believe in me (Mother's Day, 2005)

i can only imagine how much i've disappointed you this far
and i can only guess how ashamed you are
i can't begin to think of the things that i have done to break your heart
i thank you cause i know that it's been hard

i just wanna see Jon pursue his dream of ownin 16 cars
but i wanna see him off the street and doin it legally
i don't ever want Laura to know why we are the way we are
i want hers to be the first generation
to sleep peacefully

so i'ma take my music serious
go back to school and stay focused
i'm not tryna be a bum on a free ride
just don't know what to do with my life

some days i just wish that i could fast forward time
to show you it'll all be alright
if you just give it more time
i was born with a gift
and i won't ever let it slip

i'll understand if you're done investin in me
but what i need now more than anything
is for you to believe in me





tha story...

    So I got a job and was asked to work the next day - I was told I'd be working for atleast fourty hours every week and I would be working every Saturday and Sunday... Unfortunately, I had no idea that I'd be working for 16 hours on Saturday and Sunday and then pulling and eight hour shift any given day during the week. I was hired the day before Mother's Day. I didn't find out my schedule until around the time I had planned on leaving work to take my mother out for dinner. So I sat at work - for sixteen hours - and whenever I had a little time, I put the pieces of this song together.






tha dedications...

    To Mom of course. I've wasted alot of her time and money experimenting with things I knew I couldn't stick with, but now that I know what I want to do in my life and actually need her moral, emotional, and financial support, I'm afraid I've exhausted her supplies (in ever way). I appreciate her beyond belief for just sticking by me and going along with whatever changes I've made in my life, however costly and whim-based. I love my mom.






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