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Me and Jess have been friends for 5 1/2 years. Probably the best 5 years of my life. We have been friends for the majority of our teenage years. We met the summer before going into grade 9. She was new in town and since I was the only one in our group going into grade 9 I told her she could come with me the first day. At first we hated eachother and thought eachother were whores but that changed quickly. I remember the first time I spent the night at her house her brother stabbed me in the ass with a knife. What a warm welcoming. We had a balloon fight that day it was great fun.Jess is definately me world I love her to death. Without her I probably wouldnt be where I am now. I always tried to do my best to impress her which is what kept me going for so many years. ALl those times I just wanted to give up but she wouldnt let me. Me and her have been to hell and back together. You are probably wondering if it is all so great why are you to not friends now. Well let me tell you the story. It started when i got fed up with all the times she has lied to me to the point I dont believe anything that she says. Then we got sexually assaulted and we drifted from there. I have resetment for her and what happened. Then she turned mormon. Im not a religious person and she made it her whole life. So in choosing that she lost our friendship. Which sucks ass for me. But she isnt the same person she use to be and we dont have things in common anymore. She changed who she was for this religion and it is not right. I have supported her for so many things in the past but I cant bring myself to budge on this one. I stand my ground and I cant take it. You can not imagine the things we have endured together or watched eachother go threw. I held her hand while they looked at her cancer. I saved her life when she ran away. If I could go back in times and choose all over again a best friend I would choose her. Everyone comes into your life for a purpose and leaves when that is fulfilled. Well if anything she brought me happiness, love, peace of mind, sense of self, sense of worth, she brought me strength, she brought me dignity and pride. She has helped sculpt the person I am now. She never judged me for my mistakes, she never took advantage of me, she always helped as much as she could. There is noone else in this world that has done for me what she has. I still remember the night Andrew dumpped me and she got her mom to drive her over right away and she stayed with me that night. I was crushed but I knew deep down inside everything was all ok because I still had her. All the good and bad times we have had are playing threw my head like a video. All the hugs, laughs, and tears. I knew looking back on tears would make me laugh, but I never knew looking back on laughter would make me cry. I just want to end this by saying I love you Jess with all my heart, thank you for being there for me no matter what shit I put you threw, thank you for loving me and helping me in ways you may never fully comprehend, I will never forget anything and I will always be with you. So if you ever cant seem to find the strength to fight something or go threw something look deep down inside because I will be there for you. Never be scared to reach out for help. Remember you are an amazing person and life will always get better no matter what you think at the time and remember my words and remember to strive for the best you can do , if you do I know you will be successful and have everything you deserve. I love you stoner baby. |
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