| April 17, 2002 - (Wednesday) Well, the scale is finally moving, albeit slowly, but I'm down an additional 3 pounds, totalling 78 pounds. I chart my weight loss on an Excel spreadsheet and I can't wait to cross off 80 pounds and move onto the next block of numbers. I know I know, I have a HUGE problem with delayed gratification, but I want to get THERE yesterday. I want to be done losing the weight or at least moving toward being done ASAP. God knows what life will be like when I get THERE, but I cannot wait. On the eating front, I'm definitely eating better. I have realized that I can eat small bites of food and come back in a little bit and have more until I'm finished. Eating a normal 3-4 ounce portion at one sitting was not working for me and using this method of getting a little in and finishing up a little bit later is really working for me and I'm able to get my protein in easier. So, for now, that's my eating plan. Maybe I'm just the type of person that needs to eat 6x's a day, instead of 3, but we'll see how the scale reacts, but it's so nice getting in a meal for a change! Overall, I'm feeling great! Even though I didn't win the Big Game last night (and I really had a good feeling about the lottery), I'm OK. I had such good plans for all that cash, all the family and friends I would have helped, etc. etc. Guess it wasn't my time. Hopefully at some point I'll fall ass-backwards into some cold hard cash and live the good life. Until then, I'll live a good liife without the cashola!!! Unbelievably, the weather in NJ is unseasonably warm (it was 99 degrees today at lunchtime - Ugh!!). Not sure I'm going to the "pasta night" tonight. We got chinese takeout the other day and what would have been a regular portion prior to surgery now lasts me a week! haha I hate throwing away food (and I hate leftovers, but.....) so I really should be an adult, nuke the chicken and eat it until it's gone. Ugh, I love my salad there at the restaurant, but maybe next week. (Trying to be a big girl and save a few bucks, boy it's tough). As I type this I know I really really really want that salad...sheeeesh, prior to surgery, I never would have dreamed I'd be lovin' salad....I'd be heading to the restaurant for the big juicy steaks or the chicken parm or fettuchini alfredo. Boy does WLS change a girls' point of view regarding food....boy am I lucky!!!! ;o) On the TV front, anyone happier than me that Sean/Elke won the car on RR/RW Challenge?!!?? I cannot tell you all how thrilled I was that Holly/Theo didn't win. Sorry Theo, you're not the problem, I just cannot STAND Holly!! ugh! They are excellent competitors but I've had enough of them! Ok that's it for now, hopefully the weight will keep trickling off....till next time :) April 19, 2002 - (Friday) WOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOO TGIF!!!!!!!!!!!! Let me just say, I am SOOOOOOOO happy it's Friday! What a week....busy, busy, busy!! The weather also this week has been so draining. It was well over 90 all week (even on Weds. hit 99), so glad the weather is going to break this weekend and go back to 60-70's. My weight loss is still holding at 78 pounds, so for that I'm grateful. My eating has improved drastically, so that makes me happy. I'm trying trying trying to get in my protein. My hair is falling out so badly....it's very upsetting. I cannot tell you how upsetting it is to see this huge part on top of my head and see the handful of hair in the drain or in my hands after I shower, ugh...so upsetting. I know that it will grow back once I get in more protein -- at least I hope so. I did go to Rite Aid yesterday and picked up GNC's Hair, Skin and Nails vitamins which contain biotin. Ugh, they are horrible, smell horrible and taste horrible, why do they have smell/taste so bad??, but if it will help my hair, I'm taking them daily. I should have started taking them 4 months ago, but whatever!! Oh, I placed a LandsEnd order for a few tops to wear in the summer weather (size XL) and they fit (in fact they are a little loose). I cannot believe that they fit. I figured that I'd save them for WHEN they fit, but they are OK right now...even a Large might have been fine also. Don't ask me why I'm buying new clothes when I have stuff in the attic just waiting for me....I guess I just was weak one day when the catalog arrived in the mail and placed an order.....lol...ok I also bought summer PJs also! hehe Last year I ordered 3x's and was so depressed at that number. Ugh, I hated all the clothes I bought for last summer, not that they were ugly, just the size and my disposition was dismal...overall I was just sooooo miserable. Thank goodness for this surgery....I'm just in such a better place than I was 12 months ago. Once I decided to have surgery, I was upbeat and optimistic for the surgery. Since the surgery, it's a joy and a pleasure to live life and rejoice in my accomplishments!!! All I can see is a bright sunny future and I can't help but be positive when I look ahead!! :) I might go down to the shore this weekend to start on the weed situation. Last weekend I could see them starting up and I got to nip that in the bud. Oh well...till next time :) |
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