Poetry Page 2 - Angelic's Poetry

Untitled (1/1/02)

The pain is mine,
you can't take that away from me,
you must be blind,
for my pain you can't see.

Why do you turn the other way,
when my pain is discovered?
Why do you turn your head,
when I hide under the covers?

I feel so alone,
I can't take it anymore,
getting through life,
is too much of a chore.

How do you find,
the hope necessary to carry on,
when the hurt inside,
without mercy continues on?

I try to find the strength,
inside of me,
but it must hide,
for it i can't see.

Looking for an outstretched hand,
to help me heal,
or at least someone or something,
that can help me deal.

When I cry,
you turn your head,
how can't you hear me crying,
in our own bed?

Help me get rid of,
that voice inside my head,
that tells me,
I am better off dead.

*~* Angelic Skye*~*

Struggling (1/1/02)

I have a hard time seeing,
what is there in front of me,
I am tired of trying,
to hold a smile that isn't feeling.

And I keep struggling,
I am struggling.

I can't see,
the sunshine,
that's always in front of me,
it's too hard to try to,
but easy to give up on me.

I am down,
and I am hurt,
more than anyone can see.

The voices in my head,
tell me I'm pathetic.

And I am pathetic,
pathetic,
pathetic,
I am.

It's not as if,
I confess all my feelings to you,
I am afriad,
if you see you will head for the hills.

But I keep struggling,
I am struggling.

*~* Angelic Skye*~*

I Need Strength (1/1/02)

Oh Lord please help me,
I cry in my head,
there is a part of me,
that doesn't want to end up dead.

It is just so hard,
to get through,
and I know I need to,
depend more on you.

Please give me the strength,
to go on,
to perservere through it all,
to hold on.

I know I don't deserve,
anything I have been given,
but I repent,
and I will try to stop sinning.

Just help me God,
I think you're the only one,
who can at all,
before I fall.

*~*Angelic Skye*~*

Do My Tears Not Mean A Thing? (2/5/02)

Memories are not quite vivid,
like a weird dream,
leaving me frightened,
leaving me exposed.

My family who sees me,
cry my tears,
i am hurting so bad,
but you just stare.

Do my tears not mean a thing?
Does my heart ache,
does my heart break,
for you not to even care?

Too busy inside,
your own little reality,
to come and see mine,
filled with pain and shame.

Wake up and look at me,
I am not what I appear,
pain inside is oh so real,
and very hard to bear.

Can't you see it in my eyes,
the dark circles that surround them,
the pain in the tiredness of my face,
my tears, do they not mean a thing to you?

How I wish they would.

*~*Angelic Skye*~*

You Were Supposed to be There (2/6/02)

Someone I used to know,
Someone that used to care,
is now gone.

Used to be my confidant,
Used to be my friend,
that I could depend on.

I thought you were different,
I thought you really cared,
I thought you liked me.

You seemed to relate to me,
You seemed to understand me,
but now you are gone.

I guess I didn't mean that much to you,
wasn't that special,
or anything at all to you.

I do wish you well,
in your life ahead,
and all that you do.

I will take the pain,
keep it to myself,
and never tell you.

I miss you.

*~*Angelic Skye*~*

Not There (2/9/02)

spinning thoughts,
not complete,
can't keep them in my head.

they disappear,
in a second,
i can't keep track of them.

the world seems,
so surreal,
like I am not even in it.

on the inside,
looking out,
into the wonder and confusion.

*~*Angelic Skye*~*

My Daughter (2/9/01)

You are so beautiful,
the most pretty in the world,
can not compare.

You are so innocent,
I hope that I can,
protect you from the world.

You are so funny,
that even in my darkness,
I can crack a smile.

You are so kind,
and I hope that,
you always are.

You are so good,
I hope that I,
can be a good mother to you.

I want the best for you,
in all of the world,
I want to keep you safe.

*~*Angelic Skye*~*

Me (2/25/02)

sick and tired of being me,
wish there was someone else I could be,
tired of fighting to live,
tired of abusers I have to forgive,
my mind can't think straight,
not sure if I will make it to the pearly gate,
i can't help but think I am bad,
and I am just so very sad,
flashbacks haunt me,
not sure how to feel or be,
why does things have to be this way,
why are things so hard for me to say,
confusion sets in and I can't think,
thoughts are gone before I blink,
frustrated beyond belief,
lost childhood gives me grief,
one day I hope it will be easier,
that is for sure,
it's just so hard to cope,
and not to give up hope.

*~*Angelic Skye*~*

Up, Down, All Around (2/22/02)

up and down and all around,
emotions can't decide,
how to be,
how to feel.

so many feelings,
flood my mind,
tired of it,
wish i could pick a feeling.

happy and sad and feeling bad,
when is this,
roller coaster ride,
going to be done?

pick a feeling,
stupid mind,
i am sick of too many,
it is driving me nuts.

*~*Angelic Skye*~*

Untitled (2/18/02)

little girl,
broken and battered,
never told,
she was loved.

only a child,
was made to do,
things she,
never should've done.

just a teenager,
beaten down,
lonely and scared,
of everyone.

just a teenager,
turned to drugs,
to fill the void,
of emptiness inside.

just a woman,
trying to hang on,
just trying to live,
day by day.

just a woman,
reaching out,
to face the truth,
of her past.

*~* Angelic Skye *~*

Get Out (2/18/02)

go away,
get out of my head,
i don't want you,
there anymore.

i don't,
want to remember you,
i don't want to,
feel the pain anymore.

you caused,
all my pain,
an innocent child,
was beaten into insanity.

you made,
me believe that I,
was horrible and not worth,
the air I would breathe.

get out,
of my head,
i can't stand to remember,
what you did anymore.

*~* Angelic Skye*~*

I wanna fly (3/3/02)

i want to fly,
so high,
up in the sky,
i want to go,
so far,
where nobody knows,
i want to be free,
and happy,
to be me,
i want to fly,
so very high,
where no one can touch me.

*~*Angelic Skye*~*