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Somewhere Between

Somewhere between the *procrastination* and the homeworkand the incessant forwards and the friendships and the calls to each other

complaining about *.:*CrUsHeS*:.*!! Somewhere between the phone calls

to old friends and the "I miss you's" the "'s" and the "What

are we doing tonight's?" And somewhere between all of the changing and

growing... somewhere between the classes and the skipping classes...and

the StUdYiNg for TeStS... And the PRETENDING to *StUdY* for

TeStS... And the downright NOT StUdYiNg for TeStS... I forgot--

I forgot what College was all about.

Somewhere between all the appointments and Dunkin Donuts coffees,

and ........paying bills and then not paying bills...Making

plans then breaking plans... Appearing, Disappearing, then reappearing...

I forgot--I forgot what it was like to cry. I forgot that pretending to be

happy doesn't make you happy... And that pretending to be SmArT

doesn't make you smart I forgot that you can't just forget the past

in fear of the FUTURE... I forgot that you can't control falling in

And that you can't make yourself fall in LoVe. I learned that I can LOVE.

I learned that it's okay to MEsS UP.... And it's okay to ask for HELP

And it's okay to feel like crap... I learned it's okay to cOmPLaiN

and wHINe to all your friends for a whole day... I learned that sometimes

the things you want most you just can't have. I learned that the greatest

thing about HiGh ScHOoL and CoLLeGeand the working world isn't

the parties or the DRiNKiNG or the hookups... It's the *FrIeNdShIpS*,

which means taking chances.

I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which

we most need to talk about... I learned that time can heal all things...
I learned that just when you think it can't get worse- it does... but
with the love and support of friends-you survive... I've learned that when

you start feeling BaD about L O S I N G touch - those that you've lost touch

with are feeling the same way...I learned that letters from friends are the

most important things. And that sending cards to your friends makes you

feel better. But, basically, I just learned that my friends, both o l d and new,

Are the most important people to me in the world. AND without them, I

wouldn't be who I am today.....

So this is a thank you to all of my friends, for always being there. And even

if we're not on good terms or we have lost touch...

I will always have an unconditional love for you

I Never Knew

I never knew that when I said goodbye to all my friends and packed up my stuff to come here that I was ending one part my life with them. I never knew how much tighter the hugs would be and how wonderful our laughter together would sound when we next got together. I didn't think that when I first came to college that I would feel guilty for making new friends, like I had deserted my old ones. I also didn't know how special these new friends would become, but for different reasons than
my old ones.

You see, friends from back home see you differently than your college friends. You just call each other up when it's a good time and you all go out somewhere together. You hang together and then go to your respective homes. And when you fight, well, you've got other friends to be with and you can avoid these friends.

But with friends at college it is different. You live with them. They see you when you've just woken up from the deepest sleep of your life, after you've just had your heart completely broken and before the hardest exam of your life. If you fight with one of them, you make up as soon as you can, because you realize that being mad at each other is pointless besides, who will you have dinner with? It is a strange balance, these friends at home, and these friends at college.

One is a group of people who prepared you for where you are today, the other is a group of people who have come to mean more to you in four months than some people did in four years. You love them both and you love them for different reasons. They don't know each other, but they share a common bond: you. You are what unites them together and makes them special people.

Sometimes you forget to let them know how special they are to you because it's so easy to forget with all the stress and confusion around you. With your friends from both home and school, you have shared thoughts, aspirations, hugs, laughter, sorrow, drinks, tears, even more hugs, and many special times. These are the people who know you the best. Sometimes, they become as important as family, because they ARE a family. A family that supports, nurtures, loves, fights and shares together.

A family you often take for granted. Whether you are together or far away, these people hold an integral part in your life. I never knew that when I came to college that I would find people like the ones I have found that I could call my friends. Nor did I know how much I would look forward to the times when I was back with my other friends, too.

There are some things that I take for granted but hopefully it will never be any of you, these people in my life that enrich and improve it.

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