6April00

this one's a bit long - but it is soooo worth it! copy and save it to send to all those idiots out there who believe everything they read - so they send you 5 copies of every piece of junk mail they receive, so they won't get bad luck, or to get free clothes from the gap.

WARNING: the majority of this entry is all about how ugly i think i am right now...it was annoying for me to read, so you might not even want to go there.....

something has got to give.....i think i'm actually getting fat. i'm slowly turning into a slug. i need to buy a bike, or some roller blades that aren't kid's versions from target with plastic wheels. i've got to get off my ass....i mean how long can a person THINK about doing something before actually doing it. there ain't no way i'm gettin' this body into a bikini this summer unless i get in shape first.

i talked to my mom last night for an hour and a half.....that's nothing unusual though. we usually talk once every 2 - 3 weeks and it amazes me how much we find to talk about. it's nice - the older i get, the closer we seem to become. i actually spent new years with her this year. i remember her telling me how much she enjoys my company. it was good to hear, since my memories of growing up are filled with a lot of yelling on her part. i think she was a lot more uptight then...she even admits she's mellowed. i suppose i'm easier to get along with myself. (don't i just sound so adult?)

mary and i just made an appointment to get a manicure and a pedicure next wednesday during lunch....i'm pretty excited about it...i'm actually thinking about getting a facial too. they're running these specials right now for spring or something. i've never had a facial. it's supposed to take an hour....what the hell do they do to your face for an hour? i'd probably fall asleep.

it's going to be hard for me to fork over money for that stuff...i'm just not used to it. but, i guess i'll be saving money by not getting my hair cut or colored .....since i've decided not to get my hair cut EVER again. if i forbid myself to do it....maybe i'll be able to grow it out once and for all. i'll just tell myself it's not even an option...and i'll use the money i would've spent on that for facials and pedicures. sounds good......i'll be long haired with a perfect complexion and beautifully polished and shaped toenails.  yeah, right.