I haven't been the same since you went away...
Not in my mind, not in my heart
It's like you took everything beautiful about me, and took it with you when you left
I haven't been able to write, I haven't been able to sleep...
I haven't been able to breathe...
I'm not angry tho... Glad you took it with you... I was just wasting it anyways...
Your memory is the only thing I know for sure will never leave me
I feel you in the wind, I see you in the rain...
And when the snow falls, I feel my heart break....
I am reminded of you by each tiny snowflake...individual, one of a kind, never to bless this earth again
I am not the same, and I'm afraid I never will be again
Its been so long... And even tho it gets better, it never completely fades...
I still cry somedays...
I wince when I see a face that could have been yours...
Or a laugh or a cry... a smile or a tear.... anything for that matter, anything that could have been yours...
Never be the same again... No not no more...
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Revelation
3 unconsecutive nites writing a letter that someone shall never lay their shimmering eyes upon. Revealing innermost secrets...crushing my own heart with my own truth...
Tonite I cried for you....
I wrote a thousand meaningless words, only to be bombarded by a select few (I Love You)...
Wasted all those words in the beginning, but they weren't really a waste, only the stepping stones to my core
A thousand complicated words... That made a hundred complicated sentences... A million uncried tears... That made a thousand emotions ebbing within
Only to lead to a few simple words to make a couple simple sentences that suddenly made complete sense and turned my life upside down and finally got me standing right side up
This is what its been about this whole time... I never told you I love you and I never said I'm sorry... I never forgave you...Never said you were beautiful...
I let the simplest things go unsaid only because I did not know how to phrase them then...
Never again...
2 years of never shedding a tear, 730 days of silence pain... 19,520 hours of shattering hearts... 1,171,200 minutes of words that went unspoken.... 70,272,000 seconds feeling my heart breaking in two...give or take a few....
And it was all so simple, all along...it wasn't about me, it wasn't about you
One lesson in life... One circle, 360 degrees.... For so long stuck at 359... And today that circle completed.... A life lesson... A Revelation
Hot sticky tears flow like molasses.... could've counted them... And then a hot shower pours down... washing away all the pain
Never again.... never again.... It will never feel like this again.... I'll never experience this again, or that
Relief..its over now
The new chapter of my life begins
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