Human history is full of good and bad memories. And life is the only vital reason of it. Every human has developed his own philosophy about life that what life is actually? Everyone of us clearly state life in the dimension what we have our own experience and our own view. But in this way we cannot define life except we can confront each others point of views. According to my faith God created the universe. So He created life that we see and experience each day around us. And I always thought what life is all about? Why I am here in this world? And every time I have come to conclusion there is some purpose but what is that purpose? I always thought its biggo purpose still I always found myself in the midst of nowhere. I always come to conclusion that when I talk with someone thats my purpose to talk with someone or when I listen thats the purpose to listen. Or is it as I have my family responsibilities? Or is it I have to get marry, make babies, and spent my all life in responsibilities? But I always remember I was clear on just one point I am different and I have different purpose and what is that? Still its a question.

Now I was trying to search the meaning of life. If I go to religious people they always say go to church, read Bible. If I go to philosophers they are pretty much confused themselves. If I read psychology, it does answer but still it fails to suggest what I am very specifically. So religion itself has become a law & rules and religious people have used it to just give me direction go to church and read Bible. But personally I thought spiritual relation with holy God can be good and only option. But still I cannot see God, I cannot talk with God.

Though there is one major point what is the drive of life. From my childhood to now when i am young I always noticed my class fellows and colleagues they discuss sex. Does the sex drive is the only reason? Like every human is searching for other human to love and live whole life with another human. And make babies, brought them up, educate them, earn as much as you can and then one day get sick and get buried in the grave. I see people all around me if they are married they are running here and there for their families. If they are un-married they are planning about future life. Dreaming there future family. And to be very true this is all I noticed this is all life's drive. And everyone wants to live because of all these reasons. As two basic instincts of human are survival & replicate.

But still there are humans who are living for some other purposes some have dedicated their lives to religion, some have dedicated to humans, some have dedicated their lives to their fields. People have already set long term goals: some have decided to be a biggo business man, some have planned to be someone, some have envisioned them to achieve as much as they can. And almost all have a sense of their life with driving factors sex, money, spouse, children and to be on top.

And this is all what I have came to know, but what I am? Do I am with the same driving factors of life? And this is still a question. But I know these driving factors never make me happy and passionate to live. And if I do not have any meaningful driving factor then why I am? But still I know I am with special purpose, as I watched movie in April 2006 "Simon Birch" where Simon also confronted with this question.

But I want to be a bird and fly in a peaceful world and fly high and to the ends of the universe. And I have my friends angels and we are just flying and exploring the beauty of God's work. I want to sit in green pastures with still waters and cascades and no one is around me just one bird humming, one butterfly and I am in deep thinking of having such a eternal peace and comfort.

Remember sometimes we are not in this world for big plans, like not to have any driving factors in our life but live a life as this is the very last moment of our life. Just smiling, just to make people think about ourselves. All I know there is no question that cannot be answered in the end. There is nothing hidden that will not be shown in the end. Unfortunately this is the only answer I found so far. Ah when will we receive the answers? To Be Continued...