| 8-5-02 I've been trying to rid my life of sin. I know I won't be able to get rid of it all, but the more pure my life is, the more I can focus on the Lord. It is hard but also easy at the same time. The hard part is admitting your sin and finally convincing yourself that the Lord knows what's best for you. The easy part is acting on it. Still, I don't feel any closer than I did before and I don't feel more at peace about it like I thought I would. I'm trusting the Lord and his timing while working at patience because I am one of the most impatient people ever. It just seems like my life's a big jumble filled with big and small decisions I have to make in a very short time, and at the moment I have no control over my life. I'm just going to have to have faith. At least I don't have to look at the Lord with a face covered in shame. |