Now, after hitting rock bottom in December, January has seen a slight turn around. My job at Hungry Jack's (CFAL) is going well, I'm certainly making more money than I was in Melbourne. I'm also driving now, hopefully getting my P's in March. The website has never looked better either. So, what is my problem?

I can't get motivated to do anything these days. Am I over Nikki? Probably not. I try so hard not to think about her, but I never succeed. I always come home to a place I don't want to be. I do things I don't want to do. I hate being at home, I suppose, and it depresses me.

 Sure, I tote on about making 2007 my best year ever, but right now, it's hard to get into it. I'm sure the overwhelming heat isn't helping any, either. I'm deeply considering moving to my own place. But, I'm afraid that I will simply shut down if I lived alone. It's hard for me, even now with my friends and family behind me, to get up and go to work, simply because I know when I get home, there's nothing waiting for me.

Yes, I know, I sound like I cant function on my own. I'm sure that's not the case at all, but I don't want to slip back into an utterly depressive state I was in before I moved out. I've discovered, all the pain and pills in the world doesn't help, but neither does trying to push through this feeling cold turkey.

 What does the future hold? Honestly, I don't know. And that scares me. For once in my life, I have no idea what's going to happen to me. I usually have a plan, an idea... Now, I just waste my money, waste my spare time, waste my life... I am a waste.

Oh well, I suppose I can focus on now. Today. This website. At least, TyCorp won't dessert me.. Hopefully...

-Ty
TyCorp Editor