[untitled]

there's a closet i must open, full of emotion
this complication in me is unfoldin - holdin
my soul in a web of dreams, unagressively
i almost panic with multiple indescretions
a woman i've never touched, never smelled
still, i feel the feelings of her uncontrollably well
i remenisce on the passed that we had
now i'm mad
i should have held on longer, now i've shit of this to grasp
even though it's still friendly, opposes
if only she'd notice
that i'm still in the hole i was in once we'd chosen
to be lifted by eachother - both minds were consistent
we'd idealize eachother through undying conflict
she was amazingly beautiful, both inside and out
we were so close, so pure, but now, as focus confirms
i've lost every chance i had - lend it to the control of the terms
that i made with her
somebody tell me why i was selfish
she drew out anger and sadness, and i'll be damned, cause i feel it
how could i say it - the words that i mean
how much in little syllables of what this girl means to me
the world couldn't see it, but i'd only want her
i think about it everytime that i wanna call her
so far away, yet not as devastating a fact
i'm a man, i can move, and for her, i'd do just that
but as time ticks, all i see in the making
is her happy home with somebody else she's embracing
i know that i've got a hold of atleast friendship
but what could it have been if i never had ended this?
she could look in the mirror each day and just bet
that these words couldn't be about her
instead, she'd only wish

~tim aka TP




tha significance...

    So by now, we've all heard of Tim, the man responsible for turning me into the music junkie I am now. We used to be very, very close - still are when we get to talk - but, over the passed two years, we've lost touch. I was madly in love with him (or had quite the impressive crush on him) for YEARS but he never seemed as interested as I was in pursuing a relationship. I figured it was because he knew it'd be bad for business and the relationship we had in our music. After a while, I started seeing Steven. Tim was always there for every little tiff we got into - kind of a mediator for Steven and I. Recently, he sent me these lyrics. Nothing else - no explenation, no title, no reason - just these words. And, oh! How these words have left me guessing...






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