Fuck i have such a huge headache! and the fact that my web page is taking so long to load up so i can work on it is pissing me off even more! so like before i've been left with having to start this new entry in my word processor and then cut and pasting it later on. shit, im a tad on the bord side today, its my only day off from class and im supposed to be doing my assignments, but im in such a "i couldn't be bothered" mood that i haven't evn open any of my books. so insted of doing them im mucking around on the net. i only just reaslied that i think jennifer is going to london again, im going to have get her to buy me some PLACEBO stuff, since no-one even know's who PLACEBO is over here! i really really want a silk poster, that would be really cool ohhhh and one of those calico sholder bags would be fantastic.actually jen, while your over there can you just bring me brian back, thanks babe, your the best! yeah i wish. i wonder what he's doing at the moment. i haven't herd anything bout them in a while. i wonder what their up to?! aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh someone from NOVA keeps calling me on my mum's fone but when i try to call her i can't get through! i really wanna know why she's calling me! aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhh i hate it when shit like that happens!
its really hot today, i was thinking of going for a walk, but i think i might wait till it gets a bit cooler.shit i hate being on hold! im on the fone to the rta to see how much its going to cost me to go for my licence. jennifer said in denmark in cost like $2000 to get your licence so not very many ppl our age have them, that would suck a lot! i know how much of a hassle it is to have to catch the bus everywhere. and you watse so much time.
ok i think im going to go now, my computers been on for too long, its probably going to expload and it cost me too much money for me to want it to blow up!.oh well toodels
AAaaaagggggggggrrrrrrrrr i've been trying for like the last two weeks to get through to NOVA 969 (a sydney radio station) so i could win tickets to the merrick and rosso "Deb ball style" CD launch. its sounds really really really fun. but i can't get through and its pissing me off! i love those guys! they're so funny! oh well, i usually win everything that i try for on the radio, maybe this is a sign for God that im not supposed to go. i cut my hair! its almost all gone. everyone seems to like it and its sooooooooooooo much more easier to wash/do. my mum hates it though. she told me she did.. when she picked me up from the hairdressers, the first thing she said to me when i got in the care was"i don't like it". charming uh? and then the next day i was on the net cheaking my e-mails and she came up behind me and told me that "[you] look strange" thanks mum, love you too. not very many ppl know about this site and i feel very unloved :o(
i've developed an obession with black nail polish, you might think thats weird, but i love it! i can't find a good one thought, the ones i've found (three in total) are all crap! one's too runny and takes about a million yrs to dry, the second is too thick and dry's WAY to quick and the third one when it dry's its all lumpy and full of air bubbles which in turn makes it look gay. oh i just can't win!
mmmmmm its halloween today and i didn't buy anything for the little kids that walk around asking for lollies, ooppps.................... i think i'll just be quite and wont open the door for them, sorry kids :o(
ok well im really bord so i think i'll go now
I finished my work experience today, im glad that i did cos i was sick of having to wake up early to catch the bus, and it was costing me a fortune just to get there! i got offered a job, but i didn't take it. i'll be right thanks. i didn't say that to them, i just told them that i'd think about it.
AAAAAaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i can't find my Black Market Music cd and im goin crazy! i've got Special K in my head, "No hesitation, no delay, you come on just like special k". i love that album, well i love all my placebo albums but i was really in the mood to listen to that one this afternoon but i couldn't find it :o( i think i left it in Trina's car over the weekend. i bet as soon as i get off the net she's going to call me and say "where have you been? i've been trying to call all afternoon!" woops well if i had my fone and it didn't get STOLEN everyone would be able to get through to me. my mum's going to kill me soon, i keep giving everyone her mobile number cos i use it sometimes and everyone is calling her. she told me the other day that her fone rang while she was at work and she answered it and it was one of my friends saying "is Alexia there?" and as soon as that happened her bos came and now he thinks she's always on the fone at work. woops again. anyway im gonna go now, cos its getting late and i have to get ready to go out and the simpsons just started YAY!!!!!!!!
hey by the way, im thinking of cutting my hair, something similar to what kelly osbourns got. what do you think? will it look ok?
e-mail me and tell me what you think.
i've really negeleted this page, its been a month and six days since i last wrote in it. i know that because last tuesday its was 3 months to the day that tim had his died. i still can't believe im saying that. TIM DIED. its sunk in now and its really really hit home. i'll be fine and then i'll think bout something that happened or something he said to me and i start to cry, like really cry and i can't stop and i feel really depressed. at times like that i question if there really is a God. "if there is a God then why does he take ppl that are so young away? why does he want good ppl to feel so much pain?"
i had the most boring day today, ive been at home for the last week cos ive been sick. ive just beenstaying at home, which was ok for the first couple of days,cos i'd rather be at home then at workexperiemce. But i didn't do anything on the weekend, so being at home for 7 days straight isn't really exciting! My life has been pretty boring latly. For my course at tafe i was supposed to do two weeks orindustry placement, so far i've only been there for 1 day. Im going back tomorrow and im going to do the rest of the week, which there is 4 days left off. Then after that i have to spend this weekend at home cos im not going to have any money, cos i was too sick to go to work, and then i go back to tafe. After a exciting week there any way i think im going to head off to bed now, i have to wake up early to catch the but for an hour to get to work experience, i really wish i had my licence :o(
AAAAaaaaarrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhh i need some social stimulation! Tickets for the Big Day Out are going on sale soon, and i promised Jennifer that i'd get her one when i get mine, (she's in Denmark at the moment) but by the looks of it i wont even have any money for my ticket, and at $91 a pop + booking fee, its easy to see how someone like me who earns a misley $70 a week is unable to afford one or two for this matter. Oh well i guess thats why there's parents. i can just hear myself saying "mum can i put it on your credit card? i'll pay you back" or "mum can i borrow (91x2=182 + bf 7x2=14) $196, i'll pay you back asap and when Jennifer comes back she'll give you her share" Trina still hasn't given me my money from her chilli pepers ticket, its been like three months now and for me $90 dollars is a lot of money. The concerts not till November, so HOPEFULLY she'll pay me by then.
Jennifer just came on msn and i got to talk to her for about 5 mins, i miss her. She's so funny and she honesty is the only person that i feel most comfortable with. i was going to visit her in London when she was there and stay at my grandfathers place while i was over there, he has the most gorgeous house, its a double story house and its absolute huge and its got a quaint little backyard and its situated about 5-10 mins walk from the heart of London. i had the money and everything but my mum wouldn't let me go, she said it was too dangerous for a girl to go half way around the world by herself. Hello there are other people on the plane and in the airport. And its not like i was going to Saudi arabia or something, plus i've been to London before and i do sort of know my way around..................sort of.
any way i think im going to head off to bed now, i have to wake up early to catch the but for an hour to get to work experience, i really wish i had my licence :o( listening to: Without you im nothing,-Placebo