Chapter 1
I smile as I’m surrounded by my family and friends; those that love me.“Does anybody want anymore wine?” Jamie asked.
“I do daddy. Thank you.” I lean back on the couch and soak in the atmosphere.
“Hey Brit.”
I turn around and look up at the person standing over me.
“Hello Jason. Are you enjoying yourself?”
“Yeah, thanks for inviting me.” he says as he moves to the vacant space next to me, nursing a beer in one hand.
“Don’t mention it. You’re always welcome in this house.” I say and place my hand upon his thigh. He grabs it with his free hand and rubs it gently.
“No I meant Vegas. Than you for asking me to tag a long.”
I smile. “I want you to be there.” I paused and scooted closer to his side. “We’ll have fun. Me, you, Courtney, Jansen…it’ll be awesome.”
He grins and I watch as he leans in, brushing his lips across mine. My mouth stays open a bit when he moves away.
“I…uh…I’m going to go see where my drink is. My dad probably forgot.” I let go of his hand just to have him grab it again.
“Brit, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to make you feel un…”
“No it’s fine, I’m good.” He stares at me and lets go of my hand. I make my way to the kitchen, pouring myself a glass of wine.
What the hell just happened?
I lean against the refrigerator and attempt to clear my head. Taking a sip of my wine, I place the cup on the counter and pick up the phone. I close my eyes and being to punch in the familiar number that I hold so dear.
“Hello?”
“Hey, Merry Christmas.”
“Britney…Merry Christmas to you too girl.”
“How are you?”
“I’m great. I’m at home with the family. What about you?”
“I’m at home too.” I sigh and start to pace the kitchen floor.
“What’s wrong mami?”
“I’m just…a little stressed out and confused.”
“About what?”
“About what’s going on in my life right now and the feelings that I have.”
“I see. Well tell me what’s going on in your mind right now.” I hop up onto the counter.
“Ok.” I pause and take a deep breath. “Well…there’s this guy…and I’ve been having mixed feelings about him.”
“And…he kissed me to tonight. I don’t know how I feel about it because of my feelings for…”
“B, how many time have I told you? You…”
“I know, I know. I’m just…scared. You know my record with guys. It’s not very good.”
“Listen. Just go with the flow. Do what you feel is right. That’s all you can really do.”
“Yeah.”
“Well hey, don’t worry about it ok? What are you doing for New Years?”
“I’m going to Vegas with a couple of my girlfriends and him.”
“It’s sounds like you’re going to be having a great time. You don’t so sound enthusiastic about it though.”
“I’m just having second thoughts.”
“Britney, don’t beat yourself up over this.” He pauses and I can hear him fumbling with something. “I got to go babe. Take care of yourself.”
“I will. Bye Jc.”
“Bye.”
I hang up the phone and place it next to me. “That helped somewhat.”
“Baby, who were you talking to?”
“Oh, I was just talking to JC mama.”
“Oh that’s nice. Come on, let’s go back out in the living room.”
I nodded as Jc’s words echo in my head.