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Please sign my guestbook!!!!!!!!! |
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October 28, 2000 |
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Hey everyone!!!!!!!! How's things been going? I'm not doing too bad. I'm officially 5 weeks post-op and as of October 19, 2000, down a total of 40lbs. That puts my weight at 367lbs. I'm working on getting a chart with my stats on it, but I have to have my sister help me with that one because I have to use FrontPage. I don't know how to use it. I need to learn how. I also got my "before" pictures developed, but we haven't gotten the chance to get the scanner reinstalled. I also have some pics at 5 weeks post-op. I will get them posted as soon as I can. My before pictures were taken the morning of surgery. I look stoned!!!!!!!!! I hate getting my picture taken. I don't know if that will ever change. I'm just not photogenic. On another note, my pal and angel Sandy has FINALLY made it to the other side!!!!!!!!!!!!! So has my friend Holly. I'm so happy for both of them. Sandy had her surgery on October 19, 2000 and Holly had hers on September 29, 2000. Holly is doing really well but Sandy is kinda in the nauseous stage right now, which those of us who have had surgery knows is not fun. I just keep telling her to give it time and it will pass. The eating thing for me is still difficult, but is getting easier by the day. I haven't had any problem eating and I haven't thrown up. I did drink too much orange juice once and almost got sick. Not a pleasant feeling, that's for sure. I try really hard not to push it. I did start going back to OA. My weightloss support group meetings are good, but they are only once a month and they really don't focus much on the food aspect of the surgery. I just need to do something. I feel like I obsess about food more now then I did before surgery. It's driving me CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!! I know it's going to take time, but I just really need to do something. Will see what happens. |
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October 27, 2000 |
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I haven't purposely not been on to update my journal, but my hard drive crashed. I lost pretty much everything. It's been such a mess trying to get everything all back up. Well then we finally thought we had everything back up and then got a virus that immobilized our windows program, so my dad had to reformat everything. Plus the computer is still acting all funky. I just wanted to get on and let you all know that I haven't forgotten about you. I promise to get on as soon as I can to update more. Take care until then. |
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October 12, 2000 |
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Sorry I haven't been really good about keeping my journal updated since my surgery. I just really haven't had the energy to write about what's going on. All I feel like I've been doing is whining and complaining. I'm kinda in the rut right now because I just don't feel all that great. I just want to be through with all the "transition" stuff. I think this is the worst. I don't like to eat anymore. I try to avoid it at all costs. My problem is that I don't eat and then I get too hungry and then I feel sick. I don't recommend not eating and I don't not eat purposely, it's just too much of a hassle. I actually have to think and prepare to eat. It's just not something I'm use to. My mom told me the other day that it takes 13 weeks to break a habit. Man, I don't want to have to wait 13 weeks!!!!!!!!! I just try to keep telling myself that I'm through the worst of it, the surgery itself. I'm really hoping to go back to work next week. I will probably go back only half days at first, but I think getting back to "normal" will really help my transition. I still feel weird. I'm just impatient. I want to be at the point where I can just function again. My department at work every year goes on an outing. I work in customer service and since we really have to work as a team, my employers feel it's necessary to have little outings every year. Most of the time we just stick around town and get a cabin at a park or something like that. Well of course this year they've decided to take us all to Minneapolis, everything paid for. Well of course they leave tomorrow and my doctor said that there was no way in hell he'd release me to go. I, of course, have never been to Minnesota and I really, really, really, really want to go. I have only been in that particular department for 4 months. It just really sucks because I haven't been on a vacation in over a year and I just really want to get out of Omaha. I'll get over it, I know, but I just want to go. Anyway, I've bitched enough. I promise to try to write a more upbeat entry tomorrow. |
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