The last time I talked, I talked about my experience with different kinds of drugs and I mainly talked about my experiences with alcohol. I mentioned that my 1st experience with alcohol occurred when I was 5 years old. What happened was I had the honor of meeting Michael Jackson and he gave me this drink in which he referred to as Jesus Juice! Actually, I made that up! However, I did experience my 1st alcoholic beverage when I was 5 years old. What really happened was when my father came home from work, he would drink a bottle of beer and I asked him to give me some and he did! I think that he gave me beer because I was a rambunctious anti-Christ and it was very effective at calming me down.

    As I got older, I never got into drinking excessively, but I would drink at social gatherings or at places that had cheap prices and it made me feel pretty good, but having a hangover was a yucky shit feeling, so I never drank frequently. Also, drinking can fuck up and distort your feelings. For example, it was on November 25, 1986 during my final hours of living in the Chicago area before I was about to move to Florida. I went to a club that had cheap drinks and I had a few of them before I decided to start heading south and as those drinks were kicking in, I felt optimistic that my life would get better once I started living in Florida. Well, my life turned to shit once I moved to Florida, which is why it's never a good idea to feel optimistic about anything.

    The 1 good thing about living in Florida is it is very easy to find cocaine and find people who do coke. I tried cocaine a couple of times while I was living in Florida and it happened where I the least expected it. I was at a party that my brother hosted and people were sniffing lines of cocaine up their nose while I was there and I decided to sniff a couple. It made me feel real good and I felt very confident and alert. I had to get up and work the next day and I noticed that I had a difficult time waking up and getting going.

     Since I moved to Minnesota, I have never met anyone who does coke, but I have met plenty of people who smoke pot. I remember the 1st time that I smoked marijuana was when I was at a party when I was in high school and people were passing a joint around, so I took a couple of hits off of it and the reason I did that is I heard a lot of public service announcements telling people to just say "no" to drugs, so I wanted to do the opposite. The thing is I didn't really get high from it and it made me cough real badly. I would keep trying to smoke a joint, but I never really got high from it, so I never got to have the experience of getting stoned. Then 1 day I was at this party in which people were smoking joints and bongs and they had brownies with hash in it. They told me not to eat more than 1 and wait at least an hour before having anymore. Well, 15 minutes had passed and I didn't feel a thing, so I decided to eat 5 more brownies. Well, that is an experience that I will never forget! Well, eating those brownies was strong enough to knock me out! Then I woke up in a deep trance freaking out, not knowing what was happening to me. I thought that I was overdosing, but I didn't feel any pain and I didn't care. I was slipping in and out of consciousness for about 2 hours. Then it seemed like the brownies had finally worn off, but then the fog rolled back in and I was completely stoned and it is true, eating creates a high within itself when your stoned. The party was over at 2:00 in the morning and I still hadn't sobered up and the guy who hosted it turned out to be a fucking prick and he tried to make me leave, but I was too wasted. At 6:00 in the morning he tells me that I need to leave. I had sobered up a bit more and because he was being a fucking asshole, I left. I had to drive home while I was still stoned and noticed that it's much worse driving when I'm stoned than when I'm drinking because I was freaking out. Thankfully, I made it home safe. I got a few hours of sleep after that and when I woke up at 1:00 in the afternoon, I was still stoned, but I felt a lot more mellow and relaxed. It took until 10:00 that night before I was finally able to sober up. How could that last for so long?

    Another drug I experimented with was mushrooms and taking that made me feel real good too. It made me feel mellow and I experienced some hallucinating. I took the mushrooms while I was at a party and while the music was playing, I noticed that the windows were opening and closing at the house I was at. I don't know if you have ever been to a drug party, but I notice that the people there act stupid, which is what we need. I can't stand it when people act smart. That's when they become dangerous. The only time I want people to act smart is when they do things that I agree with, which rarely ever happens.

     Now, this is not easy to talk about, but my favorite drug in the world happens to be poppers! Poppers are known as the sex drug, which comes in a bottle that people inhale while they are having sex and it greatly enhances sexual experience and orgasm and people used to sniff poppers in the clubs back in the 1980s, because it made them feel real good, while they were dancing. That was back in the good old days before the owners of the clubs decided to be assholes and not let people sniff poppers, while they were dancing. I 1st got into poppers, while I was at a party and people were passing around a bottle and sniffing it. I then went out and got myself a bottle of poppers and decided to use it when I beat off. That shit is very powerful. Whenever, I sniff poppers, it takes my mind off of every worry I have and it gives me an extreme feeling of calm. The problem with poppers is in order for it to work; you have to be in the mood. It's not easy to talk about this, but I need to talk about this is because in my previous lifetime I was Laura Ingalls and Laura Ingalls really enjoyed sniffing popper whenever she had sex. Laura Ingalls used to get a lot of yeast infection, which is why I have problems with my balls itching in this lifetime. Anyway because of those yeast infections, Laura Ingalls would often have a foul smell come from her vagina, but sniffing poppers while having sex took her mind off of it and it gave her a feeling of peace. Laura Ingalls decided not to talk about her yeast infections and sniffing poppers while having sex in her novels and for that reason, she was punished be being reincarnated as me to live in this world of stupidity.

     Because I am still being punished for the mistakes I made when I was Laura Ingalls, I am addicted to another drug besides poppers because I get depressed a lot of times. I also enjoy taking a lot of caffeine. What happens is I feel so depressed, all I want to do is sleep, so I start popping Vivarins, but then I still feel depressed, so I go back to sleep, but I keep waking up popping more Vivarins, so I can revive and eventually I perk up and that's when I get creative.

    The fact of the matter is, almost everyone is addicted to something, which is not that hard to understand. The world we live in is a cesspool of shit, which causes a variety of addictions, which is why religion is so popular. Because so many people are experiencing pain, both physical and emotional, which is why people are even addicted to imaginary things, like God. Also, when people are in so much pain, they need pleasure and pleasure becomes extremely addicting when people are in extreme pain. Sex is not a bad thing, but the problem is it feels very good and something that feels good becomes addicting. The more extreme pain someone has, the more they are going to need extreme pleasure. It's always been that way and it always will be that way. The solution to all this will happens when the day comes that people finally stop being assholes and start believing in reducing the amount of pain they are in, instead of increasing it.

Everybody must get stoned, however when life gets too tough to handle you don't need to take drugs, there are loving and caring people who you can talk to.  What a bunch of fucking bullshit!  I wish that it wasn't true, but I am afraid that it is.  With the way this world of total puke sucking vomit is, you have 4 options:

1.      You can just let our society of total fucking belching bullshit control your life and make you a slave, which will probably cause you to get very bitchy and eventually end up having a nervous breakdown.

 

2.     Because of all the fucking bullshit in the world, you can start taking in an excessive amount of alcohol and drugs, which might make you feel good, but will also make you powerless to fight against all the evil bullshit that is controlling you.  The only reason that the government overturned prohibition is so people can stay dumbed down, stupid in a drunken stuper and powerless to change the world, but the government also created drugs like methanphetamine and crack cocaine, so the corporate criminal assholes who control this country can throw people in prison for using the drugs, so they can work for these scumfuck corporations making 20 cents a day.

 

3.     You can turn your life over to Jesus and let the church control you, but you don’t have to think for yourself.  In fact, they don’t want you to think!

 

4.     You can read Pat’s 2005 Vision of the World Page because hearing someone telling it like it is, instead of telling it like it ain’t is very inspiring!