Moe spends most of the day with my room mate (who, in case you're wondering, is male) or on the computer, while I'm at work. Its really nice walking in the door and see Moe's face light up with a big smile when he says, "Hi, cutie!" He actually acts like he's happy to see me and always asks about my day. If Moe is on the computer or watching television he stops what he's doing and looks at me while we're talking. Boy is that different for me. In past relationships I was lucky to get a passing glance and a hello. There are so many things I admire about Moe. I value his friendship. He's really special to me.

Our time together is winding down. We haven't discussed anything about our meeting, and how we feel about it, yet, and I don't feel that we will at this point. Moe is a bit shy and said he likes to think about things, and I imagine that applies to sorting out feelings too, so I don't suspect we'll have a heart to heart of any kind while he's here. It is a little awkward not knowing what he's thinking or feeling. I don't know how I should approach him. When I come in from work, I give him a hug and a quick kiss, then I wonder if maybe it was too much. When we're sitting on the couch I sometimes hug up to him or rest my hand on his leg. He reaches to play with my hair or rub my shoulders. I keep thinking about what he said... "You know, by being reserved when we meet, I might get the wrong impression. I hope that if you are attracted to me that you won't hide it."

I am attracted to Moe, but not in an overwhelming way. I want to know more of him, spend more time with him, see where things may lead... but I've not fallen under a spell. So, if I show affection, will he think I've fallen in love?? If I show too little affection, will he think I'm just not interested?? How much is enough? How much is too little? How do you go about physically showing someone you care enough to want to see where things may lead, but that you've not been totally overwhelmed or struck by the lightening of love??

I don't know if its "normal" for him to be touchy/feely with someone he would consider only a friend, or if he reserves that for someone he considers special. Physically, he's been attentive toward me. I've tried to give him as much space as possible to back off gracefully if he isn't comfortable with our intimacies. So far, he hasn't backed off. Moe seems to have followed my lead, or he's led, each time, without apparent hesitation. Still, I don't like to assume anything. Maybe there's nothing there and its possible he's trying to spare my feelings, although if he is, I don't understand why he wouldn't be as open and honest with me as he has been in our email exchanges and phone conversations. It seems it would be easier just to say he wasn't comfortable with anything physical.

Well, it isn't going to do any good to keep hashing this thing over in my mind. I suppose eventually we'll get to a point somewhere down the road where we can talk about what meeting has accomplished.