Note: I do not know what colour Sarah Michelle Gellar’s eyes are so I have just used brown, if any of you do however know what colour her eyes are please leave a message and I will correct it.
The look of gratitude
crossed Angel’s face as I moved into the room. I began my fight. I was only
barely aware of what I was doing. I had no idea whether these were the vampire
cult Angel had talked of or if they worked for Wolfram and Hart. Out the corner
of my eye I saw a vampire grab the baby. He made towards the window. Angel
hadn’t noticed since he was surrounded by at least 15 vampires. I wanted to
help Angel but knew that the baby had to come first, Angel would want it that
way. I ran to the window taking out a few vampires on the way. I grabbed the
end of the bed and broke part of the post off. I jumped from the window and
landed like a cat would on my feet. I started a hot pursuit of the vampire with
Angel’s son. As I ran I had time to think about him. I knew it was wrong to
hate him for what Angel had done and the fact that Darla was his mother. What
was the saying, you can’t choose your family. I sure wish I could have. But
then again if someone had asked me before I was born who I would like to have
as my family I probably wouldn’t have said a dad who didn’t leave and a sister
who was the key and an illegitimate sister. I wouldn’t have even thought about
those things. A saw the vampire out of a corner of my eye and started to sprint
faster. I cornered it in an alley. A fight broke out which ended in the vampire
dropping the baby and me diving to catch it. After resting it on the ground a
safe distance away I continued to fight. The vampire was obviously fairly
newborn, as it didn’t have most of its motor skills making it easy to stake. I
knelt and picked up Connor. I sighed in resignation. I began the walk back to
the hotel. I walked in and heard the noises coming from upstairs. I went up
slowly being careful not to jolt Connor who had nestled against me and fallen
asleep. In the room Angel and Gunn were fighting the number of vampires
seriously depleted. I ached to help but feared to move the sleeping child and
so had to stand in the doorway ready to jump in if I really had to. With all
the vampires safely dusted Angel’s attention turned to me.
“Buffy thank you. Is he
okay?”
“Sure, I tell you though
you should stop taking this kid out with you cos he wasn’t even scared in fact
he found it all so boring he went to sleep and I really don’t think it’s
healthy for a baby to go fight demons with you.” Angel smiled.
“Angel?”
“Buffy the others…” I
nodded. They both walked away and I watched as they descended the stairs. As
they were about to leave I shouted.
“Angel, I’m sorry.” His
smile got even bigger. I realised now that no matter what had happened between
us love would always be there but out lives were so different now that we
wouldn’t be able to live together. Angel had never smiled as much when he had
been in Sunnydale. His work here had given him a new outlook and his son had
given him more. More to live for. A sudden rush of homesickness washed over me
and I was desperate to be back in Sunnydale on patrol. It seemed strange to me
that I’d thought of patrol a part of life I hated. I could have thought about
hanging out with my friends but no I thought of patrolling. I was the Slayer,
the one and only Slayer who had done the only thing a Slayer shouldn’t fall in
love with the enemy. Twice. I knew now that I did love him. As much as I hated
that thought it was so true. I loved him. And missed him. It seemed strange
that being with Spike made me realise how much I still missed Angel and being
with Angel made me realise I missed Spike.
“Hello.”
“I figured you’d be there.”
“Niblet, how’s it all
going?”
“Not so good, they won’t
let me see her during the hearing time I don’t know why. I think it’s dad who
won’t let me and is just saying they won’t just so I won’t hate him but I
already do anyway so it doesn’t matter. I’ve gotta go there tomorrow. How’s
everyone back there?”
“You mean the inner circle
of Scoobies the same. I swear I could kill Xander. In fact I can.”
“No you can’t the chip…”
“Doesn’t work anymore. I
got in a fight at Willy’s. I assumed vampire but was actually human as I
discovered when I vamped out and he fled.”
“Spike you can…does that
mean you’ll stop fighting the good fight.”
“Don’t know. Maybe.”
“Would you be more certain
if she loved you too?”
“Love who?” anyone
listening would actually believe Spike didn’t have any idea about who I was
talking about but I knew he did. She hurt him. I suspected there was something
between them but I could never be certain.
“Spike you know who I
mean.”
“Niblet I have to go
patrol, good luck tomorrow.” The line went dead. I kne2w Spike was avoiding but
in that one short conversation I knew things had changed drastically between
them to make him so cagey.
It was about time for Dawn
to get here, I’d see her for the first time in almost 3 days. I was so nervous.
These 3 days had felt bad but I was dreading what would happen if she had to
stay here. While Dawn was speaking and saying how much she wanted to be back
home in Sunnydale I looked back and saw someone enter under a dark coat. When
the coat was pulled back it revealed Spike. He glanced at me and I smiled at
him hoping it would convey how glad I was for him to be here. As the day drew
to close it was decided that they would sleep on it so to speak and we would
return tomorrow to find out what had been decided. By this time it was dusk and
so Spike could walk with me.
“Spike, I’m glad you’re
here.”
“Why so you can sleep with
me then freak out and tell me how disgusting I am.”
“Spike I’m sorry. I really
care about you and I like you a lot and obviously I’m attracted to you.” I
threw a sidewards glance at him to see how he was taking this. He refused to
reply and we continued in silence. We arrived back at the offices and walked
casually in of course the reception we received was not so casual.
“Buffy behind you!”
Cordelia’s frantic shout confused me until I realised none of them knew about
Spike, in fact the last they’d heard from him was when he tortured Angel to get
the Gem of Amara.
“Cordy it’s okay,
Spike’s…like Angel now only without a soul.”
“That’s not possible
Buffy.”
“Wesley it is. A group
called the Initiative captured Spike and they planted a chip in his head, which
causes pain if he hurts a human. He found out that he could still hurt demons
and so for survival sakes joined the good fight.”
“Yeah I did Giles wannabe.
Wanna make something of it?”
“As Buffy just explained to
me you couldn’t.”
“If I wanted to I could
kill you with one flick of my wrist.”
“Spike.” Angel choose this
time to walk in.
“He’s as…what are you doing
here?” in the instant Angel growled this his face changed.
“None of your business.”
Angel lunged forward and hit him. Spike retaliated with a swift kick to Angel’s
torso. I moved quickly between them.
“Do I have to stop you
fighting with every new man in my life? Both of you quit it now before you end
up on the wrong end of Mr Pointy.” Angel gaze flitted between Spike and me.
“He’s…”
“Fighting for good, he is
good. Angel please don’t fight him he’s only come here to see Dawn. He cares
about her a lot.” I saw Angel’s gaze move from Spike to the staircase.
“He couldn’t and wouldn’t.”
After a lot of talking and stopping Spike from killing Angel and vice versa I
finally convinced both to sleep in the same huge hotel. I took Spike to the
room next to mine to talk to him.
Buffy showed me to this
room and I knew she wasn’t about to leave anytime soon.
“Spike about what I said
earlier…”
“I’m leaving Sunnydale.
Turns out the chip is now inactive and so I’m gonna go round Europe see if I
can regain my title as pone of the Scourges of Europe.”
“What?” I really didn’t
know what I wanted her to say or do. Maybe if she told me that I couldn’t just
do all that good and then go about killing again and that she loved me I’d have
really stayed. I’m not even sure what possessed me to say I was leaving. I’m
not even sure if I would but it had the drama I needed for this
conversation/argument with her. She did something completely unexpected though
she got up and left. I exhaled loudly out of relief and annoyance. I turned on
my side and fell into a deep sleep.
In the night I felt a
poking in my side and groggily turned to look in the beautiful face of Buffy.
It looked like she hadn’t sleep at all.
“You can’t leave Spike.
It’s not fair on anyone, especially you.” I snorted in disbelief that it would
be bad for me, it would be hard to tear away from her but she didn’t care so
I’d show that I didn’t. “I mean it Spike. You spent so long loving me and
thinking that I couldn’t stand you and then you finally got a part of me and
hated not having the rest. Well it would be unfair to you to leave just when
I’m ready to give you everything. Spike I…I…love…you.” She lifted her face so
her big brown eyes stared directly into mine.
“Slayer.” My voice had
become husky as she moved towards me.
I woke the next morning
with a jump realising that today was the day that my sister could be taken away
from me for at least 3 years. I twisted slightly so I could watch Spike
sleeping. He’d never once last night told me that he would stay in Sunnydale
but I hoped he would. I needed him and couldn’t bear for my heart to be ripped
out by a third man. I rested my head on Spike’s chest and drifted back to
sleep. I woke later in the morning with a scream close to my ear. I looked up
to find Cordelia in the doorway. I heard feet pounding the corridor.
“Has he hurt her?” Angel’s
voice was thick with emotion. He pushed the door wider and to reveal himself, Gunn
and Wesley as well. I wished that the bed would open up and swallow me. Wesley
reached in and closed the door. I heard footsteps heading away. It was then I
dared to look up at Spike.
“I’m sorry we shouldn’t
have, I know that you were feeling bad and me telling you I was leaving was
just making it worse and you probably felt like you…” I pressed my lips to his
to silence him.
“I meant it.” I let him
wrap his arms around me for a few moments before getting up to face the others.
I descended the stairs and entered the room where everyone was seated. All
their faces turned towards me. The look on Angel’s face made me hang my head
low.
“Can we talk for a minute?”
he got up and left the room, I followed.
“I’m sorry you’d found out
like that but Spike’s different now.”
“Does the fact that he
tortured me for hours mean nothing to you.”
“That’s slightly
hypocritical since I forgave you for doing the same to Giles.”
“You wanna talk about being
hypocritical fine let’s talk about how you hated me for Darla and here you are
with Spike.”
“Spike’s not evil.”
“Buffy he’s got no soul.”
“The chip doesn’t work
anymore, hasn’t for a while.” I was hoping that he believed me, well it was
partly true anyway.
“Buffy…”
“Angel please don’t be
mad.”
“Buffy the whole reason I
left was so you could have a semi-normal life and then you get with another guy
who can’t give you that.”
“Angel what I feel for
Spike doesn’t change what I feel for you. You’re my first in more ways than
one. But we have to move on. I hope we can still be friends and help out and
things. Besides not trying to change things but you don’t only love me. You
love her.”
“Her?”
“Cordy, that’s not just
friendship. Angel we’ve both moved on but I hope that as with me I’ll always
have a place in your heart.”
“Buffy for a 100 years I
killed anyone I met and then I was cursed and I felt terrible but for my 250
years of living you were the first person I’ve ever loved. You’ll always be
special.” I smiled at him and hugged him tightly.
I was so nervous. I looked
at Dawn and smiled at her, trying to assure both of us it would be okay.
“Ms Summers I know that you
love your sister and that you have done an excellent job taking care of her of
late but until you fix your financial situation I really can’t grant custody to
you. I wish that love could compensate for money but it can’t. I will however
grant access to you. I believe that durng the school year Dawn should remain
with her father but in any or all school breaks she can visit you if she so
chooses. If you are still requesting access then I will reassess the case in 6
months. I suggest if you do wish for me to do this that in those 6 months you
provide a more stable financial situation.” I was dazed by this and could only
nod. I’d lost my sister to that man. He was gloating and put his arm round
Dawn’s shoulders to lead her away before we could even speak. She sharply
kicked his leg and ran to me. I opened my arms for her and she flung herself
into them. I held her so tightly afraid of what I knew would happen when I did.
We both stood together in a dazed silence. I could feel her tears sliding onto
my jacket. I pulled back slightly and tried to wipe them away but they came too
fast.
“School breaks only 3 weeks
away. And 6 months time you’ll be coming home, I promise. I’ll fix it. I’ll use
magic if I have to but in 6 months you can say goodbye to him. I’ll come and
visit you all the time I swear. And the gang will too and we can call and write
everyday.” Tears were now streaming down my face as Hank came over and dragged
her away from me, she began to cry harder and scream. As his lawyer opened the
door the screams became louder and it tore my heart. I turned into the waiting
arms that had come behind me.
“Angel, I’ve lost her.”
“Everything’s just how you
said you can call and write and visit. I’ll look after her Buffy, I promise you
nothing will happen to her.”