| 8-11-02 Today, the Lord sent me home. I didn't feel good at church today, and so I eventually went home early. I was in so much pain that I couldn't go to sleep and I was getting angry and frustrated but I cried out to the Lord and 2 hours later I wake up without any pain. Lately I've been slacking on my quiet times with the Lord. What I once had wasn't there anymore and it seemed that everytime I prayed the Lord didn't hear me. My head has been full of so many thoughts lately- asking the Lord for this and that but not feeling any less overwhelmed. Today I was reading and the Lord told me to just stop. I was a little confused because I was in a quiet time and I questioned him to make sure he knew what he was doing. He told me to just stop and not fuss or argue that I was needed in the go position. He told me to wait and just trust him so I did. To be completely honest, that's the medicine that I needed. If I thought I was going to hear him, it wasn't going to be when I was going full force ahead, but instead when I waited silently. I just stopped thinking, stopped complaining, and stopped worrying- and listened. I found out that this is the way for me to cast my burdens upon the Lord and just give them to him completely trusting him. I haven't felt this much at peace in a long time. Now I will relieve your shoulders of its burden; I will free your hands from their heavy tasks. You cried to me in trouble and I saved you; I answered out of that thundercloud. I tested your faith when you complained there was no water. Psalm 81:6-7 Around 11 tonight, I got together with two of my guy friends, and we went to the beach to look at the meteors. It was the best time at the beach I've ever had and the best time I've had in a long time. On the way there, they were trying to help me understand guys- they were really looking out for me and I really appreciated it. Thinking of them telling me when a guy doesn't just want to be friends and getting in the way when I'm oblivious to my surroundings, makes me extremely happy and I feel truly blessed. We had a good time on the beach laying under a blanket watching the meteors and messing around. It's amazing how different we seem to the world- you wouldn't think that we'd all be good friends- but even though we're completely different, we're also similar. They're great they just crack me up- especially with their idea of running around in their underwear while I'm under the blanket covering my eyes. We'll save that story for another time. They're just amazing. |