Might Be Gay..What Do I Do?
This information is for for gay youth questioning their sexuality.
What does it mean to be gay? How
do I know if I'm gay?
Making contact Will
I ever have sex?
What about AIDS? Learning
to like yourself
Who should I tell? / Coming out!
What does it mean to be gay?
Men who call themselves gay are sexually attracted to and fall in love
with other men. Their sexual feelings toward men are normal and natural
for them. These feelings emerge when they are boys and the feelings continue
into adulthood. Although some gay men may also be attracted to women,
they usually say that their feelings for men are stronger and more important
We know that about one out of ten people in the world is gay or lesbian.
This means that in any large group of people, there are usually several
gay people present. However, you cannot tell if someone is gay or not
unless he or she wants you to know. Gay people blend right in with other
people. But they often feel different from other people.
How do I know if I'm gay?
"I don't remember exactly when I first knew I was gay, but I do remember
that the thought of sex with men always excited me"--Alan, age 19.
"I never had any real attraction towards women, but I really knew that
I was gay when puberty began. I felt an attraction toward the other boys
and I was curious to find out what they were like"--James, age 17.
"One day I was flipping through a magazine, there was a cute guy, and
bam! I knew"--Antonio, age 16.
If you think you might be gay, ask yourself:
* When I dream or fantasize sexually, is it about boys or girls?
* Have I ever had a crush or been in love with a boy or a man?
* Do I feel different than other guys?
* Are my feelings for boys and men true and clear?
If you cannot answer these questions now, don't worry. You will be more
sure in time. You and only you know how to label yourself correctly.
It is very difficult for a Sri Lankan, as there are no support group or
gay hot lines in the country. (If there are please let all of us know!)
Remember, gay people are out there, wherever you are. Trust your instincts.
Sooner or later you will meet someone who feels some of the same things
"When I first met another gay person, I felt excited, anxious, nervous
and happy. There was an indescribable relief to know that I was not alone,
that there was someone else like me. It was also intimidating, not knowing
what to expect, but I quickly loosened up and felt relaxed" -- Nathan,
"When I first made contact with another gay man, I felt a tremendous relief.
I couldn't believe I had made a connection. I felt happy but also scared.
I felt that I could do or say anything and not worry about it"--Alan,
"When I first met another gay person, it was incredible, refreshing, reassuring,
touching, awesome, and wonderful"--James, age 17.
Will I ever have sex?
Naturally, you think about finding an outlet for your sexual feelings.
Becoming a healthy sexual person is part of the coming out process. You
may be scared at the prospect of having sex. This is normal for everyone.
Sex should only happen between mature individuals who care about each
other. You will know when the time is right.
We all choose to have sex in different ways, whether we are gay or straight.
Gay men choose from a wide range of sexual practices, including masturbation
(either alone or with another person), oral sex, anal intercourse, kissing,
hugging, massage, wrestling, holding hands, cuddling or anything else
that appeals to both partners. You are in complete control over what you
do sexually and with whom.
What about AIDS?
All sexually active people need to be aware of AIDS as well as other sexually
transmitted diseases. Being gay does not give you AIDS, but certain sexual
practices and certain drug use behaviours can put you at risk for catching
the virus that causes AIDS. AIDS is incurable, but is preventable.
Here's how to reduce your risk of getting AIDS:
Do not shoot up drugs. Sharing needles is the most dangerous behaviour
in terms of getting AIDS.
Avoid anal intercourse or other direct anal contact. Anal intercourse
transmits the virus very efficiently. If you do engage in anal sex, use
a condom every time.
Use condoms whenever you engage in anal or oral sex (or vaginal sex if
you have sex with women). You should choose latex condoms that are fresh
and undamaged. Store them away from heat (your wallet is not a good place
to keep them). Use a condom only once. Try to choose condoms with "reservoir
tips", and be sure to squeeze out the air from the tip as you put it on.
Hold on to the condom as you remove your penis; sometimes they slip off
Choose sexual activities that do not involve intercourse: hugging, kissing,
talking, massaging, wrestling or masturbating (on unbroken skin).
Learning to like yourself
"I had to reject a lot of negative heterosexual and religious programming
that made me feel lousy about myself as a gay person. I began to like
myself by meeting other gay people and going to a gay support group. After
that I was content with myself"--Bill, age 18.
"I accepted the facts, which means that I don't deny being gay and I don't
pretend to be someone I'm not"--Alan, age 19.
It's not easy to discover that you are gay. Our society makes it very
clear what it thinks of gay people. We all hear the terrible jokes, the
hurtful stereotypes and the wrong ideas that circulate about gay people.
People tend to hate or fear what they don't understand.
Some people hate lesbians and gay men. Many people are uncomfortable being
around lesbians and gay men.
It's no wonder that you might choose to hide your gay feelings from others.
You might even be tempted to hide them from yourself.
You may wonder if you are normal. Perhaps you worry about people finding
out about you. Maybe you avoid other friends who might be gay because
of what people will think. Working this hard to conceal your thoughts
and feelings is called being in the closet. It is a painful and
lonely place to be, even if you stay there in order to survive.
Who should I tell?
"I only tell other people that I'm gay if I've known them for a long time
and if they are accepting and tolerant. I think it's important that they
know about this special part of me"--Bill, age 18.
"Since I'm normal, I don't have to hide how I feel. But you should make
sure that you are comfortable with your preference before you blurt it
out to just anyone"--Nathan, age 19.
"I tell people that I'm gay if I know that they won't reject me, will
accept me for what I am, and won't try to 'straighten' me out. I test
them, I suppose, then I judge if I want to risk telling them"--James,
More and more gay people are learning to feel better about themselves.
As you start to listen to your deepest feelings and learn more about what
it means to be gay you will begin to be comfortable with your sexuality.
This is the process called coming out.
The first step in coming out is to tell yourself that you are gay and
say, "That's OK." Later you may want to tell someone else--someone you
trust to be understanding and sympathetic. You might choose a friend or
an adult. You will probably want to meet other gay people for friendship
or a more intimate relationship. Lots of people, including parents, simply
don't understand gay people and are difficult to come out to. In the beginning,
be cautious about whom you tell.
But it is crucial to be honest with yourself. Just as self-denial costs
you, coming out pays off. Most people who accept their sexuality say they
feel calmer, happier and more confident.
"No matter what people say, you are normal. You were born and you have
a purpose, and being gay is only part of it"--Nathan, age 19.
"Stand up for what you believe in, and don't listen to what hatemongers
have to say. Stay proud and confident"--James, age 17.
Reference: PFLAG Oakland/East Bay web site on Helpful information on gay
Information - Part 2
What is homosexual orientation? Is sexual orientation a choice? Is homosexuality
a mental illness or emotional problem?