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Page 7 |
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Please sign my guestbook!!!!!!!!! |
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October 8, 2000 |
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I'M ON THE OTHER SIDE!!!!!!!!! Well I made it. Sorry it's taken me soooooo long to update my journal. Something has been up with Geocities and I haven't been able to get on. I've tried everyday practically since I've been home from the hospital and it seems like there is always something different that is wrong. Plus I really haven't been able to sit upright for super long periods of time and my keyboard is posititioned directly against my incision and it hurts.. Right now things are going very slow and I'm doing better day by day. I am finding the food thing EXTREMELY difficult. It's more difficult than I expected. I knew it was going to be hard, but I don't think I realized exactly how big of a role that food played in my life. Plus on top of everything else, I'm super emotional, which bugs me to death. You know how I was deathly afraid of failing before? Well now it's even worse. I hate the fact that I can't eat a small meal. I understand in time I will be able to, it's just extremely hard. I'm doing my best to get up and around. I've been doing small things around the house like letting my dogs out and going up and down the stairs. I've been feeling really good the past couple of days and even made it out Friday night to see a movie!!!!!!!! I am FINALLY able to sleep in my own bed again, which has made all the difference in the world!!!!!!!!! I feel really good today. Today I have hardly any pain in my incision. I've been putting Vitamin E oil on it because I've heard it does wonderful things to reduce scaring. I didn't get any incision pictures right after surgery, but I did make sure to get some 2 week shots though. I have to finish the roll on my camera and I'll get those posted along with my front and side shots. This past Thursday, October 5th, I went to the doctor for a follow-up and to get my J tube out (THANK GOD!!!!!!!!) It was really bothersome and starting to hurt. I HAVE LOST 26LBS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I about fell over when I got on the scale. My pal Lisa wagered that I had lost 25lbs, but I told her there was no way in hell. Well Lisa, you were right and I love you for it!!!!!!!!!!!! My "angel" Sandy has FINALLY gotten her date, October 19th, same day I see my doc again. She is another one of the lucky ones who was approved in 24 hours and got her surgery date 2 weeks later. I knew your time would come, Sandy, and it's almost here!!!!!!!!!!!! I just know everything is going to go GREAT :o) I am in the process of working on my hospital story, so I hope to have it posted soon. I'm just glad I was able to get on and let you all know that I am still alive and doing pretty good. The more time that passes, the easier it seems to get. I'm dying for a steak and a can of pop, but I know it's going to be a while until that happens. But I'm gonna sign off for now. I promise I will write more soon and get my hospital story posted soon!!!!!!!! Take care :o) |
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September 22, 2000 -SURGERY DAY!!!!!!! |
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Well kids, my last journal entry before I go to the "other" side. I just cannot believe my day if actually here. For the longest time it seemed like I waited forever!!!!! Yet here I am, less than 8 hours away from the biggest event in my life. It's shortly after midnight here and I just got home from my friend Vanessa's house. She gave me the Halo II beanie babie. First of all, I collect angels and second of all, I love beanies. I always said I'd never get into them, but they are just too damn cute to walk away from. I was very touched. I'm just starting to realize how many people I have rooting for me. I just want to thank each and every one of you. I want to especially thank my family, who through out this entire ordeal have been by my side supporting every decision. Kelley Bradley, with whom I'm going to get revenge with all those guys who were assholes to us. Sandy Vigil, who is my "angel" and true friend. Sandy, before you know it you will be on the other side too!!!!!! Frances Varela, with whom I've spent hourless nights of chatting with. Holly Wildberger, my twin, who is just as wonderful as any friend can be. Dottie Hoffman, my second mom, who introduced me to my surgeon. I am so lucky to have a friend like you in my life. Lisa Sparks, my "date" buddy. I can't believe we've made it!!!!!!! What does not kill us makes us stronger. I just only hope that's the truth. My bud Stacy, who's been there for all the good and bad. Man, I have so many other people to thank. I almost am at a lost for words, which is extremely rare in my case :o) I am just an extremely lucky person. Sandy, who is my angel, will post my progress under my profile at http://www.obesityhelp.com (Click here and it will take you there). I'm still soooooooooo scared I'm going to let everyone down. I just don't know what I'd do. I just hope I'm strong enough to make it through. We'll just have to wait and see what happens. But anyway, I know I am doing the right thing. It will finally be possible to live a life without limitations. My hopes and prayers are FINALLY being answered!!!!!!!! It's extremely humbling. For once in my life I'm doing something for myself. It's like I'm ready to skydive and I'm on the edge ready to go. Now all I have to do is close my eyes and jump. |
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