I slowly took my boxers off and Evangelique watched me a few seconds then turned her head. I climbed in the hot tub and sat across from her. She didn�t look at me and I stretched my legs out to touch hers then she looked, but looked away.
�Doesn�t your fianc� care you look at naked men and share a hot tub with them?�
�What he doesn�t know won�t hurt him.� She looked at me and grinned.
�I guess so.�
�What are you doing here anyway?�
�Just wanted to spend sometime with ya before tomorrow.� She looked at me then moved over to me.
She sat between my legs and said, �Then give me a massage.� I just smiled and did as she requested. �Guess what song I heard earlier?�
�Uh� �I Need You Tonight�?�
�No. Guess again.�
��Heaven in Your Eyes�?�
�They�re the same song ya stupid ass so one more guess.�
�I was just joking.�
�Sure ya were.�
��Open Arms�?�
�Yeah.�
�I heard it also.�
�I started thinking about the last time I heard it with you.�
�So did I.� If she only knew how much I wanted her that night, she wouldn�t be marrying Cameron.
�I was thinking about it and um�� I waited and listened patiently. �I realized how stupid I was and apologize.�
�Don�t worry about it.�
�But then I also realized that I, uh�� Please say it. �I, uh, I don�t�I don�t want�� She stopped and I waited. �I, uh�never mind.�
�No, what is it?�
�Nothing.� She looked at me. �Thank you.�
�For what?�
�Being the bestest friend I could ever ask for.�
�It was nothing.� She turned around to face me.
�There were times you were more than a friend.� I just looked at her. �You know what I�m talking about.�
�Yeah, your pleasure pleaser.�
�You were more than that. A lot more. You were never someone I went to just to be pleased.�
�Was I?� We looked at each other closely.
�Never.�
�I�m glad.� She grinned and leaned towards me. She gave me a quick kiss and slowly backed up. She gave me another kiss and smiled. �I always loved your kisses.�
�And I�ll always love yours.� I smiled. And I�ll always love you. I took my fingers through her hair and she looked at me. I pulled her closer and kissed her again, this time involving my tongue. I worked down to her neck and I heard her leave out a soft moan.
�What are you doing?� I looked at her.
�I know you�re getting married in a few hours, but what does one night of passion hurt?� She just looked at me. �Just us and no interruptions. What do ya say, huh?� She just continued looking at me a moment then straddled me. The pleasure soared through my body and we looked at each other a moment. She smiled and kissed me then we started moving together.
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�Evangelique�
I laid beside Nickolas on the sofa and looked at him. It felt so good lying here in his arms. It was like it was meant to be. It was just like it was in Paris. I smiled and continued looking at him. He was so gorgeous when he was sleeping. We had made our way from the hot tub to the couch and that�s where we stayed the last few hours. Instead of, like, one hour of passion it had turned into, like, three or four hours. It was very nice though. Hell, it was great actually. I wasn�t even tired. I felt like I could go a few more hours with him. I looked at my watch and saw that it was almost 5:30 a.m. I sighed and chuckled at the same time and Nickolas opened his eyes.
�Sorry.� I tried to hold back a grin. He yawned and stretched out his long muscular physique.
�What time is it?�
�Going on 5:30.�
�You�re awake already?�
�I didn�t sleep yet.�
�Why not?�
�Not tired I guess.� He rubbed my arm.
�I didn�t wear ya out?� He chuckled.
�No.� Neither of us said anything, as I laid my head on his chest. I started thinking and left out a moan. What did I just do? I just slept with my best friend yet again. I�m a bad person. We are both bad people. The first time was when he was with someone and now the night before my wedding. What was I thinking? How could I give moments like this with Nickolas up? Because he�s my best friend that�s why. Things like this ain�t supposed to happen between us. Maybe just a few kisses, but not moments of passion like this. It wasn�t right. We grew up together, but it didn�t mean I thought of him as family, because I didn�t. He was my best friend. My girl friend�s boyfriend�s brother. How could I get myself into this mess? How was I going to get myself out of it? I left out a disgusted moan again. Hopefully Nickolas was sleeping again so I didn�t have to answer any questions.
�Are you alright, Sugar Bear?� Of course he ain�t sleeping. I spoke too soon.
�I�m fine.�
�Are ya sure?�
�Yes.�
�Well I don�t believe ya.�
�Ya never do.�
�Because you�re never honest.�
�I am so.�
�Not when I want ya to be.�
�Whatever.� I sighed. �Why don�t I feel guilty?�
�It hasn�t been 24 hours yet.� I looked at him.
�I didn�t feel guilty the first time.�
�Well��
�Did you?�
�No.�
�Do you feel guilty now?�
�No.� I grinned and laid my head back down. �We should feel guilty considering the circumstances.�
�Yeah, I guess so.� This would probably be easier if he wasn�t my best friend and so good. But he was my best friend and he was good. This wasn�t fair. It was all because I didn�t want Cameron to be the first guy I was with in five years.
�Evvie?�
�Hmm?�
�I was just wondering, how are we going to explain ourselves if you end up pregnant?� Damn it, no protection. �The first time we were lucky, but this time we might not be.�
�Why must you ruin the most perfect moments?�
�Sorry.�
�We�ll deal with that when the time comes.�
�Alright.� We laid in silence a few minutes. I was getting married in a few hours, but I was with my best friend. How could I do this? Was it just hormones? Didn�t I want to marry Cameron? Was I in love with Nickolas like everyone claims? What was it? Could I even go through with this wedding? There was only one thing to do.
�Nick?�
�Yeah.�
�If you give me a perfectly good reason not to marry CJ I won�t do it at two.� We looked at each other. �I don�t care if it is a lie. If it sounds good to me I won�t marry CJ.�
�What do you want me to say, Ev?�
�Anything that sounds good. Tell me you�re in love with me if ya want. I don�t care just as long as it sounds good.�
�You want me to stop ya?� He raised an eyebrow and I nodded. �Why?�
�Because I can�t stop myself.� He looked at me and I sat up. �I�ll be honest with ya for a minute.� He looked at me interested. �For, like, the past five months I�ve been trying to break it off with CJ, but I could never do it�I still can�t.�
�You never where the dumper.� I shook my head.
�People say things to me that I hope will help me stop this wedding, but nothing helps. Not even you accusing me of being in love with you worked.�
�You didn�t hear the right thing yet?�
�No. I don�t want to walk up that aisle and realize I�m making a fool of myself.�
�You�re not going to.�
�Because you�re going to give me a good reason not to.�
�Sugar Bear, this isn�t my decision.� I laid back down on top of him and didn�t say anything.
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