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today is may day - gosh i wish i would've thought of it sooner.....i would've made a may basket for paul.....when i was a little girl all the kids in the neighborhood would make these may baskets - out of styrofoam cups (that was before we knew they don't biodegrade) with pipe-cleaner handles, or rolled up paper made into a cone.....and we would fill them with candy and popcorn. then we would put one on each of our friend's front steps and ring the doorbell and run away. the person was supposed to try and catch you - but everybody was always out delivering them at the same time - so it didn't really work.
except for the bully of the neighborhood, shelley. she and her little brother would make a point of scaring the shit out of you. what really boggles me is why we continued to give them may baskets. i think every year i would decided that i wouldn't - cuz i really hated it when they scared me - but then i would think about it and decided that if i didn't give them a a may basket i would be taunted for the next couple of weeks until she forgot about it or found somebody else to tease.
ahh - the trials and tribulations of childhood, eh? she actually grew up to be pretty cool. she was always kind of a fat little kid - then the summer before we started high school she started running and eating right and she lost all this weight...and her bullyish personality went with it! i guess she was just an unhappy little kid. it was all pretty impressive actually.
right now i'm really annoyed with the journal that inspired me to start this one. i' ve been getting bored with it for a couple of months now, but for some reason i keep reading it - but her most recent entry really bugged me. i used to think she was this strong personality and i sort of had some respect for her. she was a bit of a rebel and stood up for what she thought and did - no matter how 'out of the norm' it was. well, suddenly she's got this boyfriend and he's changing all her view on things and she's doing all this "growing up" as she calls it...when really all it is is molding and conforming....plus, they have these issues that just seemed to be swept under the rug so they could jump into buying a house together. i'm all for happy relationships and growing in a common direction - but that's not what she's doing (why do i care so much - i don't even know this person?) go figure.
so, this weekend paul went to his friend's cabin and he said i could stay at his place while he was gone....so i took the initiative to clean up and finish some of the unfinished things concerning our redecorating. he was complaining before he left because every room in his condo was a mess and he wished he has at lease one place to relax...so i made it so that there was only one messy room and the rest are all looking good. i was a little nervous that he would think i over-stepped my boundaries a little, but he didn't think that at all! he must've told me 25 times how much he loves what i did. i was so happy! he even took me out for the best crab legs i've ever had to thank me. indie had told us about this place that's actually known for it's steaks - but she doesn't eat red meat so she had the crab legs and she's been raving abou them ever since. they were damn good - even better then stuff i've had fresh in charleston where my folks live! of course, these were alaskan king crab legs - god, they were good.