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| If you could see what I can see . . (7/18/02) (dedicated and written for Jude ^j^) If you could see, what I can see, you would realize, you are special. So many love you, miss you when you are gone, always want to be near you, you help the pain. So many admire, how strong you are, you seem to make it through, when others might've fallen. You are beautiful on the outside, as well as on the inside, a combination that, is hard to get. If you could see the person, that I can see, you would feel very special, and very loved. *~*Angelic Skye*~* |
| I Only Wanted (7/18/02) I only wanted, to play with my dolls, you came with a thunder, up the stairs. I only wanted, to dress up my dolls, you say I am too loud, when my voice was quiet. I only wanted, to brush my doll's hair, all you wanted, is to be unfair. Bad little girl you say, I am always so bad, I can't do anything right, I am stupid. I only wanted, to be loved, to feel comfort, to feel safe. *~*Angelic Skye*~* |
| Feeling (7/18/02) don't know if I, can handle it, these feelings, are overwhelming. depressed, sad, lonely, too much for me. i wanna find, some peace, but it always, seems to elude me. this road, to healing, is so tough, it is too much. *~*Angelic Skye*~* |
| Your Cruelty (8/3/02) I was never good enough for you, nothing I ever did was right, you told me I was nothing, you beat me up good alright. You would like for me to hate myself, You would like me to feel guilty, You would like me to be tortured, You would like me to cry and cry. I am older now, I look back on your cruelty, I am glad that it, isn't inside of me. For I would rather die, than become what you are, I am a better person than you, could ever in this lifetime wish you were. *~*Angelic Skye*~* |
| Mom (8/3/02) My cries when unheard in the night, tears that scarred my heart, no one was there to comfort the child, who had a broken heart. You were told of an incident, where I was beat, You look at me for what to do, then cried defeat. Your head became unstable, not your fault I know, but your little girl's were scared, when the signs would show. Your veins would stand out, on your head, in the car you drove and said, you'd drive off the bridge and we'd all be dead. I kept believing in you, telling myself it would pass, holding onto my dear sanity, but that didn't last. You left my abuser, no emotional abuse for you, I still had to see him, until I finally got through to you. Always more important, was for you to find a mate, leaving us all alone, while you went on your dates. You finally found the one, then to my surprise, I find out you avoid us, my heartache does rise. I thought that I meant more, to you than that, you discard my heart, like an old hat. I keep hoping, one day you will see, the love I have for you, inside of me. Unconditional and free, it needs nothing to be there, but for some reason, you still don't care. *~*Angelic Skye*~* |
| Tears (8/20/02) tears are falling down my face, for everything seems upside down, my head is swirling all around, i feel like nothing is right, as it should be. i don't know what, to do or say anymore, let alone name a feeling, all i feel is pain, flodding my being. i just want, things to get better, so I don't, have to hurt, no more. *~*Angelic Skye*~* |
| Untitled (9/3/02) cry a thousand tears, that no one will see, hurt that is deep inside of me, i can't deal, i just can't stay, in the present, instead of the past. i walk alone, a silent road, inside my head the journey begins. another time, another day, i was ruined, tossed away. deemed insignificant, ignored, was never good enough, at any time. who cares for the lil one, who endured the pain, no one cares to know, no one cares to explain. why bother trying, when life slips away, in and out of the past, it isn't good this way. *~*Angelic Skye*~* |
| Feelings in my head (9/4/02) what a child, a child, so little and small. taken advantage of, made dirty by selfish desires, made to be afraid. a child, cowering in the corner, scared to breathe, shaking all alone. looking back, at me, the child I was, I was so sad and lonely all the time. broken heart, just wanting to be loved, waiting for the love that was never got. too bad for that kid, no one did care, they chose not to see, they turned away. bruising and chaos, dirty and soiled, wanting at such a young age, to be dead. feelings rushing through my veins, pain I can't erase, wanting to forget, all that hurts. *~*Angelic Skye*~* |
| Feelings of Emptiness (9/13/02) emptiness surrounds my heart, don't know how to deal, i think i can handle being alone, but I don't think I was being real. echoes fill my head, nothing seems the same, i can feel the void so strong, i start to cry again. i am longing for something, to fill the hole, that i am feeling, in my soul. i don't think anyone can, maybe it's all on me, but it is all the time, how strong do i have to be? *~*Angelic Skye*~* |
| A Big Fuck You (9/17/02) you get mad at me, when i don't do what you expect of me, when i am feeling a certain way, on any day. you want me to be, how you want me to be, i just wanna be free, to be ME. My choices are mine, they may not be divine, but just the same, I'm not playing your game. Yell at me, for the way I be, when I am tired, and just want to lay down to retire. So here's a big FUCK YOU, find someone else to be mean to, I am tired of bullshit, you better fucking quit! *~*Angelic Skye*~* |
| Ex-dad (9/18/02) What kind of man, do you think you are? Fucking up a child, who did nothing to you. Do you ever look at yourself, and feel that you were wrong? You deny it to everyone enough, but YOU are wrong. I know what you did asshole, I am not gonna keep quiet anymore. You better be worried, someone might think you are less than perfect. Oh God forbid if anyone finds out, that you used to beat your daughter. That you used to tell her she was a piece of shit, that you never gave a shit about her. You will never touch my daughter, you will not get anywhere near her. She will never suffer your wrath, your manipulation. Wish I could've been that fucking lucky, wish someone would've helped me. But they all turned around and went about their business, who cares about the little girl who wanted to fucking die? I am tired of putting up with people who put me down, I am standing up to you now- so sit your ass down! I am not the doormat anymore, I am gonna call all my family on the bullshit they put me through. See Ex-dad, you haven't made me stop living like you wanted to. I am still fucking here, while you on the other hand will die alone, i won't be there, the devil will welcome you to hell where you belong. So fuck you asshole, I am not your punching bag anymore. I dare you to try your shit now, I can defend myself now, I will put you in your place, I will be your worst nightmare. So keep staying away asshole, I am so happy with you not in my life, I will be a better person than you ever were, You will rue the day you fucked with me. *~*Angelic Skye*~* |
| Can't Take It (9/25/02) sick and tired of the struggle, breathing, living, enduring, all things are flawed. tired of the pressure, flashbacks, dreams, nightmares, all things that plague me. I can't handle it no more. I hate me, I hate life. I am so tired, of keeping my head above the water. Everyday, same thing, more crap, more stress, leaving me unable to cope. *~*Angelic Skye*~* |
| Putting Myself Out There (10/5/02) I put myself out there, for all to see, my emotions and my pain, hoping past that someone can see, that I am a good person, that I have a good heart, that I am trying. I struggle constantly, not to give up, not to give into the pain, i put myself out there, hoping to help someone, hoping to gain acceptance, just wanting people to know me. It's a scary thing to do, I get scared of how people, will think of me, but I am just human, just like you, don't shy away from me, because I was abused. I know that what I went through, has made me a stronger person, probably made me a better person, made me be able to understand other's pain, but deep inside, I get scared, of sharing what I feel inside. *~*Angelic Skye*~* |
| Mystified (10/20/02) mystified by all your lies your appearance is squeaky clean but i know the truth behind the lies the truth shall be revealed to all so get comfy while you can enjoy your "success" but one day when you least expect it will all fall and you shall be crushed by your lies and the truth shall prevail. *~*Angelic Skye*~* |
| Danger (10/20/02) danger within myself, a raging ball of anger, of outrage, of contempt. a sadness, so filling of the heart, that it feels, like dying. what did i ever, do to deserve, a monster like you, to be my father. you are a liar, manipulator, you are fake, you're henious. keep pushing me, to the danger point, til I can't take, no more. Then you will see. *~*Angelic Skye*~* |
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