My Pre-Op Journal.....
I"M APPROVED!!!!!!!!!!
I am SOOOOOO happy, as you can imagine! I told work, have all my disability paperwork in hand and filled out, and I'm ready to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! In fact, my surgery is 4 weeks, from TODAY! I had a bit of the "OMG, what am I doing" over the weekend, however, I believe that has passed. I know exactly what I'm in for, I've researched this for months on end and know everything good/bad that could happen. I do hope for the best outcome, am sure of my surgeon's abilities, so I'm READY!! Nothing else is doing, work is Ok, I'm very very ready to be off for awhile, even if I have to go under the knife to be off a few weeks!! lol
Hey, if anyone else is reading this, other than me, ya think you can sign my guestbook? I would love to hear from people who are contemplating WLS, have had WLS or from people who have just "dropped" by...
I am so pathetic, I worked on my December index page over the weekend, and it's adorable!! I cannot wait for December/Christmas season, so that I can retire the fall/autumn look for Christmas holiday. Do you see how pathetic I am?? I'm a month ahead with my website!!! Hey at least it's keeping me busy and out of the kitchen EATING!! lol... I'm really enjoying this site and Christmas is really adorable...
Ok till next time.....
November 15, 2001 -
Well, I cannot tell you how happy I am that this week is over!! I'm taking tomorrow off to help my Mom clean (lol, too bad she has a housekeeper, but she says "she doesn't do everything to get ready for the holidays") so I'm helping her tear apart a bedroom tomorrow. Guess that's good exercise, but I have to admit, I HATE CLEANING!! Then next week, I will be only working Monday and taking Tuesday and Wednesday off (and we get Thanksgiving Day and Friday off), sooooo that's something to be wooooooooohooooooooooing about!! I have so many days to take off prior to my surgery, it's kinda fun. I keep calling my boss and saying, I'm taking off tomorrow, etc. etc.
I had a nice talk with my Mom today. She had her yearly physical today. The doctor asked her about me and how did she like having a "skinny" daughter. She didn't know what he meant but then realized he thought I had already had the surgery (I had gone for the referral back in early September). They had a nice talk about me and my attempts over the years to lose the weight, sometimes successfully but always gaining the weight back. He said it is such a struggle, when you have a weight problem you can't control and that it's nice that this procedure is working so well on people, yadda yadda yadda....His acceptance for this procedure is truly overwheming...I'm thrilled. I am a bit embarrassed because I got the referral for the WLS surgeon from his partner, and even though I didn't plan to sneak behind his back, I was thrilled when Dr. Chanin was out and I got to see Dr. Davis on the day I went for the consult on WLS. I was just embarrassed to ask him for the referral. I'm an idiot, OK. There it is. Why should I be embarrassed? Why would I be going to a Dr. that I wouldn't feel comfortable about asking for this procedure?? Well, I guess overall, I was afraid he'd reject the idea and I wouldn't be able to proceed with my plans. Well, all in all, he's OK with it, so I can get a cold now and not fear going to the Doctor. (lol)
I'm down to 25 days and counting till surgery!!!!!! I cannot wait. I went with my new friend Megan to the surgery support group. Megan had surgery in March 2001 and doing fabulous! I mean she looks fantastic! I can only hope to be as successful as she is. Her complexion is great, she doesn't have that weird coloring that sometimes happens after a dramatic weight loss, she looks like she's always looked like that. Sheesh, at 7 months post-op, I'lll probably be bald!!! Well, she's my role model... :) Thanks Megan!
At the support group, which is really for post-ops, they were complaining about eating more and the fear of getting into bad habits again, now that the stomach has stretched a bit after a year or two out of surgery. I'm taking from that meeting one comment a man made concerning this topic...in that, we need to take the year or two that we are losing as an opportunity to foster new eating habits. This time allows us to gain a better relationship with food and our bad habits. I can only hope and pray that I have the strength and ability to do just that! If I don't take that advice, I will be a sorry mess and I will check myself into an institution so that a team of psychologists can work on my BRAIN!!!!!!!!!! (Can anyone say lobotomy?? lol)
Till next time...
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