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| 7:18pm - Wednesday - October 31st 2002 - Halloween Nite |
Happy halloween, im just about to go out ...thought i'd throw an update in before I leave. After I got off work I was waiting for my momand this sweet car pulled up infront of the store and I was like theres an awesome car outfront so I looked at it and someone inside was waving ...I thought it was some crazy person... but it wasnt it was my mom ..lol.. I guess my Moms mini suv broke down again so she took it back to teh dealership and there going to fix it ...my moms cousin is a salesman there so he's letting us use his donor car until it get fixed... guess what it is ...a fucking brand new 160hp Honda SiR ...and I can't fucking drive it... im so pissed ...but I convinced mom that its a sports car and that she has to drive it like a sports car... so we came up to some lights going onto the highway and this car pulled up beside us and kind of stared us down looking at the car and shit... so I look at mom and told her to rev the engine so she did and then the guy beside us did and I was like fuckin right its on! and mom laughed and I just looked at her and said smokem'... so the light turns green... and im like giverr and she actually did ...we fucking smoked this guy in a cavalier like he was standing still ...man I love that car... fuck I can't believe im not allowed to drive it ...FUCK! oh well... hope everyone has a good halloween lates-naTe |
| 12:20am - Wednesday - October 31st 2002 |
| It's come to my attention that my journal has become to slow loading for most people who view the site, so I'm going to redesign it, and make it more 56k'er friendly... and i'm going to add some new shit to the journal too. I'll post more info as I start to work on the new parts of the site. Anyways onto my day. Turns out the crv was fine, mom took it into the dealership, they got in the car and threw it into reverse and it worked fine. They made some cracks at mom about woman drivers and but put it up on the lift anyways to take a look at it... they didnt charge us anything for it and they said everything looked good. Got picked up after work and came home for some eats. Then I headed up to the mall to look for some new stuff to wear to the gym, but fuck everything is so fucking expensive so I just said fuck it ...i'll just keep wearing what I have. Came home and did my at home workout, Just got done it actually, talked on the phone a little. I'm going to have to find a new routine tho, 3 hours of weight lifting is too much. Now i'm going to watch the end of Dawson's Creek (hahah) I know ..im a fag and then watch Birds of Prey, I don't know what it is about superhero shows that I like so much...oh well ...anyways im out...lates-naTe |
| 12:26pm - Wednesday - October 30th 2002 |
| Well I just woke up and am getting ready to go to the gym, had a couple of free minutes so I decided i'd update the journal. Somethings wrong with my moms honda crv, she can't get into reverse... so this means until its fixed I've got nothing to drive... might be able to get dad to lend me the outback if I need it... but hopefully the honda will be fixed pretty quick. Lifes been going pretty good lately ...since yesterday really. I've decided ...i'm not going to waste my time being sad and depressed anymore because for all the time I spent being sad and depressed what the fuck did I accomplish?, absolutely nothing ...except making myself even more misserable. So i'm just going to take everything that happens now with less seriousness and just have fun with life, cause hey, you only live once... might aswell make it a good one. lates-naTe |
| 8:14pm - Tuesday - October 29th 2002 |
| Isn't it weird how for so long you can think you understand something and then one day you can realize, you really never had a clue. Happend to me today at work I had somewhat of a revelation, and I must say, I feel a lot better now that I think I understand a lot of what has been going on in my life for the past couple of months... I had became sad and depressed over a misunderstanding and it feels good to have finally come to realize this on my own. My original understanding of the situation was way off, and I ended up getting hurt over something completely unintentional. Well.. anyways I know no one even knows what i'm talking about but I don't really care, I just wanted to put my thoughts to text. Haven't been upto much, just work and working out. I'm getting alot bigger since I have started working out again, even the big guys at the gym have been telling me that. Feels good to know i'm not just wasting my time and energy for nothing, but they are right cause I have noticed it too. Anyways. I have decided i'm going to sell my car stereo equipement and try to find a piece of shit project car to rebuild over the winter ...still thinking of what i'm looking for, I might possibly get out of the import scene and buy a 5.0 mustang or something ... might even consider building a nice offroading truck, guess I'll have to see what I can find. Anyways ...car audio stuff consists of an Alpine CDA-7893 60x4 Cd Player, Cadence Z9000 300x2@4ohms/400x2@2ohms 800x1 bridged mono and an Elemental Designs e15a (old model) 1000watt max sub, in a 2^3 enclosure... email me with offers...here later- naTe Oh yeah ...go buy me some tshirts and underwear... =) |
Fieldy's Dreams - Just For Now [Fieldy] nyaah...nyaah...nyaah nyaah...nyaah...nyaah...nyaah...nyaah Burn down to the ground everything I own Everything you need is temporary And everything you want is so petty Materialistic sh*t makes me sick You're through with your cars (nyaah), your house, your money (nyaah) It's just for now doesn't sound funny (nyaah...nyaah) Your wife, your kids your family, your life (nyaah) It's just for now it's just not right Open your eyes and you'll see the light Stop living in a fairytale life There's more to life than just living Find it in yourself and start giving It'll come back to ya (nyaah) no one's out to sue ya (nyaah) I lost everything I had I'm not even mad (nyaah...nyaah) Losing everyone I love will make me sad (nyaah) If you dwell on the past you simply gonna last [Jonathan Davis] You will not take my mind You will not take what's mine You think you can hurt me by stealing from me (oh why) (Fieldy: nyaah) You think I owe it to you (Fieldy: nyaah) This is everything I do (Fieldy: nyaah...nyaah) You can�t rape me take from me (Fieldy: nyaah) But you ain't got me [Fieldy] This pain and misfortune is pure f**king hell Take it away nothing will change I will still feel the same this is too much pain Am I being tortured time will only tell Am I insane (nyaah) or am I in hell Gotta have faith (nyaah) not someone to scorch it (nyaah...nyaah) Live your own life no reason to rebel (nyaah) All of this hatred this has to be hell Feeling down on yourself try living my life More money more problems that ain't no lie If you take it all away I rather scream bye Day by day one day at a time Doesn't make me gay (nyaah) It takes a man to cry (nyaah) Your not alone wipe that tear from your eye (nyaah...nyaah) Life is a gift you should put it on a throne Not materialistic (nyaah) sh*t appreciate your life [Jonathan Davis] You will not take my mind You will not take what's mine You think you can hurt me by stealing from me (oh why) (Fieldy: nyaah) You think I owe it to you (Fieldy: nyaah) This is everything I do (Fieldy: nyaah...nyaah) You can�t rape me take from me (Fieldy: nyaah) But you ain't got me [Fieldy] I can't wait to die (die) if it's up to me I wouldn't be alive (alive) not suicidal But I've had a rough life drugs will make You dumb but they won't kill your pain Look at the bright side I'm trying to stay (nyaah) Sane I would never take my life over (nyaah) Depression and pain that's just part of life (nyaah...nyaah) Life, life it's just a test treat it with respect (nyaah) You're here for a reason not to be depressed [Jonathan Davis] You will not take my mind You will not take what's mine You think you can hurt me by stealing from me (oh why) (Fieldy: nyaah) You think I owe it to you (Fieldy: nyaah) This is everything I do (Fieldy: nyaah...nyaah) You can�t rape me take from me (Fieldy: nyaah) But you ain't got me You will not take my mind You will not take what's mine You think you can hurt me by stealing from me (oh why) (Fieldy: nyaah) You think I owe it to you (Fieldy: nyaah) This is everything I do (Fieldy: nyaah...nyaah) You can�t rape me take from me (Fieldy: nyaah) But you ain't got me ]Fieldy] |
| 12:44am - Tuesday - October 29th 2002 |
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| 11:10pm - Monday - October 28th 2002 | |
Haven't been upto much. Just the usual shit, ain't life a bitch?... later- naTe What lesser-known Simpsons character are you? |
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You are sensitive and caring, and you don't take insults well. You don't smile much, but when you do, you really mean it. People like to be around you because you are a calming influence. You have an appreciation for all things beautiful, and you probably have some potted plants. You also most likely own a cat. You like Sundays and hot tea. You will spend your entire life yearning for quiet beauty, which is a rarity in this world, so you read a lot. Everyone you know thinks you're "nice." |
| 5:57pm - Sunday - October 27th 2002 |
This explains alot... What cartoon dog are you? |
| 6:49pm - Saturday - October 26th 2002 |
| Well my plans for tonite kind of got fucked up cuz of the rain, so I'm home looking for something to do. Want to go see Jackass:The Movie, but I can't find anyone to go with. Went to the mall this morning trying to find a couple of cds. Found one of them, Kottonmouth Kings - Rollin' Stoned, fucking thing cost 30$, but couldn't find the other one I wanted Fieldy's Dreams - Rock N Roll Gangster , the I went to the gym this afternoon, worked out and went to work. It started raining so my plans for the nite got fucked. Oh well, i'll find something to do... lates -naTe |
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A little taste of the kottonmouth kings ... Pushin' Limits We'll probably waste away and pay this price for livin (Richter) Yeah I'ma waste away my life cause I really don't care Jump every bump in my truck, all tires in the air Accepting every dare, leap off a cliff, fuck yeah And if you wanna get em up, I hope you're commin prepared Cause I ain't backin down from shit, I'm a pit in a dog fight Ear's snipped, smellin blood, and my jaws is clamp tight Around your neck, I'm bout to wreck shop, fuck you and your pops And if the cops get involved, then they gonna get dropped Stay the fuck out of my business, just leave me alone I live my life how I want, when I want, I'm full grown And I'm gettin fed up with all these rules and regulations Sixty-five on the highway, nope I'd rather be racin' So fuck the population, fuck the laws they creatin' I feel it's an invasion to get arrested for blazin' I feel it's time to give up, start livin how I want Cause in the blink of an eye, you're whole life could be gone (Refrain) We'll probably waste away and pay this price for livin- Your probably gonna miss us when were dead and were gone- We don't see yesterday tomorrows in our vision we take it to the limit and we keep movin on Pushin Limits (D-loc) I goin all out until my dyin day I don't care the police give a fuck what they say I'm stayin blazed everyday all day Doin my thing braken Law's I don't a bay Theirs no turning back And their not gonna stop me I stay stealth like armed robberies When you play the game You gotta be prepared You can't be afraid You can't be scared To throw your fist in they air And gett'em up on sight Size don't matter It's the facted that you fight You get respected on top or the bottom Even if you get knocked out Or your clocken Get the hell on Stay out my matha fuckin face I'm down for my shit D-Loc don't play I got one thing to say Weather you like it or not I do what I do. (Refrain) You gotta live fast before ya die young Before ya die young you know the outcome! We'll probably waste away and pay this price for livin- Your probably gonna miss us when were dead and were gone- We don't see yesterday tomorrows in our vision we take it to the limit and we keep movin on Pushin Limits (Daddy-X) You gotta live fast before ya die young Before ya die young you know the outcome! I wanna get faded tonight Lit with my crew Blitzed stoned and puke Eat me some shrooms Spit on a cop Tell him fuck you Get my dick sucked Fuck on the roof Blow all my cash and just do what I do (Refrain) We'll probably waste away and pay this price for livin- Your probably gonna miss us when were dead and were gone- We don't see yesterday tomorrows in our vision we take it to the limit and we keep movin on Pushin Limits You gotta live fast before ya die young Before ya die young you know the outcome! |
| 9:30am - Saturday - October 26th 2002 |
| Been a couple of days since my last entry. The reason for that was that my bro had to take the computer to school for a project he'd been doing in English, so I didn't have the computer thursday or friday, and I won't have it again on sunnday or monday. Anyways, what have I been upto?, well not to much, just been working, working out, hanging out, watching movies, and shit... I rented some fucking stupid movie about vampires, and it really got me thinking... if the only way to kill a vampire is a steak thru the heart ...why the fuck wouldn't vampires wear some kind of body armor or something... it just doesnt fucking make sense... dumb bastards. Well anyways, lastnite I just hung out with a friend and drove around abit. Tonite I might go get right fucked up at a bonfire with the guys at work, and then go mudding, in ...a fucking hummer!. They even said they'd let me drive. I don't know if i'm going to go tonite, but there doing it again next weekend so I might go then. I'll find out whats goin on later at work... anyways its 9:30am ...and I think i'm going to go back to bed, lates -naTe |
HIGHWAY DONKEY When I was younger I did not know how to be. I lived my own lie and I never asked the question why. I always talked and dressed like everyone 'round me. Where were my own view and my own thoughts? I didn't have a clue. Insecurity, no confidence that's my style. I did some false things, you'd say I was playing the wrong strings. To realize and see how lost I was, it took a while. But it was worth it 'cause now I'm much more confident and fit. I'm not going down the highway, 'cause I had the might to stop and turn around before it was too late. Instead I'm slowly going my way and if I don't reach the top, I still got lots right here I appreciate. Just because I'm older now does not mean I'm complete. Yeah, I still have got fear, it's not as strong but it's still here. And I'm confused at times, but now I know where to put my feet. Right in my own trail, that's the only place if I don't wanna fail. |
| 1:20am - Wednesday - October 23rd 2002 |
| This one should be a short one...don't feel like righting a whole lot tonite... Woke up, walked to the gym, worked out for a couple of hours, went to work, something exciting happend at work today ...tehy gave me a new mop! hah it was definately a super fucking exciting day!, finished working... got picked up, went and dropped my bro off at his gf's place for her bday... Headed out to the coop for some grocery shopping, Got some stuff there... came home called becky, she was busy ...so I went on the comp, talked on icq, then around 9:30 ...started my weights workout, took a break for abit talked somemore on icq..finished and here I am doin my journal... whole entry and not a single period! ...fuckin right... lates -naTe |
Oh... and of coarse ...more Millencolin lyrics. RIGHT ABOUT NOW I gotta get me a grip and be strong. Gotta show I can rip, moving on. As I trembling, It's not ending. Gotta avoid to make slips and meet nongs. 'Cause I want it, yeah I wanna live my life. I wanna live my life in this world. And I need it, yes I need it, yeah, I need to spend my days on this earth. I gotta learn to say NO, disallow. Well, it's my turn to go pro, right about now. I've been fading for too long, degrading. I gotta earn me some dough, this is how. At 23, I was far from feeling free. At 24, my life was a big bore. Now I'm 25 and I'm still not high, yeah, I'm 25 but still alive. I'll never give up until I reach my goal, until I reach my goal... Controlling body and soul. |
| 10:25pm - Tuesday - October 22nd 2002 |
| Well, first off, I want to apologize for the new animations to everyone on a 56k- modems. Lets see... where to start. I woke up this morning ...unfortunately.. around 10:30 and just laid on the couch for awhile hanging out with the cat for most of the morning. I don't like my cat to much... he's nice for awhile... but soon enough he gets pissed and tries to rip your fucking head off =). Watched a lil TV, then got up around 12, I really didnt think I was going to end up going to the gym today since I did such a hard workout yesterday, and all my muscles were acheing. So I decided I would just do cardio today. I walked to the gym and got there around 2, worked out for about an hour, hour and a half, in the middle of my workout my bro showed up, which was a little but of a surprise since he was supposed to be in school, but I found out later he had a doctors appointment and just didnt go back to school... I finished up, shaved, showered and took off for work. Worked, walked home. Got home and ate, went on icq, downloading some shit, the usual. Tonites going to be an early nite for me I think, just chill out, listen to some more Millencolin, watch Smallville and fall asleep. Later. -naTe |
Its funny how you can hear a song so many times and never quite understand the meaning of it until something similar happens to you. don't take this the wrong way, I just like the song. PENGUINS & POLARBEARS I don't want you to know too much about me, oh no. 'Cause I know you'll take advantage of the words that I say. You're looking for a way to depress me, make me pay. You don't want me to be too close around you 'cause I would see. All the weak sides that you got, but which you're trying to hide. You know that I would nail you if I could nurse my pride. You're on the top when I'm low. As soon as you're fading I will grow. I don't like you. You don't like me. We're lacking energy, yeah, we're lacking energy. It's a mindgame we play. Rule the roost, major cliche�. While one of us is fit the other's going insane. And every time we think the positions will remain. You're on the top when I'm low. As soon as you're fading I will grow. I don't like you. You don't like me. We're lacking energy, yeah, we're lacking energy. So you got me up against the wall and I'm only waiting for your fall. I'll get back on top and be carefree. It's not the end for me, no it's not the end for me. I know we're thinking the same and our opponent's the one to blame. Thinking this way is not something that we both longed for. Living this way is something we never did plan. But I don't think we will change, 'cause we're stuck in roles as other's antipoles. |
I've been fucking around alot with my graphics software, just thought I'd throw this stupid thing I made up on here...  There's another one I made but it's fairly large and I don't want to clog up the main page anymore then I already have, so if you want see it click here...later...naTe |
| 1:18am - Tuesday (Monday nite) - October 22nd 2002 |
Another day. Another one down... how many more to go? Woke up this morning around 11, talked on icq for awhile. Totally lost track of time, 12:40 rolled around and I had to get ready to go to the gym. Got ready and walked to the gym, holy fuck was it cold on the bridge, got to the gym and worked out for a good hour and a half. Shower and headed off to work for my big ol' 2 hour shift sweepin' and moppin'. Got picked up after work and went to the coop to get some shit for my bros stupid advanced english project on The Lion, The witch and the wardrobe. DId that and went to the mall cause nick needed to find something for his gf's bday. Finally we came home and I took the car upto Canadian Tire and got some new heavier free weights, the little 15lbs ones we had just weren't cutting it. So I bought the biggest ones they had up there, 25lbs was hopping for atleast 30lbs'ers ...but 25lbs was the biggest they had ...don't feel like there enough, but I'll have to work with what I've got. Returned a movie to BB on my way home. Got home, had some supper, went on icq for awhile, watched tv ...usual shit ...then worked out for a good couple of hours. All night i've been listening to a cd I haven't listend to in a long fucking time, Millencolin, Pennybridge Pioneers, I fucking love this cd. Tonite especially, the song The Ballad really hits close to home for me. But now I'm bored, tired and completely fucked up (mentally/emotionally), i'm not high if thats what your thinking... although I kind of wish I was.  . but anyways ...im going to go do some more lifts or something ... i dont know ...i don't know what the fuck I'm going to do anymore... lates -naTe |
THE BALLAD The last selection in the ballgame. Does never get a pass. Not appreciated's just his first name. He's the scapegoat of the class. There are no friends to cheer him up and no girls, no sweet romance. It's impossible to expand, when you never get a second chance. Do you know, who's that guy, who's all alone? Do you care enough to see? He's in pain and misery. He's not going to the school-prom. He said he had the flu. Trumped-up excuses as he told mom. - I�m safer here with you. She told her son. - Someday, they'll all be sorry for mistreating you. Don't be afraid my son and trust me, -You'll be someone they will look up to. Do you know, who's that guy, who's all alone? Do you care enough to see? He's in pain and misery... Do you care to see? Do you know, who's that guy, who's all alone? Do you care enough to see? He's in pain and misery. |
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| 10:05pm - Sunday - October 20th 2002 |
Well I got home from taking off on friday nite. Haha ...took off for a nite, it was alot of fun tho. It was nice to get away from everything, even if it was for just a couple of days. Took a trip to Wolfville,Nova Scotia with my dad and bro. Nick was goin there to take a tour of Acadia University so I tagged along on the trip. We left on Thursday, and got there around 10 at nite. Checking in at the bed and breakfast and then went downtown to get some food. Woolfville is right sweet, its all based around the university so everyone around were students and this being homecoming week and all there were shitloads of parties happening, I went into this pizza place and there were tons of drunk people in it and they asked me if I wanted to go to this party, I didnt really have anything else to do so I went, met tons of cool people got a little drunk... and had a really good time, now I'm dead set on going to Acadia. Got back to the b&b and watched some tv and fell asleep, next day, nick went on his open house tour of Acadia, and dad went and met with the president of the university. I slept in then took a shower, the maid came in while I was naked haha, it was actually pretty funny, she just kept apologizing, I really didn't care I was half asleep. So then I got changed and dad showed up, we checked out, and took a walk around town. Its a really small town, but I loved it. Lots of nice places to eat ...and the girls ...holy shit. We took a walk upto the campus bookstore and bought some shit. Then we shopped a little and downtown and I saw this wierd piggie bank that I liked so dad bought it for me. We took all our stuff back to the car and dad started talking to some guy he knew. I just sat by the car and talked to random people walking by. I saw this weird hippie guy get in an accident with this old man, the guy got out of his care and just looked at his car and went " whoa man, haha, whoa" it was classic. Then the cops show up, and this guy is obviously fuckin high out of his mind, so the cops cuffed him and took him away. Then we went and got some food at Joe's Food Emporium, I got some decent fish and chips. Then we went and drove around for awhile, went to Grand Pres, and saw where the Acadian explusion happend ...boring stuff but we had some time to kill... the finally 3:30 rolled around and we went and met nick for the grand finally of his open house tour. That was that. Started home around 4, Dad fuckin cruised home, got from wolfville to fredericton in 3:30 hours, with a 20min stop at subway ...pretty good time if you ask me. Got home at 8:30, dad gave me a check for the grand that he owed me, and we came home. I went over to Danielles around 10 and stayed there and hung out until around 2. Came home, slept. Saturday I wasnt feeling to well so I slept all day, and all nite, with a little tv watching in between. Today I woke up, went to wackys to pay for the rest of my cd player. Finally paid it off, went to the pet store to get some lightbulbs for my snake cage, but ended up not getting any. Rented Jason X and The Shadow from BB, and came home and watched them. Tonite I took a nap earlier and then woke up and went on icq...and now im going to go to bed or something...I don't know... lates -naTe Took some more pics with the webcam. Pics of that cool piggie bank I bought in Wolfville, a shot of me, and some pics of Dave the Snake, my pet python.       |
| 2:30pm - Thursday - October 17th 2002 |
I'm taking off in an hour and a half, just wanted to throw an update in here before I left. Want to wish Danielle a happy birthday!, hope you have/had a good one, and I'll talk to everyone whenever I get back. lates -naTe Other than that, fuck it, I'm out.  |
| 10:35pm - Wednesday - October 16th 2002 |
Well, today was just another day. Woke up took a shower, walked to the gym, worked out, walked to work, worked, then walked home. The gym was great tho, I had a great workout. I'm benching 200's again, did one rep at 200 then tried 220 and did one rep at that ...but that was fucking tough. This is on a bench press machine tho, so it isnt really totally accurate, but it still feels damn good to be back at where I was a year ago. I came home and went on the computer for awhile, talked on the phone, rented Insomnia too, so I'll watch that later, the fact that I was supposed to be on a bus right now going to have a kick ass weekend, but my plans didnt work out is kind of pissing me off but I've decided i'm going to take off tommarrow anyways, I have the weekend off so I've just said fuck it and I'm going to just take off tommarrow, probly come home on the weekend, I just need to get away from everything for a couple of days... this should give me some time to think about everything in my life right now and what I want to do with it, as of right now ...I say "FUCK IT" because I'm getting to a point where I don't care about anything anymore... so hopefully a couple days out of the province will help me change that. lates -naTe |
| 11:55pm - Tuesday - October 15th 2002 |
| Today, I woke up around 1, went on the computer. Went to work, came home, did a wash and then went to my dad's place for some supper. Then I went to the mall and got some cookies, they were burnt, but not to bad. Left the mall, came home and watched some tv. Still trying to plan some shit for tommarrow but I dont think my plans are going to work out because I don't think anyone wants to go anymore, which sucks because I was really looking forward to this ...anyways I think I'm going to go to bed...or watch a movie or something. im out... lates-naTe |
| 9:09pm - Monday - October 14th 2002 |
Weekend was alright. Played some tennis with Jim and Martin, ahh fuck it im to lazy to write shit right now. Hooked my webcam back up ...took a pic of my homies collection, and my new favorite shit to drink, Jagermeister haha.    Just took some pics of our guard dog, Goliath, he's a purebred Dobermann Pinscher we had bred in Ontario.      |
| 8:34am - Friday - October 11th 2002 |
Another day, another homie. Hahah. Yesterday I woke up around 1 and went on the computer for abit. Showered and headed off for my walk to work. Worked. Went out shopping, bought new shoes, a sweater, a winter jacket and my newest homie. Then Becky came over for awhile to download some songs she wanted me to burn her for the kids she coaches in syncronized(sp?) swimming. So she did that and we watched friends. But when 10 rolled around she wanted to watch Will and Grace but I wanted to watch CSI, so she left haha. I didn't even end up watching CSI tho, I went out again. Got home around 1am ..went to sleep. Woke up this morning around 6 and had some eggs and made a FEW calls. Tonite I think i'm hanging out with Jim or Becky or someone ...I dont know what we're doing...this weekend is going to be kind of dead since everyone is going home for thanksgiving. We might even have to hit up a high school party. Lol. anyways I think I'm going to go back to bed. Heres a pic of my latest homie, Big Dawg, the one on the far right:  lates-naTe |
| 1:05pm - Thursday - October 10th 2002 |
This has been a bad morning, I was supposed to wake up at 6 and call someone to wake them up, but I forgot my alarm clock was set for 9:30am instead of 5:50am like it normally is, and my mom didnt get my note to wake me up at 6am ...so I didnt wake up and missed the chance to call. Now I feel awful and I'm going to feel like shit for the rest of the day. =( Im such a fucking idiot. Well I said I'd update with a pic of my newest homie, Boka Brother #1, so here he is second from the right.  lates-naTe |
| 3:45am - Thursday (Wednesday nite) - October 10th 2002 |
| Wednesday, woke up, and walked to the gym. Worked out for about an hour and a half, then showered and walked to work. Worked. Walked home and gave Jim a call. Ate, then hoped in the crv and went over to Jims. We went to the mall for abit and drove around and shit. I got another homie, ill post some pics tommarrow. Then we went back to his place and chilled for a bit then I came home. I went out again after that and just got home like an hour ago. Im fucking tired and depressed...how can life be so cruel?... lates-naTe |
| 10:59am - Wednesday - October 9th 2002 |
| Tuesday...tuesday...tuesday. Well I woke up at around 9:30am and talked on the phone til around 12. I then made some lunch, took a shower and got dressed. I walked to work. It only takes me about an hour to walk from my place to work. So it isnt that bad. Gets me in shape, and I think going to Healthstyles every other day is really going to help me build my confidence back up...hopefully. So anyways, after work I walked home and took a shower. Becky called, said she was coming to pick me up to go see a movie. She came at around 8:20pm and we went upto the mall, got our tickets, and went to the food court to get some eats. After that I made Becky accompany me to the Homies Gumball machine up near Walmart to purchase 2 more homies to add to my collection. I got a homie in a wheelchair, apparently he was injured in a driveby shooting, and one wearing baggy clothes with a big grin on his face. I Went to the homies site... http://www.streetgangs.com/homies/ and I found out the names of all the ones I have so far. The black pimp guy is called Payday, the one with the weird fuckin grin on his face is called JokaWild, and the one in the wheelchair, Willie G, these things are great haha. So then we went to see our movie, Sweet Home Alabama, I thought it was going to suck, but it was actually pretty good. After the movie Becky drove me home and we sat out infront of my place for like half an hour and talked. The I came inside and talked on the phone for awhile and went out again. Got home around 4am. Went to bed, and woke up like an hour ago. Tonite I think me and jim are going to do something, don't know what tho but it doesn't really matter I havent seen that kid in like 2 weeks, cause hes so busy with fuckin school and shit. Ah well. Sometimes I wish I could just sleep forever and forget about everything... lates-naTe New Homies: Willie G:  JokaWild (one on the far right):  |
| 1:25am - Monday - October 8th 2002 |
| Fuckin' mondays. Woke up around 12. Took a shower and walked to Healthstyles (the gym I go to), worked out for a good hour and a half, it felt good to work out again. I'm a little out of shape but I'll be benching in the 200's again in no time. If I stick with it. I think i'm going to focus more on cardio this time and not just weight training, because what good are you if you can lift a shitload but cant run. After my workout I shaved, showered and left for work. Got to work abit early so I just hung out and talked to everyone at good ol' simms. Fun fun. After work I walked home. Got home at around 7, ate, talked on the phone, and the went out for some delicious chinese food. Got home around 11 and talked to becky on icq for awhile because she wants me to hook her up with a guy I know... i'll do my best =)... anyways I think im going to go to bed. lates-naTe |
| 1:26am - Sunday - October 7th 2002 |
| Saturday I woke up at around 1:30 and nick had some people over watching a movie for some school project or something, so I just went on the computer and showered. Then 3 o'clock came around and I went to work. After work I came home and watched tv for awhile then headed over to danielle's cause and hung out there for abit. I came home around 10 ,watched some tv, played some GTA3 and went on the comp. The around 1am I went and picked my bro up at his girl friends house. I came home and talked to a friend on icq. We were both bored so she came to pick me up and we went out for a drive for awhile. I got home around 3:30am and went to bed. Today I woke up and me and my bro went to the mall just for something to do. It was boring as fuck but we didnt have anything else to do. We found this little gumball machine that was selling these little toys called "Hommies" haha so we bought one and we got some black pimp guy with all kinds of bling bling, a cell phone, a hand full of green, big ol' gold chain and shit hah we're going to collect the whole set. Then around 4 I headed over to my dads place cause he needed me to help him with some shit like bringing the boat in and all the stuff down on the water up to his garage. So I did that and stayed for supper played with there new puppy. Came home around 8:30 and watched some tv...went on the computer... all the regular shit, took Goliath out for a walk. Its funny how many people are afraid of him just because hes a dobermann... I guess he is kind of scary...but its still funny when everyone goes to the other side of the street when they see us coming haha. Oh well ...fuck them.. well i'm off to bed its 1:30am and theres nothing on tv. later-naTe "Homies" The one we got is the black guy in the trench coat with the hand full of green hahah! |
| 11:56pm - Friday - October 4th 2002 |
| Today I woke up way to early and couldnt get back to sleep so I went on the computer and looked for different kinds of cars I could buy as a new project for next spring since I wrecked my mx-3 rs. I've decided for my next car I'm either going to get another 94+ mx-3 or a 90+ crx si. If I get another mx-3 I will definately get the GS version this time. But I think i'm really going to look for a 1990+ CRX Si... hopefully for one for cheap like 1500$ and redo everything. Hopefully drop in a JDM B16a1 dohc vtec in it for around 3000$ and then paint it ...possibly Electron Blue or a custom lime color... anyways enough about next years project. Tonite I got home from work around 8 and Becky was on icq and she was bored so I went over to her place for awhile, just talking and then Tyler and Dabney came and we all just hung out for awhile. My brother called around 10 for me to go pick him up, so on my way over I see this fucking crazy accident, a big jimmy hit a car and the car fucking smoked a light pole, knocked the fucking thing right over and burst into flames, it was the craziest accident i'd ever seen, way worst then mine. I found out later that I knew the guy in the car and that he was ok. So I was glad to hear that. Anyways I picked up nick and took him home and headed back over to becky's, when I got there becky was getting ready to go out to the bars so I took her over to grahm street and dropped her off and then me and lori headed over to meet tyler and dabney at subway. When we got there it was empty, then tyler and dabney showed up and we sat down and ate. Then everyone started showing up. Jardine, Maxwell and Pato came and we talked to them for abit, mainly about what kind of stereos everyone was going to be running next year for the dbdrags, those guys better watch out ...next season if I can get a new car in time and get my new system installed, 2 12" Elemental Designs e12kd4's in a huge ported box...i'll be (hopefully) doin around 145dbs... anyways lori left so we decided to call it a nite and here I am... I'm going to later-naTe |
| 9:56pm - Wednesday - October 2nd 2002 |
| I don't know what to say today...im just feeling really shitty right now. I'm in a pretty shitty mood. Life has just got me really depressed lately ...I feel so alone, I don't know what to do anymore... later-naTe |
| 2:06am - Tuesday (Monday Night) - October 1st 2002 |
Hey, its been a whole month since I last updated and alot of things have changed in my life! I wrecked my car ...long story, don't ask. Crashed my mom's car. Turned 18, and had a wonderful time doing it, thanks to Marie and her friends throwing me a big surprise party =) ...so a big thanks to her for that. I redesigned the site a little bit, thought it could use a little touch up since I haven't updated my journal in an entire month and all, but have been compelled to start up again since I really don't have anything to do anymore since I no longer have someone to spend all my time with and I have no car to go anywhere...my life sucks. Anyways its late and im fucking exhausted, so i'm going to bed... later- naTe |
