| beanery. page 2. 12/01/02 (cont.) If my father ever sees the tattoo I'm getting, I'm a dead duck. It is, of course, of Piccolo and Gohan in a rather compromising position, and my father is not one to go in for that sort of thing. If my mother ever saw it, she would probably not understand what it was, and then she would say that it's sicker than sick when I explain it to her. "Oh, Bean! Why in the name of God would you put something like that on your body?? Don't you know what the bible tells us about homosexuals??" "But mom! Piccolo is neither male NOR female! How can he be gay if he's neither sex?!" "You just called that thing a 'he'! So he is gay, then??!" *smack in the forehead!* "People only call Piccolo a 'he' because he looks male! That doesn't mean that he is male, mom." I think the conversation would go something like that, although it's hard to tell at this point. My parents' reactions to my labret (of which I have no piccys...it's one of my more current acquisitions...) were totally unexpected and kind of reversed. While I thought my dad would be irate and my mother would shrug it off, my father laughed and said, "I'm gonna put a lead rope on that thing!" and my mother almost cried. After that, I can't exactly say WHAT their individual reactions would be, but I know one thing for sure. I'm sick of hiding from them and hope that one day, they can see what I truly am and accept it. I'm even having trouble hiding it from my brother, and that hurts because I love him dearly and tell him everything. For some people, there would be no problem in letting their families know that they're Witches, or Occultists, or whatever the case may be, but in my family it's going to be incredibly difficult. Every single one of them (on my mother's side... I have almost no contact with my father's family...), and I do mean almost EVERY SINGLE ONE of them is a devout Lutheran/Christian with very anti-occult views. Especially my grandparents, whom I love dearly. I think it's out of love and respect for these people that I don't tell them. I respect them too much. I can't just go around waving my Witch-flag in their faces. They've all been very kind and loving to me inspite of my years and years of black, leather, trenchcoats, spikes, odd hair, and evil band shirts. My aunt still asks me to babysit my little cousins, who are 9 and 5 years old, even though I've got a slave hoop dangling from my bottom lip and a pentagram around my neck (which is small enough that I don't think she's noticed it...). There are only two people in my mother's family who might understand... I have these two cousins. One is a couple of years older than me, and the other is a couple younger. They are brothers, punks, and rats like me with piercings and weird hair. I wonder what they would say to my Witchery and penchant for yaoi doujinshi... I've been wanting to talk to them for a long time. I might just have to pay them a visit. I want to tell them mostly out of trying to find someone out of my immediate family to relate to. Maybe... Well, the beanery is full once again. Time to move on. L8r. -bean p.s. 17 DAYS TIL TWO TOWERS!!!! |