thursday - june fifteen, two thousand - 3:23pm
i wasn't going to write an entry today because i'm not in a great mood - i'm in a pms-y, pissy way. actually, i'm not really outwardly pissy... just inwardly, i guess. but, i was just at the squishy website - apparently pamie has decided to keep her current design due to overwhelming response not to change it.... but she has decided to give me a one day cameo appearance at some time in the near futre seeing as how i was the only entry for a splash page. so, i wanted to let you know. how bad do you have to be to lose when you're the only entry? just kidding - i actually thought her original design was fine too, but i wasn't going to tell HER that - i wanted her to pick mine
a funny thing happened the other day in the car and i kept forgetting to mention it... ever since paul and i have been discussing the posiibility of marriage, he's been joking that i'm going to turn into 'witchy woman' - so, he was singing the song in response to something i'd said in the car and then he switched on the radio and it was playing!! i think it scared him - he really thinks i'm a witch now.
i don't have a god damn thing to talk about - oh, that reminds me. i came across this site yesterday (sorry, i forgot to bookmark it, so i don't remember the url) of this atheist - and she has a page of quotes concerning atheism, and so many of them intrigued me that i went to amazon.com and looked up this book called 'losing faith in faith' and read reviews on it for like, and hour and a half. the ideas this man (a former preacher) has were fascinating and i'm actually considering buying the book, just because it seemed really intelligent and a lot of the arguments were good. but, i wonder how paul's family would feel about me reading such a book. they're pretty catholic. paul's not a particularly religious person, and they seem to be okay with that, but i know he believes there IS a god, of some sort - which, i guess has always pretty much been my view on it as well.... but this book intrigues me so. i guess i just won't tell them and i won't keep it on my coffee table for them to see, either.
i wonder if approaching my 30's and considering having a family soon have anything to do with the fact that i seem to want better answers lately - one way or the other.... being an agnostic just isn't good enough for me anymore. boy, i'd hate to see what i'd write about if i DID have something to say.
my last clay class was last night... i pretty much hate everything i made, except one pot. and i painted my last piece to be fired that i won't see until the 20th or something - so i might like that okay. here's hoping... i'd like to buy some of my own stuff and continue at home. i'll have to call teach and find out where to go and what kind of clay to get.
