My Pre-Op Journal.....
Well, my last Thanksgiving is behind me and frankly, I don't mind one bit. Well, it's not my LAST Thanksgiving, but it is my last Thanksgiving of eating as much as I want with little thought of the consequences. I am so uncomfortable right now in my own skin, that I cannot wait to wrap my hand around a 1 oz. serving of protien, juice, water or whatever. . . . . I am so ready, I really cannot believe it.
I woke up today in a bad mood. I have tried to stay away from everyone for fear of getting into an argument with someone... I didn't sleep well last night, I have NO idea WHY, but I am exhausted today and cannot wait for bedtime. I've felt that way ALL DAY LONG! I didn't venture much out of my bed today, so I hope tomorrow is a better day (even though it means going to work).
There's not much going on, just getting ready for the holidays, decorating soon and cleaning the house and winding down at work, getting last minute things done since I should be out from December 10th onward through the year-end.....Oh well, till nextime...
November 26, 2001 - (Monday)
Well, Monday is here and I feel much better today! I finally had a nice rest last night, slept through the night and my mood has lifted. Wow, what a relief!! I have gotten further in organizing all my things for work, for my anticipated disability (I'm thinking I'll be out until after the New Year (probably 3 weeks)). I'm starting a shopping list for things that I need in the house for when I get home from the hospital. The Yahoo support group OSSG is so helpful...you shoot out a question and in seconds, sometimes, someone is answering your concern!! Wonderful group of people. My Christmas shopping is coming together, did some on the web, some on the phone and will venture to the mall either today or tomorrow to finish up! All I have to do then is wrap the gifts and I'll be done. Not sure I'm going to make my normal Christmas candy, that I normally do, but everyone loves it so, but I really don't feel like doing it, right now, so I might take a breather and not do it at all.... Oh well, still have time to decide, but I really don't have the money this year to spend on it, it usually runs around $200 and I really don't need it around the house. I guess I'll think about that. I'd have to do it this weekend or else it's a no-go...
Oh well, till nextime...
December 1, 2001 - (Saturday)
Well I went to my appointment with Dr. Bertha and Mary on 11/28 and all went well. Signed my life away and I guess I'm ready! Found out also that day that I have h-pylori bacteria (the results never made it to my PCP) so I have just begun the regime of the antibiotics. The best news is that this diagnosis will not impact surgery on 12/11. I had yesterday off, and I went to the eye doctor yesterday and had a painful examination. So painful that my eyes are still hurting and very sensitive to bright light. I hope it stops soon, it really hurts! That's all the new news. Going to try to finish up Christmas shopping today. I can't believe it's December 1st, and I'll be done with my shopping!! Wonders never cease (lol)!! Overall, trying to stay calm and peaceful, looking forward to the 11th. Oh well, until next time....
December 3, 2001 - (Monday)
Well, nothing going on today, except that I have a vacation day and went to get myself a pedicure! My feet feel very nice right now and I can't wait to slip them into bed tonight...I love the way my feet feel under the covers after a pedicure (lol)... Oh well, going to put the Christmas candles in all the windows of the house..it's beginning to feel like Christmas...My one Christmas present to myself this year is to make it through the surgery smoothly and begin my new life...I can't wait....Oh well, until next time...
December 10, 2001 - (Monday)
I can't believe today finally came, here I sit on the eve of my surgery.
I'm relatively calm and ready. I'm on total liquids today, did my PhosoSoda to clean myself out in preparation for surgery and I am done with work. I was supposed to take a vacation day today, but I had to work the whole day and get things done. I do feel much better because some things that were hanging on Friday are completed and I can leave with a clearer mind. The hospital called a few hours ago, my surgery is at 9:45 am. I have to be there 2 hours early, so I'll be leaving home around 7ish. Not too bad. Went to a healing mass on Saturday, was nice and hopefully ensures my pulling through from the surgery *smile*... Thanks for all the well-wishes I've received from everyone.....I'll be writing again when I feel up to it. Should be in the hospital until Thursday, Dec. 13th....well until next time, when I'm on the other side....wooo hoo it's MY turn!!!
