| 7-24-2003; 10:34pm Well, the 80'z All-Stars rocked, as per usual. But the thing I want to talk about is Glynnes. I don't really know if I should call yesterday a date. But, it sort of felt like one to me. It was like I was resisting "going through the motions". I found myself trying to do a lot of things I used to do with Holly, like brushing her hair back. It wasn't anything SERIOUS, I guess, but I find myself concerned, all the same. Right now, I'm still going through the motions of a post All-Stars night. My body's sore, and I enjoy every minute of it. But anyways, off that tangent, and back to the main topic. I really like Glynnes. Maybe I'm just being a dork, but she looked very beautiful yesterday. And not to sound lecherous, (because I know she might read this....), but I think she's *grown* since the last time I saw her too. I'll just leave it in a vague tone like that. You can imply what you want. 7-22-2003; 5:30p The anticipation is mounting...my photos have been processed. I can hear them now...'save us Josh! Pay for us, Josh!' Well, my pretties, that time shall be coming soon enough. Oh, and it shall be THE day, my friends. Well, actually, maybe THE day will be tomorrow, when I embark on yet another expedition to Disneyland, where I shall meet the 80'z All-Stars. Exciting week this is...I've also taken my English placement exam for COLLEGE...ugh, looks like I might have a future after all. 7-20-2003; 12:56am Well, just another day in the life. Went out tonight with Brian, Minus his girlfriend, Michelle. I was trying to go out and do girl watching, but I'm just no good at it. Actually, Michelle is the "spotter" of the group. And even if I spot a girl, I don't know the first thing about talking to strangers. then again, we were girl watching around the Downtown Disney area around Disneyland. The thing about that place is, any remotely attractive girl there is usually with a boyfriend, or her "family". But, like I said, I don't have the slightest idea on how to "hook-up" (in the non-sexual way...) or meet people out on the street. Seems like the Hawky has a lot to learn. If anyone could tell me of a 24-hour diner that serves pecan pie and iced tea, it'd be greatly appreciated. 7-17-2003; 9:29pm Well, I finally got around to dropping off the film to be developed. I'll be expecting them soon enough. In other news, I think I'm getting the fear back, which will soon become loathing. I fear Holly was just lying to me the entire time about our relationship. I think she's found someone better, and realized that I'm not going anywhere with my life. I feel like I've been kicked to the curb. I'm a paranoid dolt. I guess when I get over myself, and stop going insane, I'll be fine. The profile page is also up. It'll be updated every now and then, as my moods change, so it's just more stuff for you to read....you sick people. 7-15-2003; 10:11am Song: Bad Company - Feel Like Makin' Love ...you really don't want to read this one. I'm losing it. I've been alone for weeks now, and since my girlfriend left me, I don't have any social interactions to look forward too. I mean, look at the damn song of the moment. I miss a woman's touch, dammit. While we're at it, I miss the FEEL of a woman too, AND, I miss the feel of a functional computer mouse. I really need to get this film developed, and etc. etc. Anyways, T-minus 8 days until the 80'z All-Stars are back in town, at the ol' Disneyland. So, life can't be ALL bad....yes it can...*sigh* 7-11-2003; 6:33pm It's just another day in the life, baby. I've been doing a good amount of nothing. I just got plenty of ideas running around. Mafiapoly, for instance...Well, I'm doing well. I'm just sort of dying of loneliness right now. I need to make better use of my time. I should write some stories, get back to the drawing board, etc...Ugh. |