So Whats next? Well, we continue to chat everynight, learn more and more about one another. Our situations were so similiar, both feeling trapped in fourteen year relationships, unhappy but not doing much to change our lives. The more we learned about each other, the more I began to realise our lives, had been running parallel to one anothers and finally had crossed the others. There have been so many "coincidences" in this relationship, it sometimes can be strange, or things that happen out of the blue that make our lives more enhanced as a couple. With neither of us really looking, we found each other. All along Tim and I have said, our chance meeting, stemmed from something beyond our control. Something or someone, has stepped in and allowed the two of us to become one. Timothy's mother, Kathleen passed on at the very early age of fify, Tim was never able to truly grieve. From what I know now of Kathleen, she was a wonderful loving woman and mother. She loved life, and all things in it, she made choices along the way to keep herself happy, shouldnt we all do this? There have been many times when Tim has shared a story or thought about his mum and not only have I noticed but he as well, her and I shared many a common view on this life we are given, or the things we enjoy in it. Which leads us to believe "Mum" is seeing over us from somewhere above. So to the Mother I never got to know, I say a little thank you, for giving me such a wonderful man to share my life with! Now I have learned again to count my blessings, take things as they come my way, and be very thankful for what I have. A month into our communication, Tim one day sais, "I have to say this, because it is how I feel, I am so in love with you." My heart melted my thoughts eased, I think I loved him nearly from the start. I saw in him, the most loving kind man, who so very much deserved to be loved for a change. For once I wanted to love someone, I wanted to be devoted to someone, I wanted to LIVE! With all of this said, I had to meet him, had to prove what we already knew and felt was true, that this wasnt just some spur of the moment, internet connection that just happened to make us feel good at the time. So the plans began! I researched a trip to England, got my passport, found a cottage to stay in, and bought the ticket. Two and a half months of planning and waiting for that first glimpse of one another on the same soil. We counted down seventy days all the way to zero, sixty five seemed as far away as five did, it just couldnt happen quick enough it seemed. Finally October the thirtieth arrived, I boarded a plane and Tim signed up for updates on flights with American Airlines. It was hapening!
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