Prologue
“Cut!”I roll my eyes and sigh as I get up off the man below me.
“Britney, do you think you can put a little more into it please?”
“Sure Joseph.” I say and throw a fake smile. I get back into position and they start the play back. I straddle Martin beneath me, descending my lips upon his. I begin to move my hips as I deepen the kiss. I can feel his hand move and rest on my hip. I decide to end this and gently bite his lip as I lean back up.
“Cut! That was awesome.” Joseph smiled. I nodded.
“All right everybody, that’s a wrap!”
“How did the shoot go today?”“Fine I’m just excited that it’s finished.”
“When is your flight?”
“Um…in a couple of days. Is Jamie Lynn home yet?”
“No, she’s over at Lindsey’s house.”
“Ok.” I lean down and pick up Mickey, placing her in my lap.
“Honey, what’s the matter?”
“Nothing. I just miss you guys that’s all.”
“Well, we’ll get to see each other soon enough.”
I close my eyes. “Yeah.” I pinch the bridge of my nose and take a deep breath. “Well I’m going to bed. I love you mama. Tell Jamie Lynn I love her too.”
“We love you too baby. Good night.”
“Goodnight.”
I hang up the phone and make my way to the kitchen, cradling Mickey under my arm.
“What are we going to eat girl?” I ask, rumbling through the refrigerator. I settle for some yogurt and fumble to get a spoon.
“Mickey calm down.” I scold as she starts to fidget. I put her down and jump as the phone rings.
“Damn it.” I look down at the blob of yogurt in front of me. “Mickey don’t eat that!” I say as she starts to lick at it. I picked her up again and grabbed the phone.
“Hello?”
“Hey…did I catch you at a bad time?”
I close the door to my bedroom and let Mickey scramble our of my arms.”
“No, my dog’s just gone psycho.” I laugh. “How are you?”
“I’m doing good. How are things going for you?”
“Ok. I finished shooting my video today and I’m heading home in a few days.”
“Sounds like fun.”
“Yeah.” I plop down into my bed. “So how are things with you and Cameron?”
“Great actually.”
“Oh that’s good.” I bite my lip and listen to him breathe. “So Justin, you called?”
“Oh yeah. I just wanted to catch up and see how you’re doing?”
“I see...well I’m doing just fine.” I close my eyes, feeling the bitterness creep in. “Sorry, I didn’t mean for it to sound like that.”
He laughs. “It’s ok.” He pauses, “well I’ll let you go. You sound tired. I’ll call you again sometime.”
“Yeah, that’d be nice.”
“Well, take care Brit.”
“You too Justin.”
“Bye.”
I wait for him to hang up and click the phone off, immediately throwing the phone across the room. I dig my fingers through my hair.
“You can’t keep doing this to yourself Britney. You have to stop.”
I take a few more deep breaths before I close my eyes and cry myself asleep.
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