SERIES : the
Trilogy
PAIRING : Buffy/Angel, Spike/Dru
[ALSO minor pairings: Spike/Faith, Raith/Riley, Willow/Oz]
OVERALL RATING : Parts 3,6,9 are
rated NC17. Part 28 is rated R. Otherwise, parts are rated PG14.
SPOILERS : I Will Remember You
& my fic the Challenge
DISCLAIMER : I do not own these characters.
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PART 13 (PG – Timepieces)
“Spike?
Time to go love.”
“I know,
I was just resting.”
“I know,
we’ve been busy, I’m sure she has been too. I can’t wait to see my Angel.”
“You
weren’t going to say that name again, love.”
“What? I
can’t see my daddy?”
“I thought
I was…”
“Shhh,
you are, but Angel is or was my daddy, and I want my daddy back.”
“What do
you mean?”
“I mean,
by the time I’m done with the slayer, he’ll be begging to come back.”
“Dru…”
he was panicking, had he wanted Angel around, he never would have gone to Buffy
in the first place and the world would probably have been sucked into hell.
“Shhh…
Spike… quiet love, let’s go, did you find the girl?”
“Not
yet, but Max will… he just needs time.”
“So,
where do we look for the slayer? Better yet, I’m hungry.”
“I know
where we will probably find all you can eat.”
“A
buffet? Goody.”
“So, do
you love him?”
“What?”
“Riley.”
“Riley?
Why?”
“Because
you were lovers and I want to know if you love him.”
“I love
you Angel.”
“I know,
but do you love him?”
“Angel…
let’s get into this now, we have to be at the Bronze in like 20 minutes and
we’ll probably have to kill a few vampires on the way… so let’s afford
ourselves time.”
“Buffy,
I want to know, this is serious.”
“Why?”
“Because
Buffy, I’m still not normal… I’ve still got bag…”
“Angel,
you are a nice normal guy who I love and want to spend forever with.”
“Buffy,
I’m not normal, normal guys can’t recall the powdered wig days with personal intimate
knowledge of the colonization of the Americas.”
“Angel,
you’re a guy with a past, everyone has one, I have one… we have one together
and that’s the way we’re going to be. Riley doesn’t matter.”
“Does
he? Do you still have feelings for him? Do you love him?”
“Angel,”
she walked to him, why was he pushing so much? “Angel, I care about Riley, I
love you. I don’t want a normal relationship, I never did, I wanted you, no
matter how I had to have you.”
“Buffy,
I wanted that too, but I wanted you to have someone who could make love to you
and give you children and a life and someone who could grow old with you and
watch you hair turn gray…”
“And now
you can. Angel, just because you’re normal now and I can have you, it doesn’t
mean that I don’t want you now… that whole forbidden love thing, it wasn’t
working, I wanted you… a relationship isn’t worth having if it’s not with you.”
“Then
why would you have sex with him?”
“Angel,
I was lonely, I wanted to make the pain stop anyway possible… I tried being happy
Buffy… it didn’t work, I tried being Anne in LA, that didn’t work, nothing did,
I want you and now I can… I mean it was just sex.”
“Surely
you must have felt something for him.”
“Yeah,
he’s a really good friend, I mean, I love him in a friendly way.”
“Buffy,
tell me the truth, I don’t care what it is, just tell me.”
“The
truth? The truth?”
“I can
handle it.”
“The
truth? I don’t know Angel. I never wanted to be unfaithful to you even though
you wanted me to, you told me to, you left me and told me to find a normal
life, so I tried, Parker was a mistake, I thought he cared, but he was using
me, a life lesson in college, I guess everyone does it. But Riley? I guess we
have something in common, he couldn’t tell anyone about the initiative, I
couldn’t tell anyone about the slayer thing, and we had things in common, we
could talk and he’s funny and he’s smart… and he’s strong, he could fight,
protect himself, he wasn’t a bad kisser,” his face went pale, paler than it had
been in the past couple weeks. “But Angel? He wasn’t you, he couldn’t even
begin to compare. When I’m with you Angel, it’s like I can’t breathe, I can’t
sleep without you and I can’t live without knowing you’re here. The past few
months have torn me up inside, it’s like I just wanted to give up fighting a
demon, or a vampire and just let it kill me, I wanted… I wanted you to take me
with you and you didn’t. Angel, I wanted…”
“Buffy,
I’d thought about it, I won’t deny that I’d never thought about it, I wanted
to… but I couldn’t, I hated to do that, I shouldn’t have done that.”
“Angel,
I’m glad you did… I know I shouldn’t be, but I am, it’s… he’s not you, he’s
never been you, he pales in comparison, Angel, when I’m with you, I have to
remember to breathe, you kiss me and I want to die, it’s just so intense, I
can’t be with you enough, can’t be close enough to you… You don’t have to worry
about Riley, I have what I want, and he’s right here. Okay?”
“Okay.
Shall we go?”
“Yeah,
we should, but we could just stand everyone up.”
“No,
that’s not the plan.”
“Don’t
you want to just stay here, try that wall thing again?”
“Maybe
it’s best when not planned…”
“Just
promise me you’ll do it once though.”
“I
promise, let’s go.”
She was
relieved as they walked toward the Bronze. She had gotten to say the things she
had wanted to but never had the guts to say. She walked with a lighter load, he
could feel her, less tense, holding onto his hands a little less protectively,
she was beginning to believe in him.
“Buffy?”
“What?”
“Buffy,
I want to tell you something.”
“Tell
me.”
“It
drove me crazy seeing him touch you at the Bronze the night I came back, and
this morning when you were talking to him in the hallway, and it killed me when
Willow told me you had been with him. It drove me crazy thinking of leaving you
so someone else could be with you and I couldn’t. I hated leaving, I didn’t
want to but I had no choice, you deserved someone who could kiss you, who could
make love to and not worry about turning into a serial killer. And sometimes, I
still think it’s inside me. I was…”
“Angel,
you’re not the same guy who killed everyone. I know that, why don’t you?”
“Buffy,
even before I was changed, I was worthless, I took advantage of women and drank
all the time and had fights in bars… and hurt people, ignored my parents and
then I killed them.”
“Angel,
I know you killed them, that wasn’t you, it was the demon, you may have been a
louse, but you weren’t a killer, you’re not one now and people change. Look at
Cordelia, she was a bitch and now she’s learning about herself… you did too. A
lot of people change when they fall in love, look at me, I never looked forward
to the future until I learned about my destiny, and then I met you and a future
without you isn’t one I wanted.”
“I know.
We’re here.”
“I know,
want to talk later?”
“Yeah,
let’s have some fun.”
“Are you
going to dance with me?”
“I don’t
dance.”
“Slow
dance only, all you have to do is hold me.”
“I can
do that.”
PART 14 (PG14 – Dance With Me)
They
walked in and everyone was there.
“Hey
guys! The Scooby gang is back!” Buffy said as she hugged her best buds.
“Yeah,
and look, so are the blood sucking vampires we know all too well.” Cordelia
said pointing in the direction of Spike and Drusilla as they danced in the
middle of the dance floor.
“What
are they doing here?” Willow asked. Buffy didn’t know, they didn’t seem to be
hunting, but why were they there?
“I don’t
know, but I guess I should find out. I’ll go ask.”
“Buffy?
You don’t just walk up to Drusilla and Spike and ask them why they’re
somewhere.”
“Why not
Angel? I mean, it cuts to the chase, gets to the point and I’m in the mood to
kick some girl ass, who’s better than Dru’s?”
She
walked up to them and tapped Spike on the shoulder. “Eh em. May I cut in?”
“Buffy!
What a pleasant surprise, I see you’ve brought my Angel with you.”
“He’s
not yours Drusilla, he left you, remember? He doesn’t want your kind anymore.”
“Or does
he?” Drusilla walked over to Angel and pressed against him.
He
hadn’t really seen her since before Acathla was released. He remembered her
scent, the perfume she wore, the feel of her grinding against him on the floor
of the mansion. Things he enjoyed, things he still thought about, things he had
done with girls before he’d met Darla, things he’d never tell Buffy about, he
couldn’t.
“I think
he remembers perfectly well Buffy, the fun times we had together don’t you
love?”
“Fun
times? I wouldn’t call them that, maybe pathetic.”
“Oh, you
don’t mean that, you don’t want to anyway, you have a lot to loose now, your
life for one, I bet you can still taste the blood in your mouth, Buffy’s blood,
you think about it… you can’t tell which you like more, the blood or her body,
and it makes you sick.”
“Such a
great performance, but you know, if you two are going to stay in Sunnydale,
you’re not going to do it at the Bronze, now let’s just go outside and fight.”
“Oh,
we’re not here to fight, we thought we’d say hi, and maybe catch a little
snack.”
“Drusilla,
I think these are the longest sentences I’ve ever heard, have you been seeing a
therapist? I mean, you do need some help, you’re not exactly all sane and
everything.”
“You’d
be wise to remember that, Buffy.” Drusilla turned toward him, growled in his
ear and moved her tongue on his face from his cheek to his lips. “You would
too, daddy.” She turned and left with Spike.
“Must
you do that love?”
“Jealous
Spike?”
“I’m
just not going to share you again, Dru.”
“You
won’t have to… I’ve got plans, remember, big plans. The girl, she wants Buffy’s
man, she’ll get him, and Buffy will be so distraught she’ll wither up and die
and we’ll give her a proper burial.” He couldn’t stand it, he couldn’t deal
with her when she was thinking about Angel, he took off. She made no attempt to
go after him.
PART 15 (PG14 –Undead)
Angel
turned away from Buffy. She went to him and he couldn’t let her see his eyes.
She often could tell what she was thinking and he couldn’t let her see what he
thinking. Dru was right, she knew these things, she could tell what he was
thinking, more than Buffy could. Dru had him in her, he had her in him. There
existed things he couldn’t ever tell Buffy, things Drusilla knew, and that’s
why she was dangerous. He couldn’t look at Buffy, couldn’t let her see that
being that close to Drusilla again had affected him.
“Angel?”
She spoke and tried to break his silence.
“Buffy,
I…” he couldn’t… he just walked away. He left the Bronze where he came upon
Drusilla once again, this time he didn’t see Spike anywhere.
“Couldn’t
stand it could you Angel?” Dru said. He tried to keep walking, but it didn’t
work. “Angelus… why don’t you just admit it, I know things… you’re in my mind.”
She came close to him, she pressed into him, “You’re warm now… it’s been too
long I’ve felt warmth Angel… come with me, let’s go somewhere…” she wrapped her
arms around his waist and pulled him close. “I can stop this torment Angel, I
can stop it, give you peace of mind.”
“Stop,
get away from me.”
“You
tell me that, and yet you don’t walk away from Angel, we’re connected, more
connected than your Slayer, you may have drank from her Angel, but she never
drank from you, I did. You cared enough to bring me into your world…you never
did that for her.” Her hands were moving slowly down his back, working their
way under his shirt.
“Get
away from me.” He tried to pull away, but she had him.
She
inhaled deeply, “Your smell Angel, no fear, you know you want it, let me give
you what you want, like you gave me what I wanted, what I needed, you know this
wondrous hero routine is wearing thin.” She began necking him, giving him love
bites, he couldn’t refuse, he couldn’t leave. He tried, but she soon was
forging her tongue into his mouth, and he tried to stop, but couldn’t. He tried
to pull away, but she was a part of him. He couldn’t stop.
“I don’t
know what happened. Maybe I should just let him go, no big…”
“Buffy,
that’s not going to solve the problem, you need to go after him. Whatever is
going on, you should talk.” Buffy looked at her best friend, her wisdom was
unbelievable.
“You’re
right Will, I’m gone, catch you tomorrow?”
“Yeah,
definitively.”
She left
the Bronze and began walking toward the apartment when she saw it. Her insides shook
and twisted. She was dying inside, knowing he wasn’t evil, he knew exactly what
he was doing. She tried walking up to them, but she couldn’t, she turn and ran.
He moved
his hands around her and they were kissing. It was wrong, but it felt so right,
natural. He’d been with so many women in his time, alive and undead. He opened
his eyes briefly and saw Buffy running away in the other direction.
“BUFFY!”
He tried to break away, but Dru pulled him back to her.
“Angel…
don’t you see, you’re not meant to be in this world… let m…” he felt it, jus
then, she stopped talking and he felt her fangs puncture deep into his neck.
She had her hands twisted in his shirt and he couldn’t pull away, he tried to
fight it, but he couldn’t, he was helpless.
He felt
the blood being drained from his body, his heart getting weaker and he fell to
the ground and Dru went down with him.
PART 16 (PG – Betrayal & Deceit)
She
walked the streets looking for him, not knowing where she could find him. She
remembered the moments she’d shared with him, under him, under his strength,
his power. He had said he loved her, and she couldn’t admit it, but she loved
him then too. It had been love at first sight. Buffy would loose everything
soon, her man. She was walking the streets she had so many times, and she
stopped. She saw him. He recognized her immediately. He was unsure of what to
do.
“Hi.”
“Hi.” He
said. She didn’t know what to say, so she just grabbed his shirt and pulled him
to her. She had her hands in his hair and could remember grabbing him, pulling
him into her. She met his mouth with hers and he hesitated. She insisted and
soon he was kissing her too. The kiss ended and he took her hand and they just
walked in silence.
Buffy
Summers was walking, she was running, trying to outrun things she didn’t want
to understand. She was going as fast as she could. She ended up at the mansion,
where everything started and ended, where she had killed him and where she had
help him recover. His eyes were everywhere, watching her. She remembered the
dreams she’d had, him yelling at her, telling her she was evil for killing him.
She was crying, she was breaking. She fell to the floor sobbing and soon passed
out.
He had
been stupid, threatening her and leaving. Was it possible she didn’t love him?
He loved her. He had told her, showed her. She had been flirting with every
demon they met and didn’t even try to kill him, she hadn’t cared enough. Maybe
he was wrong, maybe they weren’t meant to be. He arrived back home expecting to
find Dru, but what he found was quite the opposite.
He bent
over, he could hear her heart pumping away. He saw her neck, it was beautiful,
he couldn’t resist, he leaned closer, smelled her skin, her life, and he began
kissing her neck as he put his game face on and he bent in for the drink.
She
awoke gently, feeling Angel nibbling on her neck, like he had often done. Was
it a dream? Maybe she had imagined it. She opened her eyes and she screamed.
“SPIKE!”
“BLOODY
HELL!!!!!!”
“What
are you doing?”
“What
was I doing? You Slayer, me vampire, what do you think I was doing?”
“So what
are you just sitting there for, you have me pinned down, do it!”
“I
can’t.”
“What?”
“I
can’t.”
“The
initiative again?”
“No.”
“Then
why?”
“Because you’re here, your eyes
are red, you’ve been crying, you’re upset. What’s wrong?” He changed back and
let her sit up.
“You
don’t want to know, I don’t want to know, I’m sure you don’t.”
“Tell
me.”
“Where’s
Drusilla?”
“I don’t
know, I got mad at her and I left, told her I’d see her later. Why does she
have to pull that stuff? She knew I hated that, I told her if we were going to
be together, she wasn’t to see him.”
“Well,
you should have been more specific, although I told him the same thing.”
“What
are you talking about cutie?”
“I’m
talking about your girlfriend and my boyfriend making out outside the Bronze.”
“WHAT?!”
“You
heard me. He hands were up his shirt, his hands were all over her and there was
major tongue-age going on. I was stupid for thinking that that was behind him.”
He sat, frozen, she could tell he was just as upset as she was.
“I can’t
believe it. She said she was over him, she said she just wanted to use the girl
to get him and then… why am I talking to you? I HATE YOU!”
“Mutual
feeling, but listen, what can we do about Dru and Angel. You want her, I want
him, so how do we get her to leave him alone? Any ideas?”
“I don’t
know.” Just then they both heard commotion and they looked toward the door.
“SPIKE?
Are you home?”
“YEAH
Dru! I’m in here!”
“I brought
you a present.” She walked in dragging a body, and she let go when she saw
Buffy. “What’s she doing here?”
“I’ll
ask the questions, why were you kissing Angel?”
“Oh, I
was in the moment. Anyway, you can forgive me now, I, it’s perfect Spike!” Buffy
looked down at the body and recognized the clothes, she ran over to him and she
turned his face.
“ANGEL!”
“Spike,
I brought him so you could be sure that I’m over him. I had to get close to
him.”
“You
didn’t… he didn’t… did you?”
“No
Spike, I didn’t, I just killed him a little, there’s just more, do you want to
finish him off, or shall I?”
“ANGEL!”
She tried shaking him, but he was unconscious, she had to get him to the
hospital, she could detect a pulse but not too much, she started doing what CPR
she remembered. She felt a tapping on her shoulder.
“Deary?
You know, you can get him back, there’s still enough life in him, it’ll be
hard, but I can do it. It’s your choice, think your friend could curse him
again? Wanna roll the dice deary?”
He was floating,
he could hear her voice, crying but he couldn’t see her, it was so bright. He
was blinded. He was trying to find her, but he couldn’t. He was being pulled
into the light, he had to go.