| Chapter 10: Confessions They took her to the hospital where the doctors told them she'd suffered from a mental and physical break down, which they said wasn't abnormal for celebrities who work like Beyonce did. But Lindell didn't think it was the pressure of being a celebrity that brought on her break down. He knew it was Jay Z and he hated him for it. The 6 of them, Kelly, Michelle, Solange, Tina Knowles, Matthew Knowles and Lindell sat in the waiting room. A doctor came out. "She's awake now, you can go see her. One at a time though, she just getting over the anesthetics and we don't want to overwhelm her. She also may not be...herself." Tina and Matthew went in first. Then once they came out Kelly and Michelle, and then Solange. Lindell didn't go in. "Why don't you go see her Lindell?" Kelly asked. "Nah�I'm the whole reason she's in here�she doesn't wanna see me." Lindell said. "Go in there Lindell. It's not a question anymore. No matter how hard she pushes you away you know you still gotta be there for her. Don't let her down." Kelly said. He thought about what Kelly had said and went in. Beyonce looked dazed. Like she was staring of at something that wasn't there. He sat on the bed beside her. He stroked her cheek like he'd done the time he wanted to tell her how he felt. She was awake and laying there but as he looked into her eyes he saw that she wasn't really there mentally. "Hey Lindell," she said. "Hey B�how you feelin?" he asked. "I'm feelin good," she said. "Good." He said. "You're not gonna get evicted." She said. "You saw those?" he said more as a statement than a question. "Uh-huh. I paid them for you too. So now you can still live there." She said still not directly looking at him. "Thank you." He said as he stroked her hair now. "Shawn told me I can't talk to you." Beyonce said. "I thought he did." Lindell said. "I had a dream." She said. "You did?" he said speaking to her as if she was a small child. "Yeah. The second day I came back to Houston. The day after I saw you at church." She said. "What was it about?" Lindell asked. "You." Beyonce said. "Me?" Lindell said. "Mm-hm." She said. "You came over." She said. She closed her eyes and was breathing deeply. "And�" she said. "And you came in my room when I was asleep." Lindell got scared that she hadn't been fully asleep when he'd "confessed" to her he loved her. "You said you wish you knew how to tell me you loved me�and then after I had that dream Lindell, I wished that I knew how to tell you that I loved you. And I wasn't sure if�if you loved me back so that's why I didn't tell you. And then I saw that you had those magazines of me after we broke up, and that you still cared about me. You care about me don't you?" She said. "Yes. Of course I care about you." He said. "You love me?" she asked. "I�" he began. "You don't love me." She said. "Go away." "I never said I didn't love you." He said. "You never said you did either." She said. "So that means you don't," "No it doesn't." he said. "I love you. So why don't you love me?" she said. "Beyonce�" he began. He sighed and left. Chapter 11 |