*BW is assaulted by hordes of men women children and moose wielding hot spatulas*

Okay, ow. But I assure y'all that I have a PERFECTLY LEGITIMATE REASON for pulling another one of those disappearance acts on y'all. And when I think one up, I'll let y'all know.

(>_<)

Yeah, I know...not doing much for the public appeal and theretofore viewership of this site...so sue me. The fact is I've been massively busy lately...busy dealing with my sucking personal life, busy trying to balance academia, busy trying to be the best BW I can B. *NSYNC being on hiatus and all, there's really not much that draws me to this site anyway. I've been finding recently that it's been really hard for me to do reviews of any sort. It's almost like I've run out of words to say...which is sad.

If I get some time off soon, I hope to try to revive this site a bit, though I'm not making any promises. I hope to lean things more in the way of humor again and not so much reviews or whining or criticism, which I abhor. Coming very soon is my much-belated account of NY and RENT;). Joey is crazy and sexy and cool.

Speaking of which...HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEY!~!!!!~!!~!~!~!111!!~~~!~!

YOU ROCK!

26 years old eh?...well I wish I had some sort of witty new humor page to put up in this honor, but alas. All I can say, I suppose, is that you rock and I hope you enjoy clam chowder for many years to come.

...

Anyway...check this out!

It's Joey, Lance, Chris, and Willy! Lol no, not really, it's Shamu. Willy is cooler, but I guess Shamu will do. Hmm. That rhymes.

It's that time of the year again, and once again I am enfetished with Lord of the Rings. How much did The Two Towers rock out loud? Although being (somewhat) of a purist, I did find a lot of complaints with it, for the most part that movie ruled my world. Can't wait for part 3!

That's all, I suppose, for today...I do enjoy these little chats of ours and hope to be communicating with y'all again soon!

I'm on vacaaaaaaaation. I'm on vacaaaaaaaaation.

Oh and yes, have I mentioned that I'm getting on a to New York in a little less than six hours to watch RENT on Thursday?

OH YEAH! OH YEAH! GO ME! GO ME!

Ahem. Sorry.

Anyway, yaaaaaay! I've never been to NY before and am actually quite excited about the whole being in NY part of my trip. Statue of Liberty and all.

Plus, I'm sick of CA wetness. I want snow! Cold! Wintery!! Christmas trees the size of Willy!

And of course, JOEY!!!!!!!

And RENT, of course. Over the course of these many months I've truly fallen in lwurffve with this musical and am looking sooo forward to seeing it. And some others, if I have time.

Anyway.

*While we're still on the topic of RENT and Broadway musicals in general...karma sure is a massive bitch, isn't she?

Now, Kevin Richardson is a wonderful musician and I think he's going to do an incredible job with his role in Chicago, he certainly deserves it.

On the other hand, too bad he has now put himself in the exact same position of criticism that he once dealt towards *NSYNC. I know that I shouldn't drag up junk from more than two years ago...but what was all that about them being clones and not having any identity of their own, hmm? And I know Joey Fatone isn't the first pop star to go onto Broadway and certainly won't be the last, but it's impossible to ignore the striking circumstances under which all this has played out: Joey, whose group is on a break, lands a coveted role in a Broadway musical. Kevin, whose group is on a break, lands a coveted role in a Broadway musical half a year later, to start less than a month after Joey finishes his run. Hmm. I think someone needs to start rethinking his identity.

Kidding, kiddinnnng!!

(Don't think that I'm not enjoying every second of this, though)

And I know it's horribly unseemly to use someone's every word against him...I know I wouldn't like it if some people monitered my every speech and made sure every wrong thing I ever said in my life came back to haunt me endlessly...but this, my friend, is exactly how karma and the forces of the universe works. In the past, people always compared *NSYNC with BSB, and now Nick is being compared endlessly with Justin. Kevin told *NSYNC to get their own identities instead of BSB's, and now Kevin is being told to get his own identity instead of Joey's. The point isn't whether or not he really is copying Joey...any moron knows that Kev didn't wake up one morning and decide to be Joey's clone. The point is that now, he's in a position to receive the exact same criticism that he once dealt to others. What you deliver only others shall be returned onto yourselves. It's as simple as that.

It wasn't just one thing that Kevin said. It was his entire mindset during practically all of 2000, including the "copyrama" remark and various other less weighty but still valid comments. And it wasn't just Kevin, it was the whole stance and state of mind that almost all of his fans took during that time and still do, that *NSYNC were just imperfect clones of their original Boys. Some of the exact people who are always telling *NSYNC fans to get over the whole identity statement are the same ones who were rubbing it in our faces and claiming how intelligent Kevy was for his insights.

Again, I must reemphasize that I do think Kevin deserves to be on Broadway and do believe he is going to do a good job and am glad for him...but moreso than that, I do appreciate it when consequences of certain actions come back and give a good bitin'-in-the-@$$ to the guilty.

The universe works in fascinating ways. Payback's a bi+ch, and again, I'd be lying if I said I wasn't enjoying every second of it.

Song of the moment: Nights in White Satin. All 39776658 versions of it that I've downloaded from WinMX(originally by the Moody Blues). Gawd this song kicks sooooooo much arse. The instrumentals, vocal arrangements...dang. Awesome. I recommend it to anyone. One version is not enough, to experience the awesomeness that is Nights in White Satin, you must hear all interpretations on it by different artists...in different styles and languages(Mario Frangoulis, dang you rock).

And Josh Groban! How much does he rule the universe? If you're into classical pop, go get his Live in Concert DVD, it's out everywhere in stores now.
It seems that with the recent onslaught of pop music that, um, sucks, I'm reverting a lot back to my classical-sound roots(Before I even got into alternative music(which I designate to be the first official "music scene" that I got into), I was more interested in soundtracks and older classical-sounding musics). Or it could be just the Holiday mood. Or the whole music major thing.

It's not like I actually don't like a lot of the new acts out there(I like most of them, actually), but the tone of contemporary music lately has been so...toneless to me.

Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers is coming out! Yaaaaaaaay!

ANYWAY! I think I've rambled on for long enough lol. Well I'm gonna get ready to go off. I'll be back on Friday, and will soon be adding thoughts on JC's song "Blowin' Me Up(With Her Love)" and the video for said song, plus [what little I saw of] the Billboard Awards. Thank goodness for what little left of *NSYNC that I can get.

Prepare thyself, Joseph...BW is coming to NY.

I'm quite angered right now, to be honest. Got some time to kill? Great! Sit down make yourselves comfy while I indulge my personal life to all who care.

Tuesday at noon, we had a party at one of my class sections to celebrate the end of the class and whatnot, and people brought in food and stuff. Well, turns out that one of the brownies was spiked with pot.

'Course, I didn't find out about this until 6 'oclock at night and someone else told me.

That was after I had to perform an anticipated opera skit for a room of 40 people.

The brownies made me high, obviously. I couldn't focus and was confused as hell.

To not be totally pessimistic, the performance actually went quite well. There were no hitches and I did exactly what I was supposed to do.

So today, although I felt a lot better, I went to the health center, got myself checked out(they can't tell if there was pot in me because it's just hard to tell that kind of stuff), and filed two reports; one to the University Police tipline, and another personally to the police chief.

So basically, right now I'm as angry as hell. That person had no right to poison me in the middle of class and cause me all sorts of stress. What if I had gone driving or was walking in the middle of the street when the effects kicked in?

So yeah.

Oh, and I forgot to mention; I lost my room keys as well, 'cause I got high.

'Cause I got high.

'Cause I got hiiIIIiIiIIIIigh.

Mofo hippy students and their drugs.

I'm still angered, obviously.

Yes.

I think I'll be alright though. Though it's a little disturbing to think of what might have happened to me if things were even a little different.

No use getting all worked up over spilled crap, obviously, but still..

Things like that are dangerous as hell and any three year old can tell you that. I don't give a frock if you're gonna mess up your own lives like that, but don't come and flockin' endanger mine as well.

If the police don't follow up with an investigation into this, I'm going to be hella pissed.

Anyway.

OOOH!! On an upside(^_^)!! I got another opera part for the college spring opera. I'm single-cast this time, as Don Curzio in The Marriage of Figaro. It's not an overwhelming part, but it's good for me as someone still learning about his potential and all that nonsense they tell us music students so we don't feel crappy that we suck. Anyway. I'm not really even sure what Curzio does...I'll have to actually read this opera, sometime. It's supposed to be like five hours. Whoa there.

Anyway.

Oooooooooooh and I got Matchbox Twenty and Craig David's new albums. Really good. "Downfall" from the former is playing on my comp right now. Awesome song. Awesome.

Only love can saave us nooooooooooooooooooooow~

Lay it down~

I've always been with you here and nooooow~

Yes. Well anyway.

Harry Potter was good.

Now go on and sacrifice to the Turkey Gods.

It's late. I'm weird. But for the sake of my sanity, here:

Hatemails and spankings are administrated thisaway --->

How cool was Justin's Artist Launch today? It makes me just want to pour gasoline on all the critics who diss him and radio people who hound him and then set them on fire. How cool is Joey? Did y'all see how he was sticking up for the Curlboy? How cool is Justin?

Speaking of those two, it's been a pretty intensive *NSYNC week if I do say so myself! Justin on 20/20(honest and heartfelt interview but remarkably boring, which surprised me), Justin on TRL(kickarse performances), Joey on Craig Kilborn(I almost typed Craig David. Hello!), Joey on Wayne Brady(I hope y'all caught the duet!), and now this Artist Launch thing. I doubt I'll do any reviews of them, but I just wanted to mention them for a sec.

*grooves to Cry Me a River*

Two more days to get Justified within the first week...go on and support your local Curlboy;)!

Speaking of which, I'm reading my Review of Justified and can I just say good God I use "lol" waaaaaaaaaaay too freakin' often. It's some sort of weird syntax disease that I've developed. Between this and my Chris face night scares, I sure got my insane-o groove on.

Lol.

*orgasms*

*Hey, if he can do it, then so can I*

I like it. It's funky and his voice is so f'ing awesome.

Considering the era of suckazz music that we've been having recently, can I just say that Justin and JC are practically godsends?

But today, I wanna take these thoughts in a slightly different direction.

Justin the pothead.

Got your attention, didn't I?

What I'm gonna say next is pretty uncharacteristic of me, so hear me out.

Now, I'm going to be honest and say that yes, Justin is a dumbass. I hate this new phase that artists seem to be go through which states: Just because they are 21, they have a free pass to be as dumbass as they want. That's so completely lame and ridiculous to me. Growing up means you become wiser, not more dumbassed.

I think people who do drugs...whether it's something as tame as a cigarette or something as dangerous as cocaine...I think people like that are dumbasses. Please don't take offense at that, because it's really the only way I can explain this. I go under the state of mind that any drug can screw everything up in massive ways for you no matter who you are or how "careful" you are with them, and like I said I'm tired of the excuse people always use about how they're twenty-one now so they have the right to screw themselves over if they want.

On the other hand: even if they do, that doesn't mean they're horrible, demented, stupid people without a clue; that's the point that I'm trying to drive. I myself have never smoked and drank very little alcohol, never been legitimately drunk before in my life. To me, you can easily go through life without an ounce of that stuff in you, and you can just as easily go the other way as well. I think it's wrong to go the other way lol, but it's the person's own perogative, and I'm not gonna say I don't understand why a person would do that, 'cause I do.

Living with four other people, even for the last month, has really opened my eyes a bit. My two roommates have both experimented with drugs in the past and if they hadn't told me I would never have guessed that about them. They're more or less well-adjusted people with good heads on shoulders, and in no way does them having experimented with drugs in the past make them any less of good people that they are today.

With all that said, I'm still not condoning the behavior in any way obviously. Justin and everyone else who "experiments" needs to A)get spanked by me and B)keep in mind that this is serious, dangerous shat he's playing with and can easily end his livelihood in an instant.

I repeat: Growing up means you become wiser, not dumber.

Honestly? A year ago I would have given a very different answer. I believed that drugs are the leading evil substance in the world and a mark of an individual's depravity...and in a sense yes, I would still hang to that. Just a few months ago, I would have been so upset and would have called Justin a weak, demented individual. I'm obviously disappointed still, and still think it's a stupid dumbassed thing to do, but I refuse to give in to my own stereotypes use them to pervert my thoughts on Justin or anyone else. Just because they don't conform to my high standards of life doesn't make them bad or depraved people. They take their paths and I take mine. I don't want them to take those paths and I can try to change it for the people I know, but I won't raise my voice in scornful hatred, as I would have done before.

Who would have known? I guess I'm just growing up a bit.

I'll bet that scared y'all, eh;)? Big thanks to Gottagetnsync.com for the cool shot.

I've already heard all of Justin's album lol...yeah, I'm cheap and crappy. I'm still gonna get it though, because I do like it, and I don't believe in online stealing when I can possibly help it. Look for Justified, and my review of it come 11/4!

Hey everyone! College man here, being in college and doing fun college things like losing sleep, spending an inordinary amount of time on the computer typing about everything but *NSYNC, and developing 95874309 distinct personalities. Oh wait, that last part was always true.

For everyone who cares about my ultimate amazingly cool life, I'm living in an on-campus apartment now, and with four other people. Superamazingfun. Well despite what you might think, the roomies are actually really cool, I'm getting along with them quite well. Living with four other dudes is actually more therapeutic and liberating for me than living with just one other dude in like, a small dormroom. Basically, I'm a Chinese dude living with a Christian dude with Hispanic backgrounds, two Jewish dudes(one of whom talks FOREVER), and a black dude. Sitcom-based wackiness ensues. Gay porn ads begin popping up on various computers(surprisingly enough the incident was not related to me in any way lol).

I love how my name has been popping up in various places lol. I wrote an e-mail to Alan Boyle at msnbc.com concerning Lance and his critics and he posted it as part of the weekly responses. I wrote to mtv.com's You Tell Us concerning Christina's new video and they posted it(For anyone who saw...yeah Brian from Orinda was me lol). Soon everyone will know my name. My glory will spread across the galaxy. Muahahahahahahahaha!

Favorite song of the moment: Matchbox Twenty's new single "Disease." My God. F'ing rocks. *humps Rob Thomas' leg*

Other songs of the moment: "Run Away" from BBMak's album Into Your Head. "Time Stood Still" by Madonna. "If Only" from Luis Fonsi's English album Fight the Feeling. A minute-and-a-half clip of "Can't Hold Us Down" from Christina's album Stripped. The entire Free Willy 3 soundtrack. Dude I don't care what anyone says or whatever, the Free Willy trilogy has the best orchestral score out of every single movie in the whole wide world.

God, I miss online(^_^).

I don't spend a lot of time being Patriotic and trying to convince people that I'm Patriotic, but the fact remains that I love this country and there are a whole lot of things that I would be glad to do for her.

So I'm taking this moment to honor and respect America, her ideals...and most importantly those who have lost their lives one year ago on this unforgettable day.

We should all take at least some time out of our busy days to appreciate what we have, appreciate that we live in a paradise that is rarely recognized for what she is, and that there are people we love living here with us.

Live life; don't give in to regret, hate, shame, death. Be happy. Be loving.

Sognamo un mondo senza piu violenza

Hope for a world without any violence

Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza

A world of justice and of peace

Ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino

Everyone gives their hand to their neighbor

Simbolo di pace e di fraternita

Symbol of peace and family

I finally got my license three days ago, and today I drove by myself for the very first time! Yay! I feel like a big, strong man. Not really. Considering I really only drove fifteen minutes and ten of those fifteen was me trying to back out of my driveway.

Bay Area radio stations suck.

xXx was cool.

Contact lenses suck huge monkeys made of vanilla, but I suppose it's a good step for me if I'm gonna be onstage more. I'm getting cool earthy-looking glasses too, with those attachable shades! Yup. I feel so cool. Or not. You all need to know this useless information about my life, of course.

Look for cool updates to come to this site soon, including my new humor series "Celebrity Showdown," and the waaaaaay too late review of *NSYNC: Driven;).

Why don't they understand that their words focking hurt?

Why am I always the one who's to blame? Why am I the cause of every shatty thing in our lives?

Why am I the one who ends up apologizing for their shat?

Posted on a "certain" message board:

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Were Girls Chanting Justin loves JC at CFTC this year?

I saw this on another MB and that this was the reason Justin left the court for 20 minutes.

Anybody hear anything like this or possible witness it?
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I'm sorry, but that f'ing pisses me off.

Is it possible to be any more rude and crude and immature and abrasive? Not to mention borderline harrassing?

My God. Bastard teeny filths.

You think I kid. I kid not.

I'm not exactly sure where you're supposed to go to download stuff like this, but if you can get to hear clips of his new album, "Help Me" and "My Confession" and stuff like that you should definitely do so. I'm actually really excited about his album. From all these clips I heard, I think I'm going to like it more than that last BSB album(which, okay, B&B wasn't a bad album in the least, but I can't even remember the names of any of the last six tracks on it and that should say something), it's got a light rock edge but still poppy, like BBMak-ish.

Speaking of them, I'm also totally feeling BBMak too. New song(which rocks), new album? Bring it on! Although I must say for a song that's really bright and enlightening and happy and joyous and bright...they sure did fill their video with a lot of dark, shady colors(O_o). It's like the actions and sequences in the video fit very well but the...color didn't. Does that make sense? No? Alrighty then.

But you know which upcoming album I'm absolutely psyched for? That's right. Justin's. Was there really any doubt to my anal-kissing capabilities?
But seriously though, another duet with Brian McKnight, possibly one with Alicia Keys? "My Kind of Girl" pt 2? Dude. Bring it on.

My lord, can it only be two more days until Joey's debut in Broadway? Wowzer.

*propellers extend out of hat and BW starts flying around*

Okay if you understood that...God help you:p.

Hey y'all...I'm back in the USA(^_^). You know, just in case you were oh-so-wondering about my life.

Well as the above line might suggest, we encountered more than our share of turbulences throughout the flight...which makes the defecation experience all that much FUN and EXCITING. .

To see the noms for the MTV 2002 VMAs, click here.

Alright let's cut the nice-BWness.

You're not gonna tell me that B2K and POD fans sat around mtv.com and voted day after day for the Viewer's Choice nom, more than *NSYNC fans did for Gone. I mean you can't. It wouldn't even make grammatical sense!

All in all you just arrive at the conclusion that MTV sucks and is rigged. Sigh. Here's what I think: MTV puts Gone on the pre-noms list for the heck of it, thinking that *NSYNC is played out and isn't going to get that many votes, thinking they're safe from a three-years-in-a-row win. But when it becomes clear that fans are voting and are pushing for another win, MTV makes the decision to "discreetly" take them out of the run. Better to have whiny *NSYNC fans, they think, than their entire viewing public disgruntled at *NSYNC winning three VCAs in a row.

Ah well what the heck...I suppose others deserve a shot at winning this too. I guess.

And meanwhile, congrats to *NSYNC for the other noms:D. I love Gone. I love Girlfriend a lil' more, but still, I love Gone. Which is why I'm actually glad that MTV relented a bit and gave it a video of the year nom, which I felt was deserved. Good luck on winning that and the other two awards!! With Nelly to boost them I think they do have a good shot at them, if not a certain shot.

Oh well, they're Russian...they can afford to be clueless;).

"GASP!! Brian you so did not just say that!!!!"

"Oh yes I did. *snaps fingers*"

I love Jimmy Fallon and Tina Fey(^_^).

I know everyone's gonna think I'm only puckering up and kissing its anal cavities because Joey's gonna be in it blah blah blah but seriously...if it's at all possible to fall in love with a show having only heard and not seen...

This show is cutting edge. Off the top of my head I can't think of another piece of work more risky and edgy but at the same time being completely appropriate for the times. And so completely awesome.

If you can afford to go see this show, do it not because of Joey(though I know he's going to tear it up...the music and role he has to learn and portray is f'ing hard, but I know he's going to rock this out loud), I guarantee you that this show is enough to stand on its own. Use Joey and the fact that you'll just die if you don't hear him say "mucho masturbation" as an excuse to go watch or whatever(^_^), but it really does deserve to be noticed on its own. In fact that just makes me even more proud of Joey that he's going to be associated with this.

Songs I recommend downloading to get a sense of the stuff in the show would be "La Vie Boheme" or "Goodbye Love." Listen to the whole thing, if you can. Well...that is if you don't being spoiled; see below.

If anyone else wants to read the script and get familiar with what it's all about, it's here at LifeCafe.com.
Although I actually don't suggest it. I mean I'm personally used to reading shows, particularly musicals & operas, and then seeing how it's all put down. It might be better for others to witness a show like this at the spur of the moment and stuff and not be spoiled, whatever works for you. Well, that's if you plan on going. If you don't...well, then read it and maybe then you'll plan on going;).

There's a very good chance I'm gonna go see this on Thanksgiving week. Yayness.

Okay now to switch topics...Are y'all prepared for another rant? I might as well just change this page to "Rant of the Day."

What I'm going to say below could still be considered offensive, so read it with a sense of caution. It may change your point of view towards me and it may not.

I'm talking about R. Kelly of course. And about the things I hear people saying about him and the things they'd like to see happen to him, mostly involving electric chairs and a lot of brimstone. Now this is my own opinion on the matter.

I'm beginning to get highly disturbed at some of the reactions I'm seeing from everyone here concerning this issue. I'm just going to lay it out flat and say that you'd be highly naive if you didn't believe that the ultimate sexual fantasy of any man would be to have sex with a teenager. Hell, more enough of the teenage underage majority of the *NSYNC fandom spend the majority of their conversations talking about having sex with five men who are anything but underage. And more than its share of fans have laughed and giggled at the rumors of Joey and Steve banging teenies in their hayday. And I've heard more than the share of people on the internet et al have also posted about certain attractions towards men that were many times their senior at one point or another.

Kelly didn't rape anyone. He did not molest and he did not abuse. He had consensual sex. Maybe he used his status as a respected celebrity to achieve this, maybe not. The fact is, as of right now the only thing he did wrong under the law is to have sex with someone who is underage, which constitutes statutory rape...a "law" that most of us in most every other circumstance ridicule and brush off more than anything! Does anyone remember the MTV movie "Jailbait?" It painted the situation in a silly and exaggerated manner, but most of us at the time agreed that implementation of that law is silly and exaggerated as well.

Kelly may not be an angel. He most certainly is not one to hold back on primal sexual needs, which yes, could be dangerous. But when I see most of y'all crying out for punishments that would make the most consciousless serial rapists weep in fear, I have to wonder whether you've really thought about what Kelly did, or are just jumping headfirst onto a hyped bandwagon out for blood with blindfolds completely intact. It just gets me wondering is all. How quickly we are to deal out judgment and retribution...and for what?

I don't think Kelly is a criminal. I think he made a mistake and he was stupid, but from what I have gathered about this case and this situation...I say reserve our prison cells for the men and the situations where they may actually be of use.

I do agree completely that fourteen years old is far too young to even consider anything sexual with a 30-something man, likewise vice versa, and even if that wasn't the law it's still wrong on various levels...the adult in question should know better, far better. For an adult to give in to that type of nature, it really is a serious issue and not to be lightly dismissed, as it isn't.

But I'm just not seeing the crime, the horror, the violation that everyone seems so intent on avenging. I haven't seen the tape, but from what I hear not once do I remember anyone mentioning the girl objecting to his actions or even feeling subjegated. Shouldn't that be the crime that people are looking for, that he violated and hurt a child? Where has that ever come up in the debates? Everyone's so intent on pinpointing Kelly as some sort of monster who deserves instant torture and death, well has anyone stopped to think exactly what is it that we're punishing him for?

Thank you.

Apparently during the filming of Summer Music Mania some girl reached out and grabbed JC's rear until he had to tell her to stop.

Normally I'd just a hugely frowny at those types of fans but forget about it a few minutes later, but then I hear people saying stuff like, and I use direct quotes, "Disrespectful? That's called getting what you want! *stupid laughing" or "that girl is so lucky. i give her mad props to be brave enough to do that" and all these random scenes from Nightmare on Elm Street come into my mind, mostly with me in Freddy's shoes. Should it really come as any surprise to me that all of these come from a certain message board that shall go unnamed starting with the letter "J?" I guess in retrospect it really shouldn't.

What is it with these immature little girls who think they can just say and do whatever the 7734 they want and *NSYNC and everyone else should just make room for them? I get so angry when I see attitudes like that. It's disrespectful and immature, not to mention just a bit sexist. If I were to grab some lady celebrity's azz just 'cause I was "brave" or "lucky," it'd be considered immature and crude. In most circumstances I could and probably would be charged with harassment, not to mention have my arms broken in seven different directions. But hey, since it's a guy, since it's JC and hey, JC is supposed to be whatever the heck we want him to be, right? it's all cool or whatever and hey! We should all be so cool as to grab JC's azz when he's trying to do a job! No seriously! It's not utterly stupid or rude or immature or disrespectful or anything! Honestly!

How. Disgusting.

Who would want to grab JC's azz anyway, it's not like he has a lot of it..

...

...yeah ahem.

I'm kind of on a MaJong high right now, I'm getting more and more addicted to this game. For anyone who doesn't know MaJong is basically like...Chinese Poker, except with tiles, I'm sure you've seen it in some form before. Anyway my mom gets my grandparents over every weekend and they um, duke it out. I've been going at it too recently, not a lot, but enough to have lost money to them. Yes.

And it's actually not because of Sarah(though she helped tons). I'm so in shock right now.

'Cause if you know me you know that I hate that mangy, ugly mutt. HATE. So hate. Hate that would make Lord Sideous cringe. He's like a big, ugly, dumb person that's mangy and ugly. Did I mention that I hated him?

But I loved this movie...well love is probably too strong a word, but anyway. It was intelligent and funny and poked fun at the right places. All in all I'd see it again.

Freddie came really, really, really close to not sucking too, for the first time ever. Really close. But not quite.

Ooh, I also saw the Borne Indentity(How come no one told me Julia Stiles was in this movie? I wasn't prepared for her. You have to be prepared for people like Julia Stiles you know. Be still my pulsing abdomen(oh and the movie was pretty good too)) and Lilo and Stitch(which was dang hilarious, but I dunno, it didn't feel like my kind of movie. I liked it because it's a hilarious and nice movie, but I don't really like it). Also they show the trailer for the Harry Potter and Stuart Little sequels in front of Scooby Doo which was really cool. Anyway.

Okay, while we're all still talking about me for a second, can I just say that if I see that dang trailer for that dang Lil' Bow Wow movie where he disgraces all sentient life forms on the planet, I will stick my fingers up my nose and pull out my brain through my nostrils. Thank you! I had to sit through it every single time I watched Star Wars and I had to sit through it today and I don't mean to offend, O Almighty Queen Natalie, but you are not worth sitting through Lil' Bow Wow. You really aren't. I'm sorry, but you aren't. No really. You aren't.

I should probably just get a Livejournal or something if I'm gonna keep on posting thoughts in here like this. But with a LJ people can like, respond directly to my comments and that's like, so like, scary. Like.

I caught most of Summer Music Mania...Chris stole the spotlight as usual and rocked as usual;), what with his somewhat galatically out of this world comments about Michelle Branch. Unfortunately as with all Fox-related *NSYNC events they commercials are so friggin' long and caused me to miss most of Chris' Ozzy Osbourne impression 'cause I was flippin' around "Road Rules" and "Charmed." Dangit. I did however, catch the JC line which followed that totally made the night;):

"Wow. Well um, that was really educational. It sucked too."

Thank you JC(^_^).

So anyway, back in a reality where I'm not shot up on cocaine.

I hope y'all know that I'm not homophobic. Seriously...after all the joys and pangs that we went through together("Is this guy shameless or what?" "Gawd I know, what a brown-noser."), I hope y'all know enough of me to know that I abhor homophobia and am the farthest personification of it possible you'll find in a guy. And y'all know that I'm not one to b**ch and moan about something without some darn-tootin' good reason.

Which is why I hope y'all understand if I say that "'Joshtin' annoys the FRIGGIN' HAIL out of me," I'm saying that because it truly does, not because of any other insidious clandestine hatred. Right? Y'all would understand that, right?

Alright, as long as we're clear on that.

Well, "Joshtin" annoys the FRIGGIN' HAIL out of me.

Nineteen. Well, I don't feel older, but it's fun:p. I'm probably just gonna go out today and waste tons of money or something...I mean really, what's the point of nineteen? You could already vote and legally watch porn last year, and it'll still be two years until you get to drink. It's like...a decoy celebration. Da**it, I want my youth back!!

Star Wars.

MY GAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWD.

No offense to Spidey or anything, but Star Wars totally kicked its webbed azz.

Go see this movie. Now, seriously...just GO. I know I say that about a whole bunch of movies, but never will I say it with such Force as I do with this. HAHA! Get it? Force? No other movies out now even begin to compare, so you might as well go and get your money's worth.

It...seriously, I'm not just saying this because I've been a fan of the genre...the movie rocked the universe. If you've seen Episode One, take it from me right now that this one is only ten or eleven times better than it. Really I mean...I knew the story beforehand. I had given in to the dark side and read the novelization of the screenplay and knew what was going to happen, and it was still insanely engaging to me. The action scenes, the acting...Hayden has a bit of an odd accent but he was rivetting and became Anakin in every sense of definition. Natalie completely filled the screen with her slight and engaging presence as the capable and prideful senator.

I didn't wear any particular costumes to the showing unforunately, case in point the Chewbacca suit that I've wanted for the longest time, but I did bring my talking R2-D2 doll.

Everyone was clapping and cheering through the thing, especially at the start, the finale, and the end. I think it's safe to say that most everyone enjoyed it as well.

Spoilers below

Obi-Wan was so much cooler in this one, busting out with the flying kicks and lightsaber-less martial arts on Jango's metallic arse.

I did keep a watch out for the *NSYNCers' cameos, but I didn't see them what with the huge explosions and I was pretty uh, captivated by Padme's stomach anyway, plus that one sexy Asian Jedi lady(whose name is Bultar Swan...how apt). And Sam Jackson. I don't think anyone's really gonna know for absolute certain.
There was one particular jedi with spikey reddish hair, of that I am certain. The problem is that the none of the *NSYNCers, even Joey, had spikey red hair at the time they filmed their scenes lol. And this Jedi was there for like, four or five seconds and not as a split shot. I'm almost certain I might have seen Steve but then again I'm not sure.

Why is it that R2 could not fly later on in the series lol? That rocked so hard.

Hayden really rocked it on with a lightsaber. He made it look so natural and belieavable, especially in the factory scenes where it was slash mayhem. If not for his amazing performance as a tortured youth striving for perfection, his lightsaber skills alone made him look and feel like Darth.

Yoda. Word to your grandmother. I could just feel the waves of intense being-shocked-ness from the audience. Even I, who knew about the scene along, was speechless and could only mutter "holy shift" over and over again the Jedi Master stepped up to kick azz.

That's it I guess, or all I could think about at this hour...lol seriously, I've already seen this twice and plan to go again, it's really...that good.

*passes out*

*wakes up*

*passes out again*

Uh, from some reason getstring.com went kablooiefart so I don't have a guestbook anymore...poopies. Anyone know another hosting site for a free guestbook that I can swindle or something?

I'm getting a bit tired of these "I don't want Lance to go to space. I want him to stay. I hope he fails." peoples...I mean I know there aren't many who feel that way, so I'll spare the rest of you my lecture on the 659876547890987654 reasons why you shouldn't feel that way, but still...how completely selfish and narrow-minded can some people be...?

*takes up pom poms and straps on cheerleader outfit* Go Poofu, go Poofu, it's yo birthday, uh uh uh...

*gets pantyhose tangled in leg hair*

Ow.

In other Lancenews, I cannot tell you how excited I am that he's going to be doing a voice for one of the characters in Kingdom Hearts, Squaresoft's Final Fantasy meets Disney characters RPG. Okay, I worship, from every fiber-optic cellular molecule of my being, Squaresoft. They have given the Final Fantasy series, which not only rule the universe, they're an actual commentary on life, love, and the way we define those terms.
I was completely prepared to go and get this game even w/out Lance, because of the rockness of it all, and now that he appears I'm all that much more excited for it. How excited am I that Lance is going to be associated with a Squaresoft project? Let's put it this way...I almost orgasmed myself to death when I learned that Tara Strong, who does the voice of Timmy in the Fairly Oddparents, a project in which Chris was associated with, also did the voice of Rikku in Final Fantasy X. So needless to say, I'm very excited for Lance(^_^).
Also featured are Haley Joel Osment(Scary Sixth Sense and AI kid), David Boreanaz("Angel"), Mandy Moore(YEEEEEEEEEEEES!!), and Sean Astin(funky hobbit dude).

1) Watching the new Spidey movie three times in the theater.
2) Looking at Natalie Portman pics from Esquire for hours on end.
3)See above.

Spider-Man. How cool was this movie!? Y'all remember from my [pretty much now-defunct] Opinions page that Spidey is my favorite superhero ever. It rocked so hard to see this onscreen, and it was a great movie! Love the part where Spidey kicks the Goblin away and then shoots a web and draws him in for another blow, all within like, two seconds. So fierk. And then there's the fact that I immensely respect Tobey Maguire, who's been in movies like Pleasantville and the Cider House Rules.

In about two weeks...STAR WARS!!!!!!! Okay, I'm very evil. I'm weak. I gave in to the dark side. I went to the downtown Border's and read not only the official comic drawn of the film, but also the official novelization. Which means that I completely spoiled myself to EVERYTHING. If there's something I've learnt about myself recently it's that I'm quite shameless, yes I am.
But that doesn't mean that I'm any less excited for the movie! On the contrary I feel that this Star Wars is going to kick a lot of anal canal. Reading the storyline and visualizing the scenes and stuff has made me evn more excited. I hope it beats Spider-Man's numbers lol. I mean I luff Spidey, but come on, it's like a rule of life or something...this is Star Wars! And that title track "Across the Stars" is really tight too. Love it.
Which brings me back to Natalie Portman. I think I'm reliving my obsession of her which began back in 2000. Wow...that was before I even made this site lol. Expect Natalie artwork as early as this Friday.

Anyways, back to *NSYNC stuff lol. I got The Reel *NSYNC just yesterday! It is a flippin' hilarious MUST GET, even if some of the camerawork makes ya wanna barf, ie The Blair Witch Project. Now we know why it took so long for Joey to put this together(^_^)! Look for my review on this to come within the next few weeks.

*NSYNC is basically on break now until the end of the year, after their awesome tour(can't wait for the DVD). I'm sure they'll stick around for a while in the spotlight and all that(rumors of a fourth single, Selfish, abound). But in the meantime I suppose we'll all have to find other things to occupy ourselves with lol. I know I won't have any problems;).

Which reminds me of a sudden, horrible fact...I just found that it's very possible that the next season of Buffy might be the last. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH:(:(:(:(!!!!! *cries for eons*

Has anyone heard of the "Punk Goes Pop" CD? There's this AWESOME rock arrangement of Bye Bye Bye on there by Further Seems Forever. I was blown away! Seriously it's almost better than the original(O_O). Almost, but not quite;).

Hey, if you got time, go to Official Luis Fonsi Site and check out the clips of him performing live there! Seriously, what got me hooked onto this man in the first place was a clip of him performing live.
Also you can check out the streaming vid of "Secret," the video that Joey himself co-directed and cameos in.

I've also gotten pretty addicted to this guy Josh Groban, who sings classical pop. If you got more time lol, check out "Let Me Fall" and "Canto Alla Vita." He's good. And I don't just say that about any male soloist, so you know mean it;).

While I'm still on a plugging rampage high, have you guys heard Matchbox Twenty's "3 AM" with piano solo, Unplugged? Awesome. Awesome stuff, I mean there's a reason why these guys are practically the first mainstream band that I ever liked:D. Check it out on Morpheus or WinMX(what I prefer)when you get the chance.

Isn't it weird how people change so fast? Already I'm thinking of having to update my "Thoughts on Other Artists" page again. Plus that update on the BSB page that I never got around to doing.

Well anyway, that's all for now, see y'all soon.

I'm not talkin' about the movie though lol. The movie was great and fun and all that, and Good Lord at the soundtrack, but it was the book that was the wow. 1000+ pages of hardcore fierkness. The story was fierk, the characters were fierk, and the storytelling was fierk. Though at times I would be frustrated at Tolkien's understated ability to transcribe entire chapters from simple actions such as "They walked there."

I'm actually a moderately big fantasy fan. Well...not as big as some of the hardcore ones and not as big as I used to be of course, but I have an appreciation of this whole fandom and culture surrounding fantasy and fantasy-stories and all that with the magics and the elves and wizards and whatnot. At some point reading this trilogy at hit me that Tolkien was the origin...these stories, they were the origin and prototype and standard for that entire "universe" of Fantasy. Whether it's the running theme throughout contemporary RPG or fantasy storytelling of The Fellowship(otherwise known as The Party)of diverse adventurers, or of the castles, armies, orcs, wizards, and dark lords that he described...Tolkien is the origin. And as a contemporary fantasy fiction fan, I had a sense of reverence and awe and impressiveness that was directed at the old chap as I read. It's like...people who love pop music must at some point respect all that the Beatles had done or something, even if it was of another time and not of your own.

Done rambling.

I find that I'm using "lol" a whole lot these days, much more than I should. So...I probably shouldn't.

Fierk is not an actual word by the way.

To paraphrase and interchange the words of K.A. Applegate; I don't fully understand what the true definition of a "soul" is, but I do know this: If humans possess souls, then so do dogs.

Pets are special creatures to us...they're a little different from a family member yet so much like one...at times they seem to be able to read your thoughts like a book and at times you just can't get through to them...they appear so youthful and yet so ageless...they're just a part of your life and part of your daily system as your mother or your father or your siblings or your friends would be, not a replacement for any but a whole other part and piece of yourself. They just "are."

The loss of a pet is no less tragic and affective than the loss of any other human being that you are close to, maybe even moreso because they are so innocent and faultless. It's like a child. It's like a sudden harsh reminder that not all is perfect in the world, because the world would take away from you something so perfect.

So don't let anyone tell you that the death of a pet is a trivial thing. Don't let any heartless bastard deride that you're overreacting or oversympathizing towards this. Don't let the ignorant take away from the qualities that made the loss of Busta touch many of us so. Don't let any others tell you that you shouldn't feel the way you do about this. Because if you feel it, you understand how important it is.

I'm not gonna lie...the loss of Busta is not an important part of my "system." It doesn't affect me in any direct way. But I feel it. Because Busta has become a part of the *NSYNC that I know and I love, I feel his absence and that touches me. And I believe it's important to feel that...it's important to feel that way about things, about life and death. The people that leave us...they're not really gone. They live on in our memories. They've sung their parts in the grand, neverending orchestra that is Life, and their contributions to the masterpiece last on, influencing those of us who continue the song. They may have bowed from the stage but the lines that they wrote remain in the score.
Which is why I don't plan on taking down any of the traces of Busta in my site, whether it's the huge picture in my humor page(s) or his omnipresence in the DSS. I feel that by maintaining those past memories and those feelings that the lil' doggy gave us in the past may he truly live on and not be forgotten. Because he won't be.

See ya, 'lil dude. You'll be missed.
Chris, he was special. Treasure that.

"And if I should leave this lonely world behind, your voice will still remember our melody. And so it goes on and on; melodies of life, come circle 'round and grow deep in our hearts, as long as we remember." -Nobuo Uemetsu.

NEVER in my wildest delusions could I have imagined that the April Fool's joke I played would have such a huge effect, and never could I thought that so many people would take it seriously! If I had known I would never have made it. Or at least I would have had a huge link going to a page with APRIL FOOL'S!! written in huge-sized font or something.

Okay first of all let me apologize then I'll defend myself lol.

I'm sorry. To everyone that took it seriously and were honestly upset, distressed, saddened, whatever at the thought of *NSYNC not being around anymore...I really am sorry. Because I am a fan too, I know that type of dread and fear, even when you highly suspect it isn't true, can be overwhelming. So I really am sorry if I upset people. I really had no idea that so many people would take it so seriously, that's the honest truth. Oh, obviously I wanted to trick people and I wanted people to fall for it and I admit at first I was laughing at people who did...but holy crap, I had no idea.

And I feel extra craptastic because it seems as I was just in the exact same shoes of those soul-less tabloid decrepits who spread bullcrap around as they please and leave others to clean up their mess...oh obviously I wasn't in that state of mind at all, but in a sense I did get a glimpse of what it's like to be them and ugh...not a great view.

Okay, now that I've apologized and cyber-spanked myself several times, let me just say something in my own defense, okay? *Takes a deep breath*

IT WAS A JOKE Y'AAAAAALL!! It was an April Fool's joke. It was meant to be realistic to fool everyone and it did...in some sick sadistic way I feel so proud of myself lol, and for writing out something like that that obviously got a lot of people;). Okay yes I am really really really evil, so sue me. Please, it was just a joke for the first of April, something done totally in fun. So lol ummm...people sending me stuff telling me just how much they hate me and want me to burn in Jacob Underwood's hair, um...lol and I say this because I love you, right?...lighten up you big fat poopooheads. I probably am going to hell for this anyway, no need to speed me along in my journey;).

"You need to be respected as an exceptional individual. This is the only way that you can hope to achieve the status that you wish to achieve. You set yourself very high standards - and come what may - you abide by them."

Y'all seriously...that's scary(O_O). That is so me. Like...word for word. I think I'm scared now.

I've noticed that no one has been posting in my guestbook ever since my last ramble in it lol...I'm thinking I might have frightened a lot of people away:p. Y'all don't be scired of meeeeee!!

Do I sound really angry recently? I've noticed that a bit. Especially in my last "Thoughts" below. I sound really angry and vengeful and all that, lashing out at people and groups and being all righteous. Well...I guess I can't really say that I'm sorry for it, because to be honest I meant every word I said and don't think there was anything wrong with me saying them...but I will assure y'all(and myself)that I'm going to do my best to keep angry, bitter rants like that from becoming a habit.

Watching the PopOdyssey video, I'm reminded of just why and just how much I love The Game is Over performed live lol. Hardcore.

OOOOoooOOooh!! If you guys haven't yet you need to get an audio of their Beatles Medley lol, there are some floating around online but I'm not sure where...anyway Joey has this hardcore rocker thing he does at the end of "Hey Jude" and OMG I love it, and he does almost all of "Twist and Shout"(lol I can't remember the actual name of the song...or maybe that's it?)with that tone...Joey rocks.

Some gossip post says that Britney was seen crying into her beer after breaking up with Justin with her good friend Tara Reid(Tara herself has denied this). When people ask Britney about it, she says that they're still together. But of course no one listens and continues to barrage about it in the tabloids. Jive says that they're still together. Joey says that they're still together. Melinda Bell says they're still together. Justin and Britney release a direct statement saying that they're still together. No one, of course, listens. After all, they have to be lying, they just have to be.

But wait, it gets better.

US Weekly compiles all the crap the every tabloid has released in the last few weeks and puts together...one big pile of crap, and puts it on the front page. Complete with Justin's photos with "the brunette"(which were taken from well over two months ago)which turns out to be his agent(there are similar pictures of her hugging his bodyguard, but of course they are not released. I mean hey, why would the media tell the truth, oh, ever?)and the stint about Britney "forcing a smile" onto her face at her premieres and the whole crying into her beer. ET picks up on it. CNN picks up on it.

Forget the question that something like this could possibly be newsworthy for a minute, and let's just focus on the fact that all this information is completely unverified, without any actual source to back them up with except those anonymous family friends and witnesses that accompany every crap tabloid story ever written, and yet everyone still takes them seriously. Faced with numerous denials of these reports from everyone from Britney and Justin themselves to every single source that's ever actually connected to them, people would rather believe the tabloids.

If that's not enough to make you lose faith in humanity, then how about the fact that the media would twist the words of someone for their own gains...and everyone buys into it? Ever wondered where the whole "I'm not in an intense relationship with anyone at the moment" spectacle came from? Or why there's practically no video clip to back it up with? Because this is how it really went

Reporter: "Are you in an intense relationship with anyone at the moment?"

Britney: "An intense relationship?"

Reporter: "Yes."

Britney: "I wouldn't say an intense relationship."

Then USA Today releases a headline that Britney said "I'm single." People go insane...until of course, fifteen minutes later when MTV reveals that the whole interview was a part of a skit where the host asks her to marry him. Logically, USA Today could not have not known that. Logically they could not have not known that the host of the show had prepared a priest, flowers, and music to go along with the skit. Logically they could not have not known that just a few hours later Britney would go onto GMTV and say that they are still together. But they leave that out of course...why print anything that would ruin a sensational story?

I don't know which part frustrates and annoys me more...the fact that the downtrodden excuse of journalism nowadays that we call the media could so shamelessly compile all of this crap together and try to sell it for true, or that people in general, people who really should know about the fallacy and moral-less workings of the media, could so blind as to take it for true.

My views on the whole thing? Well up to this moment I have not heard ONE single shred of reliable confirmation from an even half-way reliable source that confirms the whole thing, so why would I believe it when everything that is in the least bit official in dealing with those two tell me otherwise? I don't know about anyone else, but I would gladly trust Justin, Britney, or ANY of their spokespersons with my mortal soul before I put a shred of faith in the aforementioned media tabloid supercircus. That's not to say that I would trust them with my soul, but them as opposed to the deceitful, materialistc press that would do anything for a good storyline? It's not even a fair comparison.

What is it about negative things that so effortlessly drive people to believe in them more than positive things? You know what...I see *NSYNC as something that spreads joy. They are more to me than just simple music-making machines. They are carriers of something great and enjoyable. But when their fanbase has no faith in them...for example when people start saying "*NSYNC is breaking up," some fans immediately accept it and start looking for the reasons; maybe ego-driven Justin and his greedy solo project, or materialistic Lance and his stupid space trip. My God...what even gives you the right? How can you sit there, call yourselves "fans," and yet have as little faith in them to the point that you don't even question or oppose the negativity anymore, you just assert and spread it? If that's what a "fan" is entitled to do and still be considered just as big a fan as anyone else, then you know what?...don't call me a fan. From the very beginning I've followed the same state of mind: Beyond the amazing music, the awesome tours, and the unforgettable performances, the greatest thing that they could possibly do for me is to be happy in their work, happy in their lives. That's what I want from *NSYNC. Maybe that makes me sappy or unrealistic(I don't think my attitude is particularly unrealistic)or too easygoing for them, but you know what, I'm proud of it. And of them. I don't doubt my feelings for *NSYNC and I don't doubt my faith in them, and not to sound like a braggart but I'm proud of these sentiments. It's not about how many posters I can hang up on my walls(I have none)or how early I'm going to get up to tape them on some obscure morning show(wake me up at noon...)or how many concerts I'm going to(I went to one this time around. Had a great time)or how many of their merchandises I'm going to waste money on(I didn't even get a calendar this year)or how constantly I'm going to update my website(I'll let the records speak for themselves;)), it's about that faith and that pride. And I oppose anything hateful or materialistic that other people and other "fans" will try to associate with them, be it Justin and Britney, be it Justin's involvement in the group, be it Lance and his dreams, be it any of them and any of their projects. I love *NSYNC. And nothing...not the phony excuse for a media that we have to deal with...not the hateful, bitter hypocrites at the JJB who are intent on putting down anything *NSYNC...not the close-minded critics who pride themselves on being paid to tell others what to like...not the changing face of music and of the world...nothing will change that fact.

*Goes to watch the PopOdyssey tape and/or the On the Line DVD a few more times. Oh wait, I have to get ready for opera rehearsals. Dang. Oh well, later then*

Oh my Lord...someone stop my orgasms...someone please...

Okay y'all...I know there's a chance that it won't happen. If that dang Russian spokesperson has his way, it won't. But both Lance and MirCorps have expressed confidence even after that particular press statement, so I still have faith that there's a big chance for him.

This is huge. This is beyond huge. This is friggin' OUTER SPACE. This is such a huge, unimaginable honor for him. Can you imagine? Such an opportunity, an amazing chance to live out a dream.

Yeah, I'm worried. I'm worried for him. I'm worried about his safety should this happen. But honestly...I think it'll be okay. I really do think that. I'll pray for him and hope it turns out okay.

And *NSYNC taking a seven month break...I think that'll turn out okay too. I mean people exaggerate too much. Seven months is not that long. Besides, we'll get the fourth single from them sometime in May, Joey's movie Big Fat Greek Wedding is coming out around that time too, Justin has a solo album he's recording...I mean seriously between the four of them I think they can make do without Lance for a few. And besides, Russia's not that far away...we live in the 21st century you know. If they really need him they can just give him a call or an e-mail or something, it's not like they can't afford it lol.

And people are always talking about how they work so hard and need to take a break, and I can't imagine any better of a chance to do so. Joey can take more time to be with his family in this important time, and they can all scale back a bit for a few months, get some writing done maybe, and when Lance gets home they'll be ready to roll once more. Really, I think it'll be fine.

And once again...GO LANCE. It sounds weird to say lol, but I'm so proud of him, even if it doesn't work out. Go Lance.

Btw, I have to mention that Homer Hickam is the most awesome author I've ever read from.

If Britney isn't a girl, and she isn't a woman...then what is she? A wirl?

Oh Holy Lord.

I made actual online contact with a celebrity!!

Well...it's not really contact...since really he answered me like a month after I posted the question...but still;)! He like...spoke to me! Like...in text!

Okay, I'm acting like a moron, I know. All will be revealed here!

The basic gist though, is that I posted a question on the official Richard Marx message board asking about that solo song that he worked with Chris and Dave Foster on(which rocks by the way;)...I posted a link to it in that link. I wanna do a review of it but I'm not sure in which section I should place it...Collaborations maybe?)and he actually answered! Lol I feel like such a mofo for actually thinking this is cool, but I do love Dickie Marx. I'd say he's my favorite male solo artist of all time. And like...wow.

Okay, dork moment over;).

I don't understand what's the infatuation people seem to have recently for the word "overpromoted." It's like...I dunno, like the word "Sell-out," people find this term that they think applies to a lot of artists they don't like and hangs onto it like a desperate monkey. It's a little juvenile to watch, really. When acts aren't around enough, they're immediately attacked for "fading out." And on the other hand, anything that's hot or kept in the spotlight a lot is accused of "overpromoting" and that it's only hurting their careers. Why does that not make sense to me?. It just becomes a new weapon, a new barb to hurl. And it's pointless. And it's always the fans of the artists who aren't promoting much who are throwing the barbs, almost trying to make *NSYNC and Alicia and Britney and whoever who do grace their fans with appearances feel guilty or something. So pointless.

Oh, speaking of Britney, her new Pepsi jingle is really cool;).

OOOOH, and speaking of cool, are you guys feelin' the Girlfriend Remix with Nelly? HARDCORE!!!

OOOOOOOH!!!! and speaking of hardcore, I don't think I'll ever get sick of listening to "What's Going On."

I find that I like putting "un" in front of "in" words just for the fun of it. Like I'd suddenly go "unsane" or "unpossible." 'Course unpossible was originally an "im" word, but we get the point, ya?

Three weeks give or take after it happened, I'm in stitches from Nicky Carter's stint with the authority figures. I mean y'all...this is funny crap, yo.

Poor, mizzundastood BSB. When will things begin to look up for them?

Did Nick really do anything wrong? If he did anything wrong it was being stupid. Unfortunately sometimes "being stupid" just isn't a good enough cover(or indeed, any cover at all). I mean, there are literally laws against "being stupid." People say all the time that it's not a crime to be stupid, but the reality is that it is very much a crime to be stupid. Being stupid with your life and the way you behave yourself could get you much worse than just a trip down to the police station if you're not careful. People who drink and drive and run over children, well they're just being stupid...does that excuse them? Of course not. And no I'm not trying to compare what Nick did with drunk driving. God no. But I'm a little tired hearing the "Well he's just an ordinary 21 year old!" or "He was just being stupid" excuses, screw that...I know plenty of stupid-azz moron 21 year olds who don't get arrested or dragged away in cop cars or in any trouble at all. In this particular situation what he did was not serious, he didn't commit any murders or even hurt anyone in the slightest, but his being stupid or a rowdy 21 year old certainly doesn't give it any more leeway. In case scenario, if you get caught with drugs in your system or whatever, that's called being stupid. And yeah, there are a lot of people Nick's age who do get caught with drugs in their system. Does that make it any better? Any less of a cause to get arrested? Again, not comparing Nick with drug abusers. Just displaying my opinions on the whole "He was just stupid, that's no need to arrest him" phenomena.

If I was hanging out in an area where there had been some fighting or ruckus(enough to get the law enforcement involved more than once that very night), and a police officer told me to get my azz off the premises...my azz gets off the premises before the mean old fart has time to look my way again.

Do I feel sorry for Nick? Not in the sense that I felt sorry for AJ, no. I mean the guy did not suddenly develop an incurable disease, he repeatedly ignored a police officer and got arrested in front of dozens of people...this is no pity case, folks:p. I do feel sorry in the sense that people like Jay-Z and Piddlypuff and OJ get off with shooting and stabbing and everyone acts like these are the most naturally-occuring events in the world. Nick gets arrested and people gets all over his case like he suddenly needs mental help or something. It's not that huge of a deal. It's deathly funny;), and no one should make any excuses for him, but really it's not that serious. He'll pay a fine, life will go on.

Meanwhile, BSB fans suffer.

If you have ever been to my site before this date, if you have ever read the thoughts that I have typed out below...thank you. You've waited a long time for this and I'm truly grateful. I'm sorry, and thank you.

If this is the first time you've ever been on this site...hi, I'm Brian, internet screenname BrianWilly. I love *NSYNC.

How to explain my long absence in a way that is deserving of those of you who have stuck out through my hiatus and are still here reading this? The truth is that I can't, plain and simple. I was irresponsible and left a lot of you hanging. This simplest way for me to defend myself, however poorly, is that during the time I was gone, I didn't want to work on this site. And now I do again. It's that simple. I know y'all deserve a much better explanation that that, but basically that's it. I felt like I wasn't running a website, instead a website was running me, and that sucked. When half the pictures on my server simply decided to disappear and leave dozens of little boxes with a red "X" in their place, a problem that's still going on in some of the pages, I just felt like...enough was enough. I was actually planning on returning to the site in early September, but the whole attack on America occured, and suddenly having an update called "Pop Psychology Part 7: Would You Take a Bullet for *NSYNC?" seemed very out of place and very insignificant, and I doubt I'm going to put it up anytime soon though I am finished with it. By the way, heart goes out to everyone affected by that...I'm not going to consciously bring the WTC attacks up very often, but know that I'm not trying to ignore it and that it does weigh very deeply with me.

I'm in college now, a proposed music major in University of California Santa Cruz. Yay me. College life is good and I'm having fun, but to be honest it's nothing to be braggy about lol. My roommate hangs up posters of Sailor Moon. We get along just fine;).

I still love *NSYNC, as you can tell. I know it's weird for me to say that my fandom never decreased, not even a slight little bit, over these last months, but it's true. I got sick of a webpage, not of *NSYNC. I still tape and analyze their TV appearances. I watched On the Line three times in the theater and wish I could have seen more. I hang out in message boards(a whole lot less than I used to, I'll admit...my whole fascination with the internet has dwindled a bunch). I still check nsyncworldwide.com and nsyncwebguide.com almost daily for news. In about ten minutes the new video for Girlfriend is going to premiere and I'm gonna go tape it, even if I already have it in mpg.

What has changed? I think I'm a little more impatient, though no less a procrastinator. If college has taught me anything(besides what I'm supposed to learn anyway), it's that there is never enough time to do everything you want. Never. I have to begin to sort out priorities, something that just kinda sorted itself out in HS.

What's new about the site? Not much really...it has a splash page now, and the obvious updates about stuff since I've been gone. Some pages like the Justin/Britney page has been taken out because it was taken up an unneeded amount of space(by this time, I figured that enough people have come to terms with reality and stopped being immature brats about the whole matter anyway so I figure there wasn't much point in leaving it up;)). The entire Digital Star Saga has been moved, also for the sake of more server space, but otherwise remains the same. I took out a bunch of stupid stuff that probably never made sense in the first place, like the whole Power Rangers page(on crack much, BW?)and some stuff on the Opinions page(I will now join the guys momentarily in the IDMC mental asylum. Thank you). The entire "Things I Hate about other sites" or whatever that was has been entirely removed(not deleted...yet), if I'm gonna keep this site up it's going to be because I want to, not because moronic people compel me to, even if that's kind of the way it all started:).

So once again...Happy New Year, and may all our futures be bright.

PS: As an afterthought, anyone else love Joey's buzzcut!? HARDCORE!!!!!!!!!11111 Heh, I'm probably the only one the world who would be happy if all *NSYNC suddenly decided to go bald...tehehehehehehafdhmds.

I'm trying to write a song. It sucks. Working on it. I'm such a poser:p.

I'm going to China next Tuesday, specifically Shanghai. For a month. Don't worry, I'll still have internet connection there so I'll be able to continue this string of updates and I'll be able to keep up with *NSYNC news too:)! But I won't be able to scan any pictures, kind of a downer. Should be okay though, I've never been there and I'm excited, I'm told it's really cool. And I need to get out more anyway:D. I'll miss the Teen Choice Awards though:(, as well as any other *NSYNC events.

Can you believe I'm still working on getting things to that domain!? I'm the biggest slacker in the entire world and I know it. It's just that with my recent lack of updates, I'm actually kinda embarrased about doing too much else to the site until I get it back on its feet, update-wise.

Did anyone else see Final Fantasy? If you didn't, you really should before it goes away from poor box office numbers:(...it's one of my favorite movies this year. Lol I'm so used to *NSYNC being on top that it feels strange when something I love is actually doing poorly!

I'm sure you've all heard about AJ. Wow...
No lies, no macho crap, I was really crushed and incredulous when I first heard. Now I'm not so concerned about it, but you know what? I joke about these things happening all the time. I try and predict these things. I can honestly say that a few weeks ago I wouldn't have been surprised if it happened. Watching the tapes of recent BSB concerts(Which you can see these days on MTV All Access), I couldn't even recognize AJ's voice.
But when I actually heard about it, when everything I had thought about was confirmed. I was flat-out shocked beyond speech. I honestly had no idea how I should have felt, no idea how I did feel. I felt so sorry for them that they have to go through with this, espcially AJ. I know exactly what you're thinking: He's just a star. A TV image. Save your pity for someone close to you. Well I'm sure realistically it should all work that way, but for better or for worse very few things work realistically in the real world. Understand that although AJ has never been a favorite of mine, the fact that we know him...not just as a person on TV...we know him. Alcoholism...how can you not feel sympathy for someone who has to cope with that? In his position, to boot? You'd think that it'd be easier, and that'd be a generalization.
Does this mean that I forgive the BSB for all the things that they've said in the past? Of course not; it just reaffirms my faith in them as human beings. They are not superhuman, they are not more immune to any of our issues...I remember talking to someone who thought that because someone is a celebrity, they don't have a deep connection to normal peoples' issues nd couldn't be expected to understand. Bull. Pure bull. I'm always so annoyed when I see all these attempts at painting celebrities as so very different, as something not quite on our same scale of humanity, and I know I'm not the only one.
With that aside, the question remains: What of their future? AJ just commited what has always been considered the equivalent of career suicide. What's going to happen now?
I honestly wouldn't know. I would love it if all this actually works to the Boys' advantage instead of against, but I'm not blind; I know this can very, very easily be the end for them. The media will never let this go. The fans will stick by fiercely, nd the Boys themselves will fight to stay in their work. Ultimately however, there may just be too much of a backlash. And I'd be sad. You know that if it were any other way, I wouldn't be? If they just broke up in any other way, I'd just say something like, "Well there that goes...nice while it lasted." But to have a group end its reign because of this...psychological and physiological diseases...I'd be so pissed, to say the least. I'd feel that they were cheated out of things. They've been on such a downer streak for a long time, the title Black and Blue is no longer just a joke, and I just feel bad about it, despite knowing that none of it is my fault...

I'll have more thoughts later. Right now I'm tired and I need to sleep. Good night!

So yeah, everyone's heard the J/B death rumors by now. I have very little to say about that that you wouldn't already guess that I would say, but let me just show y'all something I saw from worldpop:

While we're still on the subject of Justin and Britney, I guess people are now getting on her for being at a whole lot of *NSYNC concerts, saying that she has no ife of her own, follows Justin like a dog, should be working on her album, blah blah blah blah etc. etc. etc.
Well okay, this is towards the people who have been saying that. You know what? An asteroid did not just slam into the Earth and signify the Apocalypse. We are not at war. Your entire family is not dying of an epidemic. So please, get over yourselves and your desire to put down someone for their choices. Britney has been working for the last two years and has just filmed a movie. She wants to spend time with Justin and see the *NSYNC tour. I really, really don't remember that being included in any of the ten sins. Is she attacking you at your concerts? Jumping up onstage to make out with all *NSYNCers and their dancers while they perform? Drawing attention to herself? Oh, okay. So why're you complaining?
And have people considered that maybe, just maybe, she places maintaining her relationship on a higher priority than cranking out her album as fast as she can? Maybe she feels love is more important than work. There are people who are more interested in making their love lives work than in their already-functioning career. And you know what? More power to those people. They place importance in what is truly important in life, and not the material pleasures derived from temporary gains. Morever, people are not going to forget all about Britney if she takes a break.
So please, until you find a real, selfless reason not to want Britney to be around Justin a lot, don't go around mouthing off.

Alright, on the *NSYNC merchandise! I admit, I don't like them much and really don't see the point. But some people are making it out like it's going to be their downfall and that it's just too much too quick and they're going to go the way of NKOTB. Um...the way people are making it sound, I should be tripping on their fan Barbies walking down the street(Thanks Salar for the visual:)). For pete's sake, haters know more about their merchandise than the fans do. Okay, they're going to go on with the music, people who want to buy the merchandise will do so, and peple who don't want to, won't! It's that simple. I don't think just because they have stickers and binders out they're automatically guaranteed a trip out of the business.

Dearies, Lance was joking. *NSYNC jokes. About everything. They like Christina. Christina likes them. She's not a fragile little flower that'll just crumble to pieces when her friends joke about something so obvious. Observe this statement from Christina's own mother from LiveDaily:

Eminem and Marylin Manson recorded a version of Em's "The Way I Am." Why does this amuse me so much? This is so amusing to me. If you could see me right now, I'd look amused.

Sarah Michelle Gellar got engaged to Freddie Prinze a while ago...wow...I guess I always knew they were going to someday, but still...I guess I'm happy for them. I guess I can delude myself into thinking that I am, at least lol. Certainly I'm not upset that they're getting hitched, who do you think I am? But trust me I'm the last person who's gonna be celebrating anytime soon:p.

Ah well. Buffy art God. All hail Buffy. And eh, Mr. Buffy.

This is interesting to me. I think I might do a "Pop Psychology" on this. Hey, I'm running low on materials, so sue me:p. I think...I dunno, I think I might, if not intentionally at least I'd try to do something. At least I wouldn't just stand there stupidly while they got shot at, you know?

Mosquitoes are wussies. I wouldn't want to be reincarnated as a mosquito even if I really believed in it:). You practically only have to touch them or something and they die.

I saw Prince on Saturday! He was better than I thought he'd be. Really good voice. It didn't interest me too much, a friend dragged me, but I had a good time nonetheless.

Freecell rocks hardcore.

I hang out at the LiveDaily Message Boards a lot these days, so if you wanna just straight out talk with me you can go there:).

I'm almost into college. Wow. I think this should be some major wowie event of my life and I should be worried sick about it like Felicity or something(X_X), but you know, this seems almost natural to me. I'm not worried. I'm really nervous, but not worried. Coolness.

A lot of you wrote to me about my O-Town opinions, and I must admit I'm not as angry at them as I was about a week ago, in fact I'm rather forgiving of them right now. No further clarifications, as even I am surprised and dismayed by this fact. Wow, sometimes I hate being a nice guy:p.

Who's this Willa person?
Okay, you don't have to answer that:x, I pretty much know who she is anyway, I'm not a BSB fan for nothing you know, although my peers(namely you guys:p)might think otherwise lol.
Hear me out, I just want to rant about this for a minute.
So you got Nick Carter's girlfriend...and I really don't what happened, this happened a long time before I became an internet junkie, but his family posted some stuff about her that's not really what the fans want to hear about a girlfriend. Even when I heard about it I was all, "Okay, this had better be a mistake on the Carters' part or this girl is really messed." This was all a few years ago...I think late 1999. I don't want to really say anything about it that I might get wrong.
But now Willa's back, alright(I could not resist, shoot me NOW), and this time I don't like the way she is being treated. If you don't know, basically her whole career at the moment centers around the fact that she used to date Nick and that there are a lot of people who hate her now. That's her career, and I'm not even trying to be funny. Basically a lot of BSB fans, but not all(I have to say that or people will get on my case:x), for lack of a more fitting term hates her guts. This isn't like Britney hate, though it's similar. This is like, "You know what, we know she's a hootch and nothing you can say will change that." Which is, okay, kinda like Britney hate, but on a way different scale. We're talking the most mature fans you will find anywhere participating in what I consider to be a mass hating spree, justifying it all with a simple "I don't hate her because she used to date Nick, I hate her because she's yadayadayada." I exaggerate, but only slightly.
Which I have a slight problem with. I don't encourage this level of negativity towards anyone, especially someone you've don't know personally and are going off of shady evidence at best. People are in mass support of hate(Kinda oxymoronish)towards her, and as little regard I have for Willa at the moment(Actually I kinda like "I Wanna Be Bad")I just find this whole attitude petty. I don't support any hate of any kind, and especially not on this scale. It's just petty.
There. I just wanted to say that. Thank you.

Of course there are people who don't like it. And in defense of the video, fans will say that Christina doesn't have to be a role model, she didn't ask for that job, she's only twenty she shouldn't have that responsibility.

That, I do have a problem with. That's like saying a law was made before I was born so I don't have to follow it. That's outright and deliberate ignorance of simple truths. She didn't ask to be a role model. Well she is one. No one should get offended when she is sexy. Well people are. You can't just pretend like these factors don't exist! That's ignoring a problem or at least making it out to be smaller than it really is and hoping it will go away.

Don't get me wrong. I have no problem with the vid or anything else sexy to that degree. Si elles me demandaient a coucher avec elles ce soir, bien sur je crierais "OUI! O MON DIEU OUI!!!" Translation: If they asked me to sleep with them tonight(Which is what "Voulez-vous coucher avec moi ce soir" is asking), of course I would shout "YES! OH GOD YES!!!" I've no qualms with it. But you can't just ignore a side of a problem and hope that it won't still be there, that's all I'm saying.

Anyway, I just watched the movie Ricochet River the other day, starring Jason James Richter. If you know Jason James Richter, you know he was the boy in all three Free Willy movies, and if you know me you know that I adore all three Free Willy movies to the point of scariness. I watched this out of curiousity, and it was okay, kinda slow-moving, but I wonder if Jason will ever get to star in any good movies someday where he doesn't end up saving wildlife or befriending Native Americans or get drenched from head to toe or get that all-American boy typecast. I guess I'm not really a fan of his, but as he did single-handedly introduce me to one of the biggest obsessions in my life beyond *NSYNC I do think I owe him at least attention towards his career. I hope Jason is doing okay today, I do check up on his status on the Internet Movie Database once in a while and haven't seen him in any movies lately. Oh well. If he's gonna try out the normal life then I wish him luck. Good luck, Free Willy boy! All things considered I am literally your biggest fan(^o^)!

Napster downloads of late: Tony Lucca. You know, that other tall MMC guy? His songs are really cool, it's the kind of music I would love to be able to make. It's far from pop...kinda weird and emotional and long. I hope he goes places too. Also I'm into getting soundtracks of songs. I just downloaded maybe seven versions of "The Neverending Story." WOW.

Anyway. Thoughts of the day.

*I'm still on that Napster binge and I downloaded a whole lot of Ron Irizarry songs. He's okay, I love his lyrics, but it's just not the type of music I listen to on a daily basis. Which is okay, I can still respect him as a talent, and I'd still love it if he could open for my concert instead of Eden's Crush, but hey:)...

*I heard that there was some kind of a joke going around e-mails that Joey got into a huge car accident and is in intensive care. Um, not funny.

*I'm on Spring break! Yayness!

Thoughts for 3/26/01...*Hey, well Napster's gonna go bye bye in a while...so why not make the best of it while it's still here? I'm on a downloading binge right now. Here are some of the things I've got recently and why I think you should get them too:).

Luis Fonsi: Know this guy? Latin pop artist. He used to be part of the Big Guys with Joey and did a duet with Christina Aguilera in her Spanish album. I read an article about him and got interested, so I downloaded a lot of his songs(Most of them are ballads). He's really good! An amazing vocalist. And we might be hearing more of him in the states soon:).

Yo Te Voy Amar: Okay, okay, I know. But I really like this Spanish version, it sounds...I dunno, it's almost better than in English! Maybe I'm just getting into foreign languages recently.

Lady Marmalade: I really, really like this song! I kinda reminded me of that Superbowl fiasco, ie the "more is better" approach:). I can't wait for the video to come out. Too many shexy ladies at once...overload...

Tonya Mitchell: I just wanted to hear what she sounded like, since she'll be opening this time. She's okay.

Some BoyzIIMen stuff.

Backstreet Boys 2000 Grammy Performance: I kinda like this one too, wish I could have seen it...

So yeah, use Napster while you still can, folks!

Other thoughts of the day: I don't really like the idea that Eden's Crush will open for *NSYNC...I think it's kinda hypocritical on *NSYNC's part *shrugs*