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| My Father (Written 8/96 - before I confronted him on the abuse) Daddy, how can you be so mean to me? I don't know what I ever did to you, for I only tried to please you. No matter what I did, or how hard I tried, it was never enough, but why did you have to be so rough? I've spent endless hours, blaming myself for all your, endless hate for me, I now know it is you and not me. As years go on, will you still despise me? I have always tried, and so many tears I have cried. Can you ever be happy with me, and the life I live? Or will this just go on. I'm sorry I'm not what you wanted me to be. ~Angelic Skye~ |
| Razor's Edge (6/96) The razor's edge gleamed in the light, she gripped it in her hand, but oddly she didn't feel any fright, she smiled to herself. Her family was in the house asleep, only she was awake, she thought of memories and began to weep, but that only confirmed what she wanted to do. Daddy put her down, always ignored her, told her to go away, the bruisies on her back she could see in the mirror. She turned to her side, and looked at her wrists, her feelings twisted inside, she took the razor to her wrist. Her pain began to subside, as she began her journey, to the other side, that she didn't know would be hell. ~Angelic Skye~ |
| On My Own (written in '96 I think) I thought I was in heaven, then I walked straight into hell. The life I thought I knew, I don't know well. I can't help the fighting, I can't help all my pain. On my own, for all this time, I always feel the rain. I wish someone could help me, I wish they could understand. Maybe someday my day will come, or maybe this is my last stand. Hold on to tomorrow, that may be all I have to keep. Trying to be loved, trying not to weep. Maybe this is from God, a punsihment for bad. Trying to get me back, by taking everything I had. All this insanity, hurts within my heart. I wish I was someone else, and had a brand new start. Maybe time will tell, between heaven and hell. If I do the things I do, I should try to do them well. Try to keep going, and keep hold of the hope, that I can make life better, that I can cope. Even when the bad, makes things hard to do, and outweighs the good, I pray I can find the hope to hold on to. ~Angelic Skye~ |
| Depressed (7/24/01) The sun is shining, but not in the window of my soul. Happiness is floating all around me, but I can't grab it - so happy I won't be. Even though try as I may, I always end up in dismay. Close my eyes, peek inside. I have no control, dark is my soul. ~Angelic Skye~ |
| Dreaming (7/24/01) I dream at night, that things are different. That you are here for me, and that I am not spent. I dream at night, I can see your face. You say you are sorry, my bad life you wish you could erase. Maybe inside my mind, I wish these things were true. Or maybe I am just knowing, that it will never come true. I dream at night, you say you love me. "Daddy loves his little girl. Sorry I wasn't the daddy you needed me to be." I dream at night, how things should be. In ignorant bliss. My dreams that will never come true. ~Angelic Skye~ |
| Untitled (7/24/01) Darkness surrounds me, the cold settles in, my body is cold, my soul is numb. I am not afraid, of the blackness around. I am only shivering, in fear of myself. The thoughts in my head, about wanting to die, slice up my heart, and gouge out my eyes. I can not see the light, I can not see the good, I can not see the happy, I can not see anything. So I drown myself, in self pity, and in my tears, I do not move. My hands start to shake, I try to turn off my mind. Then I give in, and just lay there. Let it all pass me by, there is no sound, of time that goes by, only the beating of my heart. ~Angelic Skye~ |
| Thoughts (7/24/01) Sometimes I sit in my dark room, trying to sleep, wondering, why me? No answers come to my head, I wonder if I am dead, and then, I breathe. We all go through experiences, We all go through pain. Why should, I think I am any different. Sometimes I sit on the couch, watching TV, losing, my mind. While someone goes through, what I went through, and is thinking, the same thoughts as me. ~Angelic Skye~ |
| Memories (8/14/01) I can see through, the fog of my mind. Resist as I may, It is all right in front of my eyes. Daddy coming toward me, red firey hatred in his eyes. His fists are clenched so tightly, hanging at his side. He runs, stomping, over to me. He screams loud his face is so close to mine. He grabs my arm and shakes me, his warm spit flies on my face. He yells at me that I am no good, I will never amount to anything, I can't do anything right, He is disappointed in me. His quick angry hands, hit my little body. Leaving purple bruises, leaving me ashamed of myself. He exits the room, and I sit all alone. Hot tears running down my face, my hands covering my eyes. Wondering what I did to deserve it. ~Angelic Skye~ |
| Untitled (8/30/01) He didn't realize the impact he had, He didn't see the darkness in her eyes, His evil had won, He sent her out into the world like a loaded gun. All those words and actions that hurt, Were buned inside her mind, She believed them all, And she knew that somehow she would fall. Never thought she'd turn into this, Not even he had known, The chaos she had become, Flying too close to the sun. Shaky she is inside, Waiting for the moment, Watch out world for anger, When it comes no one will contain her. She dives into the pool of blood, That used to be her soul, Laying there empty and dead, Gunshot to the head. No one will know, What she could've become, Because she was flying to close, To the sun. ~Angelic Skye~ |
| *sigh* (9/7/01) All alone in the dark recesses of my soul no one understand my heart they think so many things that aren't true. I try to hold on to the last bit of life i got left but when I open my mouth no one wants to hear me. So quick to conclusions read between the lines don't listen to the whole thing they go away. Follow the leader don't have a different thought in your head if you do you'd be better off dead. I don't know why I bother opening up to anyone no one cares anymore they always shut the door. I will keep it in let it swell won't fight back for anything I believe let me go to hell. ~Angelic Skye~ |
| Little Girl (9/10/01) She never knew what she'd done, All she saw was the evil glow in his eyes, Burning straight through her soul, She could feel his hate and despise. His anger was dealt upon her, The terror in her eyes, He never noticed her pain, Not even her cries. ~Angelic Skye~ |
| Depression (10/10/01) darkness falls, before my eyes, creeping slowly, across the room. my heart hurts, my head in pain, I feel heavy, and lifeless. sinking into, that old, familiar hole, of despair. ~Angelic Skye~ |
| Gentle Whispers (10/23/01) Holding on to hope, holding on to love, whispers softly, fill the night. A reassuring touch, a heart filled with love, is it enough, to fill the void? ~Angelic Skye~ |
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| My Feelings Tonight (10/30/01) I wish I could be happy, just for one whole day. All these jumbled feelings, in my head just won't go away. Just don't know how to be, don't know how to feel. Sometimes it is just so hard, for me to deal. My hopelessness ensues, making me so afraid. I begin to think, This is just how I've been made. My restless mind, is haunting me tonight. Gripped in memories and sorrow, leaving me in fright. I don't want to be like this forever, I truly want to heal. But how can things change, If I don't know how to feel? ~Angelic Skye~ |
| To Myself (11/13/01) take a deep breath, let it go, you aren't who they say you are, that you already know. take another breath, let it go, they can't hurt you, you won't let it show. breathe in, let it go, the past is past, the future is to come. take a deep breath, let it go, for hurting is ok, in time it will fade, ~Angelic Skye~ |
| Untitled (11/13/01) I feel so sad tonight sick and tired of having to fight for everything in my life struggling and holding on to my sanity. why does things have to be like this i guess that thought i have to dismiss it gets me nowhere fast and doesn't help at all. overwhelming feelings come over me i don't know how to make them let me be but i will keep trying as i may because i won't let them win. i just wish for some peace and for everything bad to cease but that may never happen and i should just give up on that hope. ~Angelic Skye~ |
| Depression Within (11/20/01) In the depths of darkness, I struggle to see, the light everyone says, that is in front of me. Just be happy they say, smile and stay awake, and put on some make-up, but it all feels so fake. My head is pounding, I am so tired that I can't hardly move, What is it that I, am trying so hard to prove? Is it me, is them, is it HIM, I look within. Finding no answers in sight, I give up my plight, and just let myself go, silently into the night. ~Angelic Skye~ |
| Old Friends (11/28/01) Memories of time past, blended in the sands of time, feeling oh so sad, feeling left behind. Faces i can remember, faces I never knew, things are different now, nothing remains the same. Loneliness enslaves me, and occupies my heart, miss all the people I knew, that helped me from the start. Old friends will blend into, the fabric of time, maybe one day the sting, won't hurt so bad. It is always hard to say good-bye. ~Angelic Skye~ |
| Sitting in the Corner Over Here (11/28/01) Here I am, sitting in my corner, left in the darkness, all alone. Sitting in the corner, with tears down my face, a pain in my heart, I am afraid can't be erased. Wanting to reach out, but the words just won't come, so I give up, and just continue on. ~Angelic Skye~ |
| Ex-Dad (12/4/01) He swooped down, on a child in fright, he didn't care, if it was day or night. Slaps and punches, didn't matter where, as for reasons, it was just because she was there. The pain in her heart, the pain in her soul, she kept it all down, so no one would know. He told her so many things, how she was useless and bad, how she would never make it, the worst daughter he had. Memories that are never broken, memories that are always there, the child inside hurts so bad, that's why is is still so hard to share. ~Angelic Skye~ |
| Untitled (12/13/01) Pain in my heart, pain in my soul, stuff it down, so no one will know. Keep on a fake smile, feel like an ass, all the while no one knows, my heart is made of glass. Shattered in a million pieces, don't know how to begin, to pick it all up, and continue on again. ~Angelic Skye~ |
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