Now - is good!
I again feel like a normal human being (whatever that is).
I take my daughter to school, go shopping, visit friends, clean the house
(yuck), have friends round for dinner and play with my daughter.
I have eventually found things that help me focus away from the Endo, and even
though I must accept that it will remain a constant companion for the
foreseeable future and continue to hamper my life on a daily basis, I am now
prepared to accept this.
I have managed to prove my teachers wrong and gone back to college, even though
they frequently told me and eventually convinced me that I was stupid, I have
come away with a grade B in Bookkeeping, a grade A in 'A' level Accounting, a
level 2 in AAT (Association of Accounting Technicians), a Distinction in
Advanced Management Studies and I am currently undertaking a Webmaster course,
which is one of the reasons I am here 'talking' to you today.
I have also taken a keen interest in playing Adventure games on my computer and
through it have met many wonderful people whom I have the privilege of calling
friends.
We moved 10 months ago to a new area and into a house I absolutely love and this
Spring and Summer, we all worked hard in the garden and ended up with a bumper
crop of vegetables and strawberries.
These activities not only help me to concentrate on something other than the
pain, but add a new dimension to how I view life and what is important.
I no longer feel 'unemployable', and I am now ready to take my place in society
and offer not only the skills that I have acquired from books but also from
life.
The saying "Keep your friends close and your enemies closer", applies here. I
have learned not only to embrace and cherish the love and closeness of family
and friends, but also to embrace the 'enemy' within. Endo and I have formed a
partnership of convenience. I 'allow' it to make its presence felt only some of
the time, while the rest of the time belongs to me. Our relationship is
certainly not trouble-free and fights frequently erupt, more of which I am now
winning with each passing day.
I have set the rules and do not plan on giving an inch:
So, Endo, I say to you.... This is my body that you have invaded, and like any
unwelcome guest, although I will try to perform the responsibilities of a good
host, I will NOT allow you to disrupt my home, my happiness or my life!