| April 10, 2002 - (Wednesday) - continued I went to my post-op group meeting last night and again, didn't get much out of it. We meet in the cafeteria of the hospital, no microphones, can't see who's asking a question, can't hear the answers, then afterward in the auditorium, no seats are available to hear the guest speaker, it's totally nonsense. The only benefit is meeting my friend, Megan, to chat and pick her brain on how she's doing and how she does this and that when she was newly post-op. Megan's site is wonderful, here's a link! She looks absolutely fabulous and she's just an amazing person, beautiful on the outside as well as the inside :) Thanks Megan for all the help and encouragement! Not sure anything can be done to make these meetings better, but so far Megan is the only highlight of the drive to Morristown!! That's it for now, until next time... April 11, 2002 - (Thursday) - Happy 4th Month Anniversary!!! Not much to say, a little disappointed in the weight loss this month but I'm down 75 pounds and am rejoicing in that!!! Can't be unhappy when I see where I've been and where I'm going. With everyday I wake up from a great night's sleep (which was impossible before the 75 pounds were GONE), I feel alive and well. Each day, week, month, I'm feeling better and better. I'll take these 75 pounds and celebrate!!! Hurrah for ME :)!! I'm going away for the weekend (and taking tomorrow off) to clean the shore house, I'll be back on Sunday. Hope everyone has a fantastic weekend and if I get a chance will post the 4 month snap this afternoon (it's not taken yet, so I have to wait for someone to come home to take it)!! Have a good one, till next time!!! P.S. Did go to the pasta night last night and it was FABU!! Loved my salad and even had a little eggplant parm. that my Mom ordered...so all was right with my world last night....I can't even imagine being happy about a salad before this surgery, so boy, have things changed!!! :o:) April 14, 2002 - (Sunday) Well, I posted my 4 month snaps tonight and I, frankly, don't see ANY difference from last month. Do you? I realize I didn't lose a lot, so I guess that's why, but I really didn't see any difference from month 2 to 3 or 4 so that's 20 pounds difference, and I see ABSOLUTELY NO DIFFERENCE, *sigh*, I'm a little depressed! :( We are back from the beach and all the cleaning. I have to admit, I didn't do a lot of the cleaning, I ran to get lunch, went to the laundromat (we don't have a washer/dryer there) and did some vaccuuming/dusting and moving some furniture, but my Mom and sister did the most, even my aunt (who has a house on the street also and was down on a mini-get a way weekend, pitched in a little, but we are all glad it's over, and the house looks adorable and smells so good, ready for the summer...bring it ON!!!!!! (that statement is making me laugh, remember Monica on BigBrother 2, she kept saying IT's AWN...lmao..ok, nevermind, I'm sure I'm the only one that watched BB2..). We went out to dinner several times over the weekend and I have become quite the "people watcher" and frankly, very judgemental. All I do, since I'm not eating very much is watch what everyone is ordering, and it's a TON!! Everyone is ordering so much food, multiple appetizers, salads, drinks, huge main course, and of course dessert!! I keep saying to myself, what gluttony...laughing..because, a few short months ago, that is exactly what I was ordering...chowing down on multiple appetizers, salad, main course and sometimes dessert, but not always. I was a HUGE pig and craved and loved all that food and I'd waddle away from the table vowing to never do that again, only to do it again -- first chance I got. So when did I get a brain transplant? When did I become so judgemental? I'm a fraud, I'm behaving like an ex-smoker...ugh!!! I always thought I was the only one in the restaurant wanting to order so much food, little did I know there was so many of us out there keeping these restaurants in business. Sheesh, I always thought the local Italian restaurant owner would have to take his kids out of private school when I wasn't ordering daily from his business any longer!!! (lol -- not kidding!!) I can't tell you how wonderful I feel not eating like I used to do. I do miss having a cocktail with dinner (even though I didn't order one all the time when I did go out) but I miss the availability of ordering one....even ordering a Coke with dinner would be such a treat, but I don't because I can fit so little in my stomach I don't dare swallow any liquids. I feel like such a sucess when I can get down 2 to 3 ounces of my flounder and a little bit of salad and don't feel the need to run to the ladies room....hoorah for me...no throwing up any more. Anyway, so much for the insight into my judgemental psyche this weekend. I'm glad to be where I am right now, dealing with small portions of food and learning day to day on how to live with my new pouch....Until next time :) |
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