Listening to: The Cure, The Toadies, Queensryche, Webb Wilder (how's that for a combo, huh?)

Still reading:   The Man Who Fell in Love with the Moon ~ Tom Spanbauer

Also reading: Coldheart Canyon ~ Clive Barker. You really didn't think that I'd just let it sit there unread, did you?

Web essay of the day:Three Nouns and a Verb

O.k, I had a first. I worked a candle spell (that's not it) and the inspiration for it came from...Seinfeld. I almost lost it in Wally World yesterday when the idea came to me ~ white candle, appropriately one of those 'air clean' ones, with pict runes on it spelling out 'SERENITY NOW!!' It must be working because I laugh everytime I light the damn thing. I can't help but to think of Jerry Stiller holding on to his card table for dear life and yelling 'SERENITY NOW!!!' at top of his lungs.

Also helping could be the fact that I finally got my cd player to working again. It hadn't been working for about a week or two. Evidently, I got a bit of charcoal or eraser in it while I was working on a drawing and changing CDs. Compressed air works wonders. I can finally groove on Robert Smith's voice again. yummy.

Today was better. I mean, how can a person stay blue when they have a SERENITY NOW!!! candle? Still, with that said, I'm still plenty pissed. After all that's been said, he's still calling me. He called me last night after I went to bed. He's called twice today and left messages. I can't believe that after all of this, he actually thinks that I will just take whatever he says and go on as if everything is alright and act as if nothing is wrong.

Oh...and then there's the bullshit of making these major decisions about...whatever the hell this is...and not telling me a damn thing until I push it ~ usually days or weeks later (hey, I never said I was bloody brilliant ~ evidently whatever the hell this is ended weeks ago and I'm just now finding out. This after all the 'It's not over!'s ::_insert much eye rolling here_::) I mean, shit, don't you usually tell the other person involved that you want out of the relationship? You don't just f*ckin' make up your mind one day that everything is awful, keep calling the other person everyday like nothing's changed and just forget to tell them that there is no relationship anymore. Hell, for all I know, he really did plan the whole damn thing and I really am a fool.

Well, if I am a fool, it's the first card in the major arcana of the Tarot. It symbolizes beginnings and journeys. Everybody's got to start somewhere, I suppose.

Hey, on a definite positive note ~ two more days until I get some more gen-u-wine Warhols. I never really understood Warhol until I saw that one in the pop art exhibit at the Frist back in the spring. Before, I thought it was just flat patches of color underneath a silk screen. But nooo, it's actually wonderful ~ the 'flat' patches aren't flat at all. They're really thick applications of color ~ so thick, they nearly become a structural element onto themselves...

Ha! All that from one Warhol...I can't wait to see more...it'll be nice to visit with Athena again too. heh ~ I wonder if anyone still brings her olives?

OH yeah ~ about the .wav file: it's Tom Hulce, from Amadeus. I love that laugh...how can you not laugh manically right along with it?