Understanding is what gives you power and releases you from your fears and limitations. This is why you need to understand your ego and its origins, for it is responsib le for a lot of the pain you go through.

You most likely have heard of the Big Bang, the start of the universe. You know that the universe started in an instant, arising from no-thing and becoming something. Ok, take your mind before the Big Bang, before that start of the Universe. What was there? There was just The Source, what some people call God, One Being. There was nothing else. In fact, even nothing did not exist. There was no thing called nothing. There was only One, All That Is, and no-thing else. All That Is could not know itself because there was nothing against which to experience itself. For example, if you know you are tall but have never seen another thing in your life, you can only know that you are tall as a concept, yet you would not know how tall felt like, experientially. In fact, without an opposite, you would only know you were tall, but you wouldn’t be able to experience and hence be tall. Experience and Being need a frame of reference, but Knowledge is Whole and does not need anything. In the realm of the absolute, there can be no feelings and experiences of what is known. So a realm of relativity, duality and opposites, has to be ‘made up’ so that each part can observe the other and vice versa.

All That Is, before the Big Bang, the start of the universe, knew it was magnificent but it could not experience that magnificence experientially and know what it feels like. Remember that statement we made earlier? In the absence of that which is not, That Which Is, is not. The opposite of all the properties of The One had to be created as illusions so that the real ones may know themselves experientially. For example, love is a property of The Source, but fear had to be created, as an illusion (for it cannot be real because there is nothing outside of The Source of All That Is that can threaten It), so that the experience of love can happen. So what All That Is, The One, had to do is to ‘split’ itself up within. These ‘splits’ are not real, they are just illusionary, it is still One. Anyway, it chose to split into seemingly different forms within itself and have each form perceive the next, hence creating the relative experience. And so the universe was born.

Now comes how it was born and where you come in. At the beginning of the universe, the ma gnificent pure energy, pure love, one mind, split into infinite energy ‘pieces’, which scientifically can be called quantum energy ‘packets’, or called spirit in mystical definition. It does not really matter what you call them. The One Mind also ‘split’ into many. The splits, you have to realize, are not clear and defined separations. They are individuations, seemingly separate. Now, remember the sequence of creation, Being, Thought, Words, Action leading to Body? And remember the infinite loops? Same thing applies here, and this is how ego came into being, as you are about to see. Let us observe the Body first, from a scientific point of view. At the beginning, the universe was all just one element, hydrogen. This is the most basic element, made up of the simplest combinations of quantum packets. This element, through many processes, formed all the other elements that you know of, such as oxygen and so on. Up until now, these elements were self-sufficient. They were stable in themselves. But over millions and billions of years, as the ‘split’ minds believed more and more that they were separate, they created forms which were really separate and insufficient by themselves. Compounds such as amino acids came into being. Compounds needed to ‘eat’ and absorb other elements so that they could sustain themselves. This is where the idea of need first came up. The illusion of need was the first illusion to be formed, from the split mind believing it is separate, and thereby creating separate forms which, with increasing complexity, needed other things to maintain them. Anyway, as ‘time’ went on, and Body forms increased in complexity and dependence, other illusions came in, such as the idea that a need could not be satisfied, and thus attack, invulnerability and fear would arise. Keep in mind that this is all in the level of form. Spirit never truly split, nor did mind. Only the illusion of a split was formed. But the split mind, seeing and makings separate forms that it believes in and believing what it sees, is convinced that the illusions are real. This is what the ego is. It is a belief system created over millions of years. It is a belief system designed to perpetuate the illusions of separation, and the illusions of the opposite of All That Is. It was a necessary creation, for without it the illusions would not happen, but it went too far for most people. The plan did not fail, for it can never fail because we are designed to self-correct eventually. The plan was to create illusions, over come them, then be able to experience the magnificence of What We Are without having to suffer under the illusions. The illusions were meant to be used, not believed in. See, at this stage of humanity, we are now beginning to realize that there is something else. We are now beginning to know that there is a difference between the illusions and the reality. Some people have mastered this so well that they literally create their life as they wish it to be in an instant, seemingly breaking all the ‘laws’ of science. Anyway, right now, we are waking up, remembering how to be in this world but not of it. It is gradual, but it is happening. In fact, all of human history is about evolution towards this point. The human race as a whole awakens slowly but an individual can awake fully in an instant, at any time, if they wholly choose to. As we awaken, we increase our ‘intelligence’ and abilities. Things happen faster now than they did a hundred years ago. About eight hundred years ago, we did not even know how to draw in three dimensions. We could not communicate across the globe either. See, our minds are awakening to the unity and with that our physical plane is responding. But you can take a quantum leap right now, instead of awakening slowly. Nothing is denied from you, least of all instantly knowing Who You Really Are.

So now you see how the ego came about. First, ‘God the Father’ split up into His Children, as some religions and mythologies around the world put it. But The One can never not be the One, it can never really separate. So it had to create the illusion of separation. This happened by ‘splitting’ the mind and making parts of it believe they were separate (ego). This happened as a cycle taking millions of years, a cycle whereby the mind creates what it believes and it believes in what it creates, until a point whereby it sees the insanity of the illusion and then starts backing up, realizing that they are illusions, and realizing what they are for, and finally enjoying them and using them as illusions instead of having them use it.

Let us go back to the ego. The ego is, understandably, the opposite of Reality. It believes in separation, need, attack, vulnerability, fear, the possibility of failure, and so on. It is the opposite of love, abundance and infinite power. It developed over time, and its only goal is to perpetuate the illusions. Over the last couple of hundred years, we have eroded its power significantly, which is good, but there is still a way to go. You have to understand very clearly that the ego’s only goal is to maintain itself, its illusions. It has a vested interest in that. It knows it is not real, it knows that you are not the ego. And on itself, it cannot do anything without having your mind to enable it to create. Do you see this? You are not your mind, nor are you the ego or the body. You are your Self, in the image and likeness of The Source. The ego is your opposite, but it has to win your loyalty because only you can lend it your mind, the only tool it can use to create. On its own it is powerless. Your mind is fully powerful. Yet your mind is your tool. The ego’s only mission is to have autonomy, full separation. This is an unattainable goal, but it believes it can attain it. Everything it does is through separation, breaking up, attack. Yet because you cannot possibly be attacked nor attack, the result of any attack thoughts are to create an illusionary Body that can be attacked and attack, and to confuse you with Body.

The ego has one goal, as we have seen, and that is to perpetuate it and the illusions. It does this in steps. It first convinces your mind that your mind is your ego. It makes your mind believe that its memories and experiences define it, that it is also a separate unit that is vulnerable and capable of not having things, and so on. Most people’s minds believe in this lie. The ego is very crafty. Have you noticed how, when you are ‘in trouble’, your mind (because of your ego) offers you evidence of past failures and literally scares you to believing that you will screw up? The ego selectively uses evidence that supports its case and throws away anything else that doesn’t. Ego works by categorizing, separating, hiding, judging, condemning, attacking and rejecting. When you are in trouble, you totally forget all the good stuff in your life, all the times you have succeeded, and your mind blows the whole situation out of proportion. This is one of ego’s tricks, for it must convince you that you are it. The next step ego takes is to use your mind (as you let it) to create out of fear and a belief that you can be attacked. Of course you cannot be attacked, but when you believe you can, you project attack and do things to ‘defend’ yourself and so on. The things you create out of fear of course result in making you afraid of loss, attack, failure, or whatever. This cycle goes on, making you believe more and more in fear and vulnerability. All this sounds like a fairy tale, but you have to understand that the minute you fully accept and realize Who You Really Are, your ego will have to die and be gone, for it never really existed as a reality – it was just a projected belief system. Anyway, the ego then wins you over to its side by making you identify with your split mind and your body. Your body is temporary and it was created from a split mind in the first place. You know it is not invulnerable, and this scares you because you think you are it. But it only scares you because you believe you are your body, a thing that your ego managed to convince you of after creating it over millions of years. Another trick the ego uses to take over you is to have you become a human thinking instead of a human being. By making a lot of mind noise as we have seen before, you miss being in the Now, where All Is. It brings your past (which does not exist any more) into your present, obscuring the present and resisting it, and anticipating the future (which does not exist either). You can only Be Here, Now, and the minute you resist that, you lose your power and joy and you have havoc.

The tricks of the ego are many. The point is this: The ego was created, over millions of years, to perpetuate illusion. It is a belief in illusions and uses your mind to create these illusions. The illusions are the exact opposites of What You Are and What You Have. They are designed as reference points for you to experience your reality (in contrast to the illusions). Illusions can take over you if you do not recognize them for what they are. If they take over, they cause havoc in your life, they belittle you. You are not your mind or body. Body is a communication tool, and mind is a creation tool. Now here comes the most important thing to know about ego. Ego is opposed to you knowing What You Really Are because when you do so, you destroy ego. The illusions drop and in place of them you see Reality, which has always been there but covered up, never resisting your free choice to choose what you wish to have.

What is negativity? It is the ego’s attempt to strongly make you believe you cannot do or have something. You have to understand that it is in ego’s best interests that you fail, for that will keep you in the illusion and keep ego alive. So how do you drop the ego? By dropping your belief in anything it stands for: need, attack, failure, vulnerability, condemnation, and separation – anything that is not of abundance, unity and unconditional love. This new way of living may sound scary to you at first, but that is just the response of ego under threat.

Your magnificent success, joy and security are fully guaranteed when you drop ego. The ego is the weight that holds you back, makes you tired and fearful and keeps you going in circles. It is not difficult to drop ego, but it is very different. The ego drops the minute you stop giving it power and attention. Why? Because the private world of ego thoughts belongs only to you and never really was a Reality. Your mind plays tricks on you with things that cannot be seen or heard by anyone else but you. Yet you choose to believe them and run your life by them. As long as you do so, you miss seeing the world as it truly is. The ego world cannot be shared with the One, with everything that exists, because it has no existence. Not all thought is true thinking. Thoughts out of unconditional love unify with the universe and move you forward as well as the rest of the universe forward. They make reality up and they are real thoughts. Thoughts out of fear are not real thoughts. They make illusions up. You will still see their effects, but it will be your own private ‘hell’, so to speak, that you shall go through. Fortunately, you can change your mind at any time and drop those painful illusions.