this evening (verbatim):

"looked at your guestbook and all of the people that hate linkin park. I was going to sign it but it was full. everyone that says linkin park are fags, dipshits motherfuckers cocksuckers bastards and stuff like that are wrong! I think of those  peopl as MOTHER FUCKING 2 BALLED BITCHES WITH THREE RUBBER TITS AND THEY FUCK EACHOTHER SIP EACHOTHERS STUFF AND THEY ARE BASTARDS AND FAGS AND DIPSHITS! FUCK THOSE PEOPLE! [NOT LINKIN PARK]
LINKIN PARK ARE THE GODS OF METAL! THEY ROCK MY WORLD AND THEY RULE!!!"

what...? "they fuck eachother sip eachothers stuff and they are bastards and fags and dipshits". i am utterly speechless.

cups of coffee today: 3

now playing: Ulver THEMES FROM WM. BLAKE'S THE MARRIAGE OF HEAVEN AND HELL / Gathering "A Life All Mine"


4.2.4
watched midnight cowboy this afternoon. cool movie. after sam got back from a flea in her ear, we watched  an old concert i had on tape, featuring crestfallen (legendary louisville band) and between the buried & me (one of the most amazing bands on the planet). spectacular stuff. after that we watched dillinger escape plan play "43% burnt" live at krazyfest - !!! seriously killer stuff. tomorrow is the frog baby film festival. i recommend all ball state students come - 5 pm in AJ225 (art history room). sam and i will be filming it for a dvd. we're cool.

cups of coffee today: 4

now playing: Between The Buried & Me BETWEEN THE BURIED & ME


4.1.4
watched the bicycle thief and some like it hot last night. both are quite good. i added like 100 movies to the films list - mostly childhood classics that i had overlooked (like TMNT), and a bunch of really horrible movies (like the air up there). go on with your busy lives.

cups of coffee today: 1

now playing: Buckley autodj


3.3-.4
i cant remember the last time i have felt so inspired. it all started when jen sent me this link to amazing artwork. i then listened to dredg, whose music is ethereal and beautiful and...inspiring. everything else today has been great. i guess this makes up for the horrid last few days. life, my friends, is beautiful.

(sidenote: there is a 12 albums update)

cups of coffee today: 2

now playing: Dredg EL CIELO / Dredg LEITMOTIF / Gordian Knot EMERGENT


3.29.4
death.


3.28.4
Brittany2110: hey sam.. i was wondering if you could tell me how to put a link into my aim profile

brittany jones is a goddamn moron. here is a nice article about how president bush manipulates 9/11 to his advantage from tompaine.com

amazing weather. i got some work done today. time to relax. enjoy your fantastic lives.

cups of coffee today: 3

now playing: Control Denied FRAGILE ART OF EXISTENCE / Death SOUND OF PERSEVERANCE / Dredg EL CIELO / Godspeed You Black Emperor F#A# (INFINITY SYMBOL) / Sigur Ros BA BA TI KI DI DO


3.27.4
doing everything in my power to avoid starting on my english essay - talking to people online, making cappuccino, listening to music, talking to my mom, updating my page.. i think a nap will be in store shortly. i am fucking worthless. also, on the waterfront is a cool movie. marlon brando is a badass. i told jason i didn't want to go over and watch a movie because i had to write this paper. i should have gone since i haven't done anything (and i know i won't). seriously, i have this mental condition where i put everything off until the last minute - maybe it is somehow linked to my indecisiveness? someone slice me. after typing that, is quote from nick smith jumped into my mind: "if i was invincible, i would totally slit my neck everywhere i went." he's a badass. too bad i haven't spoken to him for almost literally a year. he's a cool guy too. not talking to friends is kinda stupid. i'm gonna call that bastard or something. yknow why i just typed so much? because i don't want to type a paper. kill me, seriously.

update: so, yknow what i ended up doing today? NOTHING. not a single ounce of work. i didnt even do something halfway constructive, like watch a movie. fucking worthless. oh well, i have tomorrow because i definitely won't be sleeping until 2, editing for 2-3 hours, hanging out with victoria, and then sleeping. again, seriously...kill me.

cups of coffee today: 3

now playing: Homesick For Space UNISON / Opeth


3.26.4
good evening: watched big fish. very good film. i think i can say it's one of the 5 best films of 2003. went to a caberet in the village with sam, carley, and...um...matt (never met him). very fun event. nice, intimate, fun setting. i enjoyed it. kirsten is having her's next weekend. i think sam and i are going to watch on the waterfront momentarily. i'll letcha know how that goes. also...i nearly have the bum script completed, which will be very cool. i think my brother and i will film it this summer. also...supposedly carley and jennifer are willing to portray the two female parts in my "normal guy" short, which should be interesting. hopefully i will have that completed in the next month or so. more details as they become available.

explosions in the sky:

"THE EARTH IS NOT A COLD DEAD PLACE begins as a flickering twinkle that soon grows to a blinding light. This new sense of hope is the defining characteristic of this record, and ultimately the journey that their music takes us on. Immeasurably more dramatic and dynamic than their last album, TEINACDP takes its shape not in the unexpected cacophony that had become the band's trademark, but in the infinitely deeper caverns of the human soul. With a soft heartbeat-like thump that grows stronger by the minute, the band is now closer than ever to replicating the simple movements that, when strung together, form the unpredictably complex machine that is the human body. Words simply cannot do this the justice that it deserves. It goes so far beyond elementary comparisons to other bands."

this band blows me away.

cups of coffee today: 3 or something

now playing: The Shins CHUTES TOO NARROW / Jeff Buckley/Gary Lucas SONGS TO NO ONE / various Buckley, EITS


3.25.4
finally watched the pianist. it's one of the best films i've ever watched. adrien brody is a brilliant actor. the streak of great roman polanski films i've seen is now at 2 (the other being the awesome chinatown). i dont understand how it didn't win best picture for 2002. regardless, excellent film. go rent it or something. updated films list and for the hell of it added a films i need to watch section (more for my use than your pleasure).

cups of coffee today: 1 + a double shot

now playing: Burnt By The Sun PERFECT IS THE ENEMY OF THE GOOD / Gathering SOUVENIRS / Buckley, Pain Of Salvation, Minus The Bear, Homesick For Space


3.24.4
time to talk about movies. in the last week or so, i have watched: secret window, the devil's advocate, open range, unfaithful, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, and 8 1/2. i liked secret window quite well. the acting (particularly johnny depp) is spectacular. the devil's advocate is average. i don't like keanu reeves. open range is stupid. kevin costner is a loser. the dialogue is gross. the gunfights are cool, though. unfaithful is good, better than i expected. i like diane lane. killing people with snowglobes is perfect. ESOTSM is amazing. i'll have to watch being john malkovich again to decide which is my favorite kaufman film (i really like adaptation but it seems to drag a bit towards the end). definitely the best film of the year so far, and it will likely still be in 8 months. 8 1/2 is decent upon first viewing. jared recommends watching it at least twice. this weekend i will watch big fish, on the waterfront, all about eve, and the ladykillers. life is good.

humorous exchange with my girlfriend (aka what the fuck):

Deacon646: why are you watching two movies friday?
DirtyNomadd5: i like movies
DirtyNomadd5: we'll probably watch 3 actually
Deacon646: sometimes i hate you
Deacon646 signed off at 6:02:49 PM.

cups of coffee today: 1

now playing: Buckley, Coldplay, Explosions In The Sky


3.23.4
finally overcoming my depression following the return to muncie/real life. to cope, i have made an l.a. page with various pictures taken. speaking of which, there are lots of homeless people in los angeles. here is an entertaining (?) story involving one:

sam, carly, jen, and myself went to denny's down the block from our hotel one evening. as soon as we leave, here comes some bum.

stupid bum: got any change?
jen: we just ate dinner [brilliant]
stupid bum: man, i ain't 'ad dinner! o brea-fast! o lunch!
sam [offering 4 pennies]: here ya go
stupid bum: why you wanna throw pennies in ma face, nigga! huh?
[we briskly walk away, leaving the bum behind]
stupid bum: mo'fugahs! yall know what a 211 is?! armed robbery! huh motha fuggas!

i enjoyed.

cups of coffee today: 2

now playing: Stratovarius (so I can laugh)


3.22.4
wow. los angeles is one of the best places on earth, seriously. if i were to go into more detail, i wouldn't know where to start. special thanks to carley and jennifer for an exceptionally fun night. that makes it sound like we had a threesome. we didn't. i am procrastinating right now. i will get some of the pictures from sam's digicam and post them.

cups of coffee today: 0

now playing: Opeth STILL LIFE / Between The Buried & Me THE SILENT CIRCUS / Jeff Buckley GRACE

3.12.4
packed and a-roarin' to leave. i love the thought that in one week (actually, 4 days) i will be somewhere 60 degrees warmer. life has been good to me thus far. irrelevance: in the last few days i have watched intolerable cruelty and waking life. both are good. intolerable cruelty is easily the coen brothers' worst film to date, but it is still better than 75-80% of movies made. waking life is very strange. the animation is absolutely stunning. the philosophical ramblings are neat and make one think, but they drag on and on. i think 4 or 5 characters have 3-5 minute monologues about some philosophical point pertaining to dreams. cool, but overwrought. worth seeing though. the chances of an update over spring break are slim-to-none, so don't hold your breath. i hope everyone enjoys the next 10 days. peace be with you.

cups of cofee today: 2

now playing: King Crimson THE POWER TO BELIEVE / King Crimson THREE OF A PERFECT PAIR / Porcupine Tree IN ABSENTIA


3.1-.4
DirtyNomadd5: brittani...tell me about your dreams with james
bRiTtAnIfChS15: we just fucked

life is great.

cups of coffee today: 4

now playing: Tool LATERALUS / Christopher O'Riley TRUE LOVE WAITS / The Shins, GYBE


3.9.4
one week away.

cups of coffee today: 3

now playing: King Crimson "Starless" / Gathering "A Life All Mine" (Anneke/Garm duet = stellar)


3.8.4
filmworks meeting tonight. dave owens is fucking squirrelly. jason and i have decied to cast him in an awesome film as the lead role. i love the huge, furry birthmark he has on the bottom of his right arm. sick bastard. i also need voice lessons. sidenote: Ulver have officially made my 10 favorite bands list. flash: the civics page has finally been updated

cups of coffee today: 3

now playing: Ulver NATTENS MADRIGAL / Ulver BERGTATT / Ulver METAMORPHOSIS / Shins CHUTES TOO NARROW


3.7.4
due to bandwidth issues, i have put everything pre-2004 in the new archives section. i have also done a bit of revamping on a lot of pages within the site. today was officially the most brutal ever. consult the day's playlist for more on that.

cups of coffee today: 3

now playing: Strapping Young Lad SYL / Dillinger Escape Plan CALCULATING INFINITY / Dillinger Escape Plan IRONY IS A DEAD SCENE / Cephalic Carnage EXPLOITING DYSFUNCTION / Meshuggah NOTHING / Cryptopsy AND THEN YOU'LL BEG / Red Chord FUSED TOGETHER IN REVOLVING DOORS / Origin INFORMIS INFINITAS INHUMANITAS / Burnt By The Sun SOUNDTRACK TO THE PERSONAL REVOLUTION / Ulver NATTENS MADRIGAL


3.6.4
added some stuff written by clayton reeder to the articles section (principles to judge the musical credibility of others; the anatomy of the prog metal fanboy; the hardcore factor of music). all are interesting and worth reading. i watched mulholland drive last night. i liked it upon first viewing. i may or may not watch it again tomorrow. i think i'll enjoy it more upon further viewing. tonight i watched the philadelphia story, which is very good. i greatly enjoy james stewart's work. he is one of the greatest actors ever. in 10 days i will be in los angeles. weep, immortals.

update: here's an excerpt from an exchange between myself and clayton, regarding the band stratovarius (a dreadful band that one must avoid at all costs):

melonsparks: have you heard the latest on strato
melonsparks: how Tolkki went insane and got stabbed by some guy in Spain
melonsparks: he went inasne
melonsparks: he woke up hearing the words "Kaballah, Kaballah, Kaballah" being spoken and he went into another room and the Kaballah fell on the floor and he said now he is going to devote Stratovarius' music to the message of the Kaballah. but since being stabbed we are waiting for a statement about the future of Strato
DirtyNomadd5: thats the best/most ridiculous thing ever
melonsparks: this is all after kicked out a bunch of other members after getting drunk and attacking them and then getting a female singer for the band and he's been getting hatemail and boxes of shit
DirtyNomadd5: boxes...of shit?
DirtyNomadd5: like, literally?
melonsparks: someone sent the vocalist a box of fecal matter

cups of coffee today: 2

now playing: Naked City TORTURE GARDEN/LENG TCH'E / King Crimson RED / Ulver KVELDSSANGER / Kayo Dot


3.5.4
that ear infection thing? it escalated into full-scale death. down and out i was, but now i'm back in the saddle alright (first hackneyed phrase). last night sam, joe, & i filmed for our PSA. i must say, it is bloody brilliant. during my respite from life, i decided to update the 12 films and 12 albums sections to fit my current opinions. some of it is debatable for me, but i'm sticking with my guns (second hackneyed phrase). oh, also, the weather today is gorgeous. muncie has won back my respect (for now - apparently it is supposed to snow late this weekend, which begs the question "what the fuck?"). by this time next week, spring break will have officially began, and i will be weeping from exuberance. this weekend will be full of sleep and movies, including the pianist, waking life, cinema paradiso, and potentially the philadelphia story and mulholland drive. life, my friends, is good (consult the thermometer at right for confirmation)

update: kayo dot's choirs of the eye is some of the most unreal music i've ever heard. here's their project
description from the kayo dot website:

"Founded by members of the progressive metal band maudlin of the Well, Kayo Dot powerfully integrates
elements of modern classical composition with the layers of guitars and vocals more common to rock and
metal. With a compositional map that is strict in form yet malleable in execution, Kayo Dot uses a vast
array of instrumentation to create an exciting convergence of violence and serenity."

yeah. it's amazing.

cups of coffee today: 2

now playing: Kayo Dot CHOIRS OF THE EYE / Thrice THE ILLUSION OF SAFETY / Dredg EL CIELO


3.2.4
no classes today - i think i have an ear infection or something. how does one get an ear infection? i'll tell you how - radiation from my cancer-spitting cell phone. it's crazy. it makes my computer blur and make weird noises because of the radiation. i'm going to die. in other news...dr. hafner and his associates really enjoyed our video about the library. we are well on our way to success. i think we will also be participating in a PSA contest for the university. we will win.

cups of coffee today: 2

now playing: Pain Of Salvation 12:5 / autodj


3.1.4
i have nothing even remotely interesting to add today, i just felt obligated to put something down (aka i am bored)

cups of coffee today: 1

now playing: Kayo Dot CHOIRS OF THE EYE / Pain Of Salvation ONE HOUR BY THE CONCRETE LAKE / Godspeed You Black Emperor SLOW RIOT FOR NEW ZERO KANADA / Explosions In The Sky THOSE WHO TELL THE TRUTH SHALL DIE... / Explosions In The Sky THE EARTH IS NOT A COLD DEAD PLACE


2.29.4
the good, the bad, and the ugly is amazing. leone, and that film in particular, has influenced tarantino an incredible amount, i think. i didn't know it was possible to make a film in the 60s, let alone a western, that freaking cool. amazing movie. also, i saw the passion of the christ today with sam, joe, and a few other dudes from our floor. it was pretty good. i liked it, but i don't think i would ever want to watch it again. the violence is extreme, and at certain points i winced (like when the rip a chunk out of jesus' side with that spiny-whip thing...ugh). good film though. i recommend it. also, i am happy and relieved that sean penn won best oscar for his outstanding performance in mystic river; i am disappointed that city of god won nothing. outrageous.

cups of coffee today: 2

now playing: Pain Of Salvation ENTROPIA / Jeff Buckley GRACE / Tool LATERALUS / "The Drapery Falls"


2.28.4
ah, good ol' saturdays. watched for a few dollars more last night - quite good (sidenote: i also watched joe's/sam's walmart "news package" - squirrelly, but humorous). i can definitely see how sergio leone's style has influenced tarantino. sam & i will be watching the good, the bad, and the ugly at some point this day, so my viewing of the "man with no name" (aka joe/monco) trilogy will be complete. also, we will finish editing our library footage for haffey. excitement is pumping though my veins. i also updated my 12 albums list.

cups of coffee today: 2

now playing: Pain Of Salvation ENTROPIA / Christopher O'Riley TRUE LOVE WAITS: O'RILEY PLAYS RADIOHEAD


2.25.4
mindblowing. any fan of music needs this dvd. the cameramen are awesome. they definitely
watch 24. very cool. i wasn't aware it was possible to play some of this music live. again,
mindblowing.
                                     
cups of coffee today: 1

now playing: Opeth LAMENTATIONS DVD / Botch AMERICAN NERVOSO


2.24.4
good news: it is confirmed - i now have a location to shoot about half of my upcoming, as of now untitled, short film. i already have a location in mind for the other half, and i am almost positive i will be able to shoot there. i hope to being filming next weekend (march 6ish). i now have to cast 2, maybe 3 characters. i'm not sure if john (samson) can fill in part number 3, due to filming of his werewolf movie. in any case, i still need 2 women for the other roles. also, in another tidibt of good news, sam & i met with dr. hafner today, and he is eager and excited to see our progress thus far. editing will be finished by our meeting time next week, where he will preview it.

bad news: neighbors who listen to techno (of all horrible music genres) with the bass turned up must perish. techno is ghastly. i'm sure there is good techno music out there somewhere (like electronic ulver, for example), but the sorts of techno that "cool / outsider" college kids listen to is...it just really sucks.

cups of coffee today: 2

now playing: The Gathering NIGHTTIME BIRDS / King Crimson LIZARD / Borknagar OLDERN DOMAIN


2.23.4
king crimson is the best band the world has ever seen. they invented a genre of music, and then perfected it while others tried to follow. their series of updated versions of "larks' tongues in aspic" is mind-blowing. i almost cried while listening to it today out of amazement. nothing can compare.

"It's not just metal, not just rock, not just avant-garde weirdness.. Crimson has always been a progressive force in a league all its own."

i also added a jackie-ism.

cups of coffee today: 1

now playing: King Crimson IN THE COURT OF THE CRIMSON KING / King Crimson IN THE WAKE OF POSEIDON / King Crimson LARKS' TONGUES IN ASPIC / King Crimson THREE OF A PERFECT PAIR / Porcupine Tree SIGNIFY


2.22.4
watched 2 films this weekend: the coen brothers' raising arizona and sofia coppola's lost in translation. both are great. i recommend them. sean penn should still win best actor for mystic river, though. here's an exchange that occured between myself and ernst just now. i found it to be quite amusing.

KingInCrimson989: skiing is a ton of fun
KingInCrimson989: i swear you at least go 35 mph
DirtyNomadd5: and hit trees like sonny bono
KingInCrimson989: its soo easily avoidable
KingInCrimson989: he must have been 1 too cocky 2 too drunk 3 idiot 4 didnt see it (how can you not see a tree?)

...sometime later...

KingInCrimson989: that reminds me of janette and how shes in everyones business
DirtyNomadd5: i hope someone in her family dies real soon
KingInCrimson989: i hope she has another accident

cups of coffee today: 2

now playing: Mogwai HAPPY SONGS FOR HAPPY PEOPLE / Mogwai MY FATHER, MY KING / Neurosis TIMES OF GRACE / Turin Brakes ETHER SONG / A Perfect Circle THIRTEENTH STEP


2.19.4
i am now a legally (i think) ordained reverend. i can legally (i think) perform marriages, baptisms, last rites, and absolve sin (among a few other supernatural powers). i can't do circumcisions (don't ask). this should be fun, although i'm not sure the purpose of being a reverend is to have fun. so, um...if you want to get married or baptised, i'm sure i can arrange something. weird.

cups of coffee today: 1

now playing: A Silver Mt Zion BORN INTO TROUBLE AS SPARKS FLY UPWARD / Dream Theater IMAGES & WORDS


2.18.4
updated my music map. i am also beginning to appreciate electronic ulver more.

cups of coffee today: 1 + a chai w/ espresso

now playing: A Silver Mt Zion BORN INTO TROUBLE AS SPARKS FLY UPWARD / Slint SPIDERLAND / Ephel Duath THE PAINTER'S PALETTE


2.17.4
met with the dean/our executive producer today to update him on our progress thus far. as always, he seemed pleased. explosions in the sky create some of the most emotive music i have ever heard. the earth is not a cold dead place is one of the best albums of 2003. also, gordian knot are freaking unreal. emergent is definitely one of the 5 best albums of the year, and would probably be the best were it not for between the buried & me. sidenote: sadly, i don't think i'll be able to complete either one of my upcoming short films in time for frog baby film festival, with the submission date being the 27th.

cups of coffee today: 2

now playing: Gordian Knot EMERGENT / Arcturus LA MASQUERADE INFERNALE / Do Make Say Think GOODBYE ENEMY AIRSHIP THE LANDLORD IS DEAD / Explosions In The Sky THE EARTH IS NOT A COLD DEAD PLACE / Dillinger Escape Plan CALCULATING INFINITY


2.16.4
blah-est day ever. nothing happened. literally. nothing. sat here and listened to music all day, then went to a filmworks meeting and helped john (samson) mcguigan with his movie.i did not move today. but, alas, john mcguigan is the man. his werewolf movie will be pretty cool, especially for a werewolf movie. i hope to cast him as a co-worker in an upcoming short of mine. the album ether song by the band turin brakes is sublime. it sounds similar to (imagine this) a mix of coldplay, radiohead, and jeff buckley, with a bit of a folkish tinge. needless to say, it is very good. i/you must check out more by this band.

cups of coffee today: 3

now playing: Explosions In The Sky THE EARTH IS NOT A COLD DEAD PLACE / Turin Brakes ETHER SONG / The Shins OH, INVERTED WORLD / Explosions In The Sky THOSE WHO TELL THE TRUTH SHALL DIE, THOSE WHO TELL THE TRUTH SHALL LIVE FOREVER / Pink Floyd PIPER AT THE GATES OF DAWN / Poison The Well OPPOSITE OF DECEMBER / Porcupine Tree THE SKY MOVES SIDEWAYS


2.15.4
yesterday was the best day of my life. i wish i could capture memories forever, knowing that they would never fade, and i would always remember exactly how i felt at that moment.

cups of coffee today: 1

now playing: Thrice THE ARTIST IN THE AMBULANCE / Porcupine Tree IN ABSENTIA / Gordian Knot GORDIAN KNOT / Andromeda II=I / GYBE


2.12.4
going home tomorrow. seeing my brother's play and having victoria cook me dinner. i updated/formatted the pictures section. i now looks nice and should load somewhat faster, perhaps. today in 204 we discussed how racist disney is with its portrayal of practically every minority in its childrens' films. i don't like disney and the stereotypes they perpetuate. also, i find it humorous to go back and look at how pissed i got when the wind chill was 9 degrees. now, 9 is almost a little on the warm side. also, if you'll notice, the progression of the temperature lowering is funny to me.

cups of coffee today: 2

now playing: Opeth STILL LIFE / The Gathering HOW TO MEASURE A PLANET? / Tony Levin PIECES OF THE SUN / Dillinger Escape Plan CALCULATING INFINITY / Ulver KVELDSSANGER / Ulver METAMORPHOSIS


2.11.4
spoke with annie for a while this evening, which spurred this thought into my mind. i would like to share a story with you all. last winter, on a warmer evening, i was at anthony's house. i believe we were working on a project of some sort, and became bored. anthony made some calls, and we rounded up some people to play a game of flashlight tag in anthony's neighborhood. the parties involved included myself and anthony, annie, and holly. harper and i were attempting to hide, so we army crawled/bear crawled across his driveway and under a car. unbeknownst to us, the ladies were all sitting in a car, watching our every move. it was funny. right? god, i hope i didn't just type out one of those "you had to be there" stories. i hate those. damnit. on that note, i am going to go end my horrible, procrastination-filled life. i don't know what's wrong with me. i am incapable of doing work. i just put it off more and more and then don't even do it. i am so unmotivated and worthless.

cups of coffee today: 3

now playing: Opeth MY ARMS, YOUR HEARSE


2.7.4
watched a student film today. i then realized i could make something numerous times better. so, after discussing briefly with sam, i began writing. i am now proud to say that i have a (nearly) entire script for a short. funny what a little motivation can do (something i have trouble finding). i will have this short filmed, edited, and ready to be viewed by february 27th. i swear to myself.

cups of coffee today: 2 or 3

now playing: The Gathering SOUVENIRS /Dark Tranquillity THE MIND'S I / Ayreon INTO THE ELECTRIC CASTLE


2.6.4
sam & i met with the dean today to discuss our production and how it was progressing. he's awesome. he seemd pleased with our work thus far. here's a review for Opeth's MY ARMS, YOUR HEARSE, an album which i have been listening to a lot lately:

"This is my favorite Opeth masterpiece. Initially, when Opeth was still new to me, it was my least favorite. It has the dreariest, grittiest production, few acoustic guitar parts (and they are mostly short), and seems even more sonically oppressive and bleak than anything else they've done. But this album is AMAZING. It is a concept album about a ghost who seems not to realize that he's dead and he observes his lost love after his passing. "Karma" seems to be where he becomes aware of his demise and it's crushing (the scream!!! it's all about that scream). _My Arms, Your Hearse_ is heavier than _Orchid_ and _Morningrise_ but no less melodic and captivating in its evocative, spellbinding musical progression. From the haunting sounds of rain and ethereal piano notes of "Prologue", to the tidal wave of melodic riffs in "April Ethereal", to the longing, forlorn acoustic ending of "When", to the hellfire assault of "Demon of the Fall", to the smothering finality of "Karma", to the soul-melting, aching melodies of "Epilogue", MAYH is a masterpiece with few peers. No fan of progressive metal should be without this, and anyone who didn't really "get it" is strongly encouraged to give it another chance."

cups of coffee today: 2

now playing: The Gathering, Opeth, BTBAM, The Shins,
Radiohead, Thrice, GYBE, Buckley, etc...







2.4.4
blade runner is my least favorite movie ever. it is absolutely dreadful, and i must discourage anyone from ever watching it. it sucks. it's horrible. the characters suck, and you won't give a shit about them. i just wanted them all to die so the story would end. rutger hauer runs around in his boxers and howls like a fucking wolf while slamming his head through walls. harrison ford can't act. the movie is atrocious. seriously. avoid it at all costs.

here's the hotel i'll be staying at for spring break. it's amazing. life is good.

cups of coffee today: 1

now playing: Cynic FOCUS


2.1.4
stress. end. horrible. los angeles. yes. i was doing some work, then realized i couldn't take it anymore. then i for some reason started browsing hotornot, which is the most losery place ever. sam said "do your work or go to bed. you're browsing hotornot. do something constructive." that brings us up to the minute. check this: some really busted girl i went to high school with is totally posing nude online. it's horrible. her name is lelah adams. this is frighteningly bad.

cups of coffee today: 1

now playing: GYBE


1.3-.4
WEmbry9932: frick and frack it's cold out there
SammyD 316: tick and tack it's bitter and bare

i found that exchange amusing. i've nothing to share really. enjoy your friday evening.

cups of coffee today: 1

now playing: Porcupine Tree IN ABSENTIA / Thrice THE ARTIST IN THE AMBULANCE / Jeff Buckley SKETCHES


1.29.4
i got a job today as a producer for university libraries. sam & i were hired to make videos for them. these videos are supposed to make the library look cool, while informing students of events and technologies the library has available. this should be fun. also, here is what i woke up and saw yesterday:                                             i was overcome with joy.  muncie rules. spring break - los angeles - thank you.

cups of coffee today: 1

now playing: The Gathering IF_THEN_ELSE / GYBE, A Perfect Circle, Opeth, and Sigur Ros bootlegs


1.28.4
i stumbled upon some GYBE bootlegs this evening. they are supreme. the sets are awesome, and the sound quality is pristine. i highly recommend checking them out.

i have come to the conclusion that the GYBE composition "she dreamt she was alone in an empty field" is the most deeply moving piece of music i've ever heard (for clarification purposes, it is actually a portion of a larger composition, titled "antennas to heaven"). please download it and listen to it repeatedly (it's only 4:42 long). i have converted the .wav file to a 56 k/s mp3 file, so it's only 1.8 mb or so. i urge you to download it. i think i'll also set the whole portion of the composition as the background music for my page. also, after you hear it and realize how your life is altered, go buy GYBE's LIFT YOUR SKINNY FISTS LIKE ANTENNAS TO HEAVEN. it's a brilliant piece of work, and one of my all-time favorite albums.

cups of coffee today: 3

now playing: GYBE bootlegs / Derek Sherinian BLACK UTOPIA / Arch Enemy BLACK EARTH


1.27.4
muncie = perfect weather.  so check this...my jogging lecture class. the fact that the class exists is ridiculous to begin with. what's even more ridiculous is that today we were instructed to draw a "continuum," which was divided into three parts: good health, health (the absence of disease), and poor health. we were then shown two pictures: a man in a wheelchair who was supposedly taking part in one of those wheelchair marathons, and a guy sitting by a computer with a bunch of cigarette butts nearby. our task was to make a mark on the continuum where each man would be, health-wise. sound Donnie Darko-ish? yeah, i was super-pissed. this lady is crazy. just like mrs. farmer from the film, no kidding. well, apparently, since that cripple is in a marathon he is obviously in great health, and since the other dude smokes by a computer, he is obviously in poor health. NO. you can't just make assumptions based on a snapshot of someone's life. that is ludicrous. i hate mrs. farmer, or whatever the hell her name is. in "real" news, it has come to light that iraq, in fact, has ZERO banned weapons. none. whatsoever. and who assured the american people, repeatedly i may add, that saddam was hiding tons of banned weapons and posed a direct threat to our civilized consumer culture? why, our commander-in-chief, that greedy bastard george w bush. here are excerpts from the article on yahoo news:

"By TERENCE HUNT, AP White House Correspondent

WASHINGTON - The White House retreated Monday from its once-confident claims that Iraq had weapons of mass destruction [...] The administration's switch came after retired chief U.S. weapons inspector David Kay said he had concluded, after nine months of searching, that Saddam Hussein did not have stockpiles of forbidden weapons. Asked about Kay's remarks, White House spokesman Scott McClellan refused to repeat oft-stated assertions that prohibited weapons eventually would be found."

please do not vote for president bush in the upcoming election. he is manipulative, calculating, misleading...he cares not about the people of this country, but about gaining more money from mid-eastern oil.

cups of coffee today: 1, maybe 2 i think

now playing: Between The Buried & Me, Opeth, Jeff Buckley, Sigur Ros, Radiohead, Thrice, Soilwork, et al


1.25.4
i just realized i've been dating everything as if it were 2003, not 2004. apologies. it's supposed to snow 3-4 inches here today/tonight. interesting. tonight at pruis hall, Mean Streets is playing - it's the first film by Scorsese featuring DeNiro, and is also the first of Scorsese's "New York" films. i'm sure it will be excellent. the golden globes are also tonight. if Master & Commander wins anything, i will be ultra-pissed. last night i made a Godspeed You Black Emperor "retrospective" titled "Bleak, Uncertain, Beautiful..." it's truly amazing. GYBE are one of my all-time favorite bands. i got my copies of Following (Chris Nolan's first film) and Run Lola Run from deepdiscount the other day. awesome. nothing to add. peace.

now playing: GYBE, Opeth, & Sigur Ros


1.22.3
there is really nothing interesting to report.            why:
i thought my jogging class would be easy.
it sucks. don't take it. take care.

cups of coffee today: 1

now playing: Radiohead, Sigur Ros, Coldplay, Opeth,
Pink Floyd, Pain Of Salvation, Jeff Buckley, etc


1.21.3
i have an idea for a short film. i started writing down ideas for shots at 2 in the morning while listening to Sigur Ros (who are officially my inspiration now). i hate jogging, and i hate waking up. in other news, check this out. i wrote an email to between the buried & me last week and tommy, the singer/keyboardist, replied today. excerpts from my email are in gold, and tommy's email is in red.

"I have yet to come across a band like BTBAM. Your music is so varied and covers many different styles of music, often within one song. It really seems to me that you play whatever you want, how you want, and don't give a shit about anyone's preconceived notions of music. I think that is admirable and excellent. Your music fucking kills me it's so awesome. I hope you keep making mind-bending  music."

"thanks so much for the email. we really appeciate it... it really means a lot that someone that appreciates music so much enjoys our shit... i wouldn't compare us to the almighty cynic, but thanks for compliment. we'll hopefully get everything(guitar, drummer shit) all figured out this week... we have some awesome musicians in the mix now that will make things better for the future. we're really excited about a new beginning. well thanks again for the email and thanks so much for spreading the word of our band. take care and hopefully see you soon.
tommybtbam"

cups of cofee today: 2

now playing: Chroma Key YOU GO NOW / In Thy Dreams HIGHEST BEAUTY / John McLaughlin SHAKTI, WITH JOHN MCLAUGHLIN


1.2-.3
saw terence blanchard and his band last night. awesome jazz. howard levy [founding member of bela fleck & the flecktones] and some dude name a. molinaro played beforehand. they were totally badass. levy plays the harmonica, but makes it sound like an insanely fast saxophone. very cool stuff.

cups of coffee today: 0

now playing: Miles Davis KIND OF BLUE / Between The Buried & Me BETWEEN THE BURIED & ME


1.19.3
i have added a section for my favorites (film and music, year by year - link can also be found in the pull-down menu) live king crimson is awesome, especially "starless," which is probably the best song ever made. tonight sam & i shall see terence blanchard.

cups of coffee today: 1

now playing: Opeth BLACKWATER PARK / Godspeed You Black Emperor LIFT YOUR SKINNY FISTS LIKE ANTENNAS TO HEAVEN / King Crimson USA / Devin Townsend INFINITY


1.18.3
girls are awesome (obvious sarcasm). don't get a girlfriend until you're ready to want to kill yourself out of anger. moving on....between the buried & me is the best band on the planet right now. their music is incredibly complex and amazing, beautifully crafted...perfect in every way. too bad the drummer and one of the guitarists left. very sad indeed.

"Between The Buried And Me look to have fully set out stake their claim on brutality with their latest release, "The Silent Circus". A wanton collision of grind, metalcore and prog-rock with little to no caution exercised, the band have created a juggernaut of a record that adheres only to the bands own impulsive desires. Similar to the likes of The Red Chord, The Dillinger Escape Plan, Converge and Opeth, the bands music is indulgent and murderous, yet possesses a sense of higher intelligence that is colorfully hinted at through breakdowns and creative song structuring."

cups of coffee today: 1

now playing: Between The Buried & Me, non-stop, for the last two days.


1.16.3
so i guess today's the 16th, huh? this year is going by fast. i remember new year's like it was yesterday. watched a couple of movies today - good will hunting [very good] and hitchcock's rear window [quite good - james stewart is awesome and grace kelly is gorgeous]. dont have much to add. the royal tenenbaums is the coolest movie ever, if not the best. have fun, and stay warm.

cups of coffe today: 1

now playing: Coldplay BLUE ROOM / Porcupine Tree, Jeff Buckley, Radiohead


1.15.3
i will be getting back in touch with an anonymous corporation about submitting my invention today. i will be rich. in other news, i woke up, checked the weatherbug, and here's is what i saw (i cringed):

5 degrees. after i get my huge check from the company, i am transferring
to ucla or usc, or just moving to la and starting my own company.

cups of coffee today: 1

now playing: Mogwai ROCK ACTION / Between The Buried & Me


1.14.3
i changed the background music excerpt to sigur r�s "untitled 1"s keyboard intro. it's haunting.

cups of coffee today: 1

now playing: Crypstopsy AND THEN YOU'LL BEG / Green Carnation A BLESSING IN DISGUISE / Between The Buried & Me / Sigur R�s


1.12.3
i got back to school last night. i must say, having three consecutive weeks with no responsibility whatsoever is amazing. i watched 17 movies that i had never watched before, including the godfather trilogy [stunning, especially, part i], chinatown [excellent], 2001: a space odyssey [kubrick is so overrated. cut out the first hour and the last twenty minutes, and the film is absolutely amazing], miller's crossing [more awesomeness from the coen brothers], and a fistful of dollars [sergio leone's first film in the "man with no name" trilogy - pretty good film, although i hope the other 2 are better]. also, the godfather is now my second favorite film. i do not believe i have anything pertinent to add. i think i will update the 12 films section to include the godfather. look out for that. of course, i have updated the films and albums lists. speaking of which, for christmas i got the latest dream theater album ["train of thought" - it's good, but pretentious and too unfocused], the only missing GYBE album from my collection ["yanqui uxo" - awesome, but i think it's my least favorite GYBE album], a silver mt. zion's "he has left us..." [good, but needs to grow on me more], and blue october's "history for sale," which is crappy alt-rock. i also added some background music [the intro to jeff buckley's "mojo pin," one of my all-time favorite songs]. i think i will periodically change the background music to other cool excerpts.

cups of coffee today: 1

now playing: King Crimson, Meshuggah, Tool, Neurosis, Ephel Duath, etc etc / The Shins CHUTES TOO NARROW
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