shit i have a bad habbit of leaving this too long. i can't believe it was xmas yesterday. the yr has gone so fast! i wonder what xmas was like for tim's family. it's the first xmas since he died. lets not get into that now shall we. i've already had a really shit day so talking bout tim will only make it worse.
i got scanner off santa yesterday but i don't know how to use the fucken thing so that pissed me off this morning, then i had to wait for an hour and a half for mum to get ready so she could talk me to the dfo in mt durit, my brother bought me a cossie from there; i said to him "red. two piece with white star's all over it, you can't miss it, its the only one there with star's", what did he do, he got me this hedious orangy red two piece that has underwire in it, underwire in a cossie is just stupid!, and NO STARS, hello where are the star's i said to him, "oh i don't know, isn't that what you wanted?", never mind i told him, i'll go exchange it. so i drove the 25 minutes to get there, in the rain mind you (i hate driving in the rain!) and when i got there all that happened was the i was directed to the store policy sign '.......we do not exchange swinwear......'. fuck i thought, so i left the 'customer service' desk and walked over to the cossie's and showed my mum which one i wanted. i was in the shop for 3 minutes max and on our way out, the slut at the 'customer service' desk started pointing to the security guard furiously to check my bag, after she wouldn't exchange my cossie the bitch was accusing me of shopplifting. i was just bout to show my bag to the door lady when this huge security guy grabbed my bag off me and tipped it up side down emptying my wallet and the hidous orangy red cossie on the floor, as well as the docket for it (which Evan had given me to exchange it). i turned around and said "what the fuck do you think your doing?!" all of a sudden i see the bitch for 'customer service peering from behind the security guard. i went off, i was soooooo angry, first she wouldn't exchange my cossie (and being very rude when doing so!) and then she was accusing me of shopplifting, i yelled "the stupid bitch thinks i shopplifted, and you", i turned and pointed at the security guard, "you are not aloud to touch my belonging's, I have to show you them, its the law and you should know that being a SECURITY GUARD and all, so don't you ever touch me or my things again, if you do i'll have you up for harrassment!" by then though i wasn't yelling enough for the whole shop to hear me, just to the guard and the bitch from 'customer service'. she went red in the face and tryed helping me pick up my things, i was so shitty that i kindly told her to piss off and not to touch my stuff.
you all probably think i overreacted, and i probably did, but when im in a shitty mood i can get nasty! the rain always seems to put me in a shitty mood, i hate the rain. and then on my way back all i had was my mum yelling in my ear, "your driving to fast, now your too slow, i don't like this music your listening to, close ur window its too cold blah blah blah" she thinks she's talking, but all she does is yell, she's a typical wog mother, all she does is nag nag and nag, and she talks so loud! i'm only bout 50 cms away from her and i bet the dude with eminem blarring could hear everything she was saying. i told her that i was shitty enough and that having her yelling at me wasn't helping, mind you though when i was saying this she was still yelling, sorry 'talking' at me so of course i had to rais my voice for her to hear me, and this is always her reply "oh so you can yell at me, but i can't yell at you" no matter how many times i've tried explaining to her that i have to yell so she can hear me because she's always too busy yelling at me to hear what i was saying. as soon as i got home i did a hand brakie and slammed the door, ran up stair's, got into my pj's and went to sleep. see told ya my day was shit!
ok i have to talk bout 'happy' things now cos this is bringing back my shitty mood. i spoke to jennifer last night, YAY only 16 days till she come's home (she went to denmark as an exchange student for a yr), i can't wait till she comes home! big piss up when she does! my mum yelled at me cos i was on the fone with her for bout an hour and a half, woops :oI it really doesn't seem like she's been over there for so long, i miss her heaps cos she's such a funny bitch, but its comforting knowing she's coming back. when i think bout tim, it scars me cos i realise that he's not coming back, im really scared of dying now. cos once your dead, thats it there's nothing you can do bout it and its not like you can say "oh crap i didn't get to do that today, oh well i'll just do it tomorrow", cos there is NO TOMORROW. im really parranoid bout going to hell as well, im not a bad person, i believe in God, i go to church every week, and i say my prayers. but i also smoke, get drunk, do drugs (pot), and i've had sex before marrige. i guess im a 'normal teenager', but does that mean that all of us have a life of eternal damnation ahead of us? ok this isn't 'happy' talk, shut up alexia!
i saw barney on tuseday, *blushes*, he's soooooooo hot. i met him through a friend of mine (he's living with her bf). everytime someone hear's his name, thy're like "barney? what the fuck?" but his name's shaun, when he was in primary school everyone used to call him barney cos he looked like barney rubble from the flinstones and its stuck with him ever since. he's such a cutie! i hooked up with him on friday night, i like him heaps, but he's too old for me, he's 26. i usually wont even go for 21 cos i think its too old for me, but when im with him or when i see him i forget how old he is, he soooooooooo doesn't seem like he's 26. he doesn't want a relaionship with anyone at the moment cos he's ex has turned into a tad of a phsyco and she's put him off relationships for a while, which is fine by me cos im not sure if i want a relationship with someone who's 8 yrs older than me. at the moment im content with hooking up with him every now and then. he's such a sweetie! i better go, the dog is wimpering and i have to go see what he wants.
bye now listening to Boxcar Racer (i love this album!)
shit i haven't written in here for ages!, well a lot of stuff has happened, well sort of a lot. i finished tafe about a week ago, im pretty happy bout that. all i have to do now is get a full time job! i went for an interview on monday for a junior office helper person thingy in the city, i don't know if i've got it yet. hopefully i will, cos its $400 a week which for me is alot of money! and its in the city. i love the city! anyway last thursday (28th) i dyed my hair bright red cos of chilli peppers, and last friday (29th) i went to the chilli peppers concert. it was fucken auwsom! i haven't had that much fun in ages, and omigod the guys were absolutly gorgous! amanda was got really pissed before we got there and just as the bus (to take us to the venue) pulled up, she started winging about needing to go to the toilet, but i explained to her that we had to catch the bus that had just pulled up other wise we would have to wait 30 mins till the next one came and that we would probably miss the biggining of the chilli's. i have never in my whole life herd someone complain that much in my life. the whole way there on the bus, "im gonns die, i have to go to the toilet, im gonns piss myself, its hurts" etc etc, finnaly we ran off the bus (because we were pretty much at a standstill with all the traffic and she was going to wet herself), and ran into the closest restarunt (<that looks like its spelt wrong) and ran towards the toilet, to get into the toilets we had to walk throught a sectioned off bit of the restarunt and we ended up barging into the someone's wedding reception. now imagin this, a big wog wedding everyone dressed up, all the family etc etc etc and then three girls run in all dressed in shorts, singlets and sneakers with one of them grabbing her crutch yelling "im gonna piss myself", i was so embarrassed cos as soon as we burst into the wedding thing, everyone just turned and looked at us. they were all dressed up, at first i was like "whats going on?" and then i looked up and on the wall was a huge sign saying "OUR WEDDING". woops anyway we weren't in there for long just about a minute cos me and trina were yelling at amanda to hurry and pee, and as soon as we were in there, we were out and lucky for us (sort of) the bus was only about 10 metres down from where we left it so we just got back on it. the next day (saturday) me and trina went to the NOVA christmas party which was pretty cool, excert for the fact that it started hailing on us!
Omigod! i got silverchair tickets! YAY im so excited! im trying to get onto next years big brother and if i do i'll miss out on the concert, im not really happy bout that but how many chances would you get to go on big brother? not very many so if i do (which there is a big chance i wont) i wont say no, i'll just have to miss out on the concert :o(
jennifer's coming back home in 36 days, YAY i can't wait till she comes back! big day out is going to be auswom! i can't wait, me trina. amanda and jennifer (yes u r jen, and don't say your not!) are going to dress up as nurses for big day out trina keeps telling all these guys that we're dressing up as porno nurses, you can tell she's just doing it for attention. quite sad i know. anyway i think im gonna go now cos im kinda tired and and dawsons creek is starting soon.
bubye listening to triple j online
OMIGOD im serious when i say this! but i think my head is going to expload! i seem to be getting headaches all the time now. don't ask me why, i'll fine and then the next minute my head is pounding. even the sound of the key board when im typing is making me feel like im going to throw up. i didn't go to class again today cos i had a presentaion due and i kinda haven't finished it woops. i was just looking at a Peter Alexander catalogue, he has the most gorgous pj's, but shit they're expensive! i think i'll just keep wishing for the moment. i have saving, cos i don't know how too! i always end up spending my money and not having anything left to save. oh the trials and tribulations of my life. ok its official! my head is about to expload, i think im going to go now.
see ya latter guys
P.S.15 days till chilli peppers concert! YAY