its only fair...

i'm sure it's only fair that once i've put my all into us
you can get up and walk away
i'm sure it's only fair that after i'm bruised and broken
you're fed up and you're gone
i'm sure it's only fair that if i feel misused
you get the right to complain
i'm sure that once i've done everything for you
you can take it all
and move on

i've done everything i could think of
all that i thought would get your attention
and even when i thought you were mine for sure
i had to work even harder to prove even more

i'm sure you had every intention of treating me right eventually
and i'm sure that i'm the one to blame for the fights - the heart break - the everything

now, i know i'm not as wise as you
definitely sure i'm not as perceptive
but while you're doin what you wanna do
why is it that hurt is all i'm left with?

tha story...

Another one about My Special Someone. It's my own little satiric way of justifying everything I went through with him; There's not a serious word in this piece. In therapy, they make you write down things you wish you could say to certain significant figures in your life that you never had the chance to. I wrote a few notes to My Special Someone - everything I wish I could have put into words when I needed to - just challenging the fairness of the dynamic our relationship had. With the double standards, every fight ending with my apologies, and every excuse he had for why he wasn't wrong - it made me wonder. These lyrics came from one of those little notes. Now, I'm not in therapy but I write thoughts down before I go to sleep so that I'm not up all night thinking in circles: the letters to no one work wonders when you're a writer...

tha dedications...

This one goes to My Special Someone. I just wish you could understand what you do to people. Not everything can be on your terms: The survival of a serious relationship calls for sacrifice on both ends. You'd be a better boyfriend - an amazing friend - if you could put someone else first for once... you heartless asshole!!

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