�Nick said you got a dizzy spell,� Kristin stated. �Are you ok?�
�I�m fine,� Jenai lied.
�Don�t give me that, because you�re really pale.� Jenai sighed.
�I just feel so sick and want to vomit. Dr. Lima said I�m perfectly healthy though.�
�Are you doing chemo?�
�Dr. Lima said there�s no need to. He said the cancer didn�t spread and it�s gone.�
�Did he run tests?� She nodded. �Tomorrow I�m going to make you an appointment with Dr. Ashton; she�s a cancer specialist. I�ll see if I can get you in Monday.� Jenai nodded. �It�s better to be safe than sorry. Did you get sick before from the cancer?�
�Not until after I found out and it started getting worse. What if the cancer came back?�
�We�ll find out once you see Dr. Ashton.�
�I�m just afraid it did.� Kristin hugged her.
�Don�t think the worse, JJ. It could be nothing.�
�You�re probably right. I just feel so sick though.�
�Why don�t you go home and get some rest?�
�I have work.�
�I don�t think Alex will mind.�
�I need to pay my hospital bills.�
�And you�ll have the money. You�re making enough here plus you have your part-time job at Old Navy.�
�I know, but I just don�t want to have the bother.�
�One night�s not going to matter any and set you back.� Jenai just looked at her then ran to the toilet and vomited. Kristin walked over and stood behind her, as people continued going in and out. �You should really go home.� Jenai sat on the floor and used the toilet paper to wipe her mouth. �You�re probably just going to get sicker.�
�The best part of not having a co-ed bathroom is that Jakob, Kevin, and Justin�and Nick can�t come in and see me like this.�
�They should know.�
�No they shouldn�t, Kris. They�ll just try to run my life and forget about their own. I didn�t tell Marty, because he�d just come rushing home and forget about his job.�
�It�s because they love you and want you happy and healthy.� She shook her head. �Maybe you should tell Nick at least if not Kevin.�
�He can never know.�
�He cares about you.�
�I know that and that�s why he can never know. I care about him too and I don�t want him to see me like this.�
�He can support you.�
�You mean depend on him. I never depended on anyone and I ain�t going to start now. Nick doesn�t deserve to see me like this.�
�Maybe he should see you like this to see how much he does care for you. If he cares for you enough then he�ll stick by your side. If not then he�ll walk away and not look back, but I think he cares about you enough to stay.�
�But he wants a family and I can�t give that to him. If I could then things would be different right now.� She wiped her eyes. �I�m pushing him away because of that. He needs someone who can give him the family he wants and not someone who�� She started crying all over again and Kristin slowly and carefully knelt beside her. Kristin embraced her and left Jenai cry.
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�Thanks for bringing her home, Nick,� Kristin said, as Nickolas covered Jenai up.
�Anytime,� Nickolas said. �She kept getting dizzy spells and Alex ordered her home. She fell asleep in the car.�
�She needs the rest.�
�What�s wrong with her?�
�It�s not my place to say.�
�So something is wrong with her.� Kristin just nodded. �I care about her, Kris, so please just tell me.�
�I can�t, Nick, because I promised her.� He sighed. �I�m sorry.�
�Is she sick?�
�Yes.�
�How sick?�
�Um...we won�t know until Monday. I�m going to make her an appointment with a doctor friend of mine.� Nickolas just looked at her. �You don�t believe me do you?�
�Not a single word.�
�Right.�
�Why can�t you tell me?�
�I�d love to, but JJ trusts me not to say anything.�
�Yeah.� He sighed again. �Couldn�t you just give me a hint?� She grinned and shook her head. �C�mon, Kris, I deserve to know why she�s pushing me away.�
�And it�s not my place to say.� He sighed. �Let�s go upstairs and let JJ sleep.� Nickolas nodded and followed Kristin back upstairs. �Nick, if JJ didn�t mind my telling you I would, but I don�t want to break that trust.�
�I understand, but you could point me in the right direction and I can do the rest.�
�You have to talk to JJ.�
�But she never wants to. She keeps pushing me away and it�s driving me nuts.�
�You know how she feels about cops.�
�Yeah I know, but we can still be friends.�
�That�s her decision, Nick. If she doesn�t want to be friends then you can�t force her to be. She could just be scared. She probably blames herself for you being beat up and is afraid the worse will happen to you if she lets you get closer.�
�Nothing�s going to happen to me.�
�Well she probably thinks you�re safer away from her so she keeps pushing you away. You can�t force her into something she doesn�t want.�
�I know that too.�
�So don�t force her then. If you keep trying to force her then she�s going to keep pushing you away. I know you don�t want that. Just give her some time and she�ll come around.� He nodded.
�I�m going to head out then. I�ll see ya later.�
�Goodnight.�
�Goodnight.� Nickolas started walking out of the kitchen, as Kevin walked in. �Goodnight, Sarge.�
�Goodnight, Carter,� Kevin said and looked at Kristin. �Is he all right?�
�He�s just worried about your sister,� Kristin replied.
�Is she ok?�
�She�s sleeping right now.�
�Do you know what�s wrong with her?�
Kristin hated lying to her husband, but she said, �As far as I know she just has the stomach flu and a headache.� It wasn�t a complete lie she thought. Jenai did have the signs for the two and that could be what it is after all.
�Kris, I know you know something about my sister so just tell me what it is.� Kristin sighed and looked at Kevin.
�I�ll tell you what I told Nick; I don�t know anything.� He just looked at her. �I�m sorry I can�t tell you what you want to know.� She gave him a kiss then walked out of the kitchen.
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