An End And A Beginning

Today I received some bad news...

I was fired today from the swing band that I'd been performing in for the past 2 and 1/2 years!!!   I was devastated...    floored!
I thought I had been doing so well with the band and I'd been getting the greatest feedback from the dancers and the audience.

I just don't know what to say or how to think or feel.

Well,  when our bandleader called me this morning to give me the bad news,  I was in shock and thought it was some kind of joke.   I just couldn't believe it,  until he told me he wanted to meet me today to give me my final check and asked me to hand over the drum "book" with all the arrangements.   I really was floored by this decision,  and still think it was a very unwise decision on the band's part.

We decided to meet at a nearby Denny's and I'd turn in the book and receive my last check. 

I thought it was a good last meeting.   Me,  still in denial,  I said that I would like us to stay on good terms and keep our options open,  in case he needed me back.   I made it very easy for him and didn't put up a fight or make a big stink about it.   He still said it was hard for him to have to do this because he was getting alot of pressure from some of the other band members.

Anyway,  we left on good terms and we gave each other a hug.   I think I did a great job at saying my good-byes.   I wanted to stay positive and cordial, making him realize that he would lose a great team player.   Hopefully he thought that way!

So,  I decided to try and hide it from my wife when she got home from work.   Naturally,  she knows me well enough to know that something was wrong and I had to tell her outright!   I had planned on hiding the bad news until the end of the weekend so we could enjoy it,  but she just sensed that something was wrong!

But somehow,  I feel overall that I can get through this ordeal,  and that I can succeed in a greater way.   I hope it can happen...   I seem to be destined for success and maybe it simply won't be with this particular band.

It's late and I can't sleep because of being fired!   So,  now I have decided to begin writing again in my online journal.   My Sanctuary is,  after all,  my sanctuary...    far away from the bad things in this world,  but a place where I can discuss them and get things out of my system.   And because of today's bad news,  I will express myself and try to find the answers to my life!

I need to document what goes on in my life so that I can stay focused and jot down notes to help me get through this transition.

One year ago today

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