You took from me... Everything that was good in this world
You took the most precious gift...LIFE... and turned it into an insignificant waste of a girl
You've followed me and haunted me for years
Taunting me with your finality
Bringing me your pleasures.... begging me to revel in your darkness
Constantly lurking around every corner
Waiting to rape my soul
I come to fear you, like almost all do
Your power to stop time
And lead us into eternity
If your darkness I never overcome
Then I, I will find light in your dark face
And live everyday as my last
For you have constantly reminded me
That my time here is limited
And each day is a step into the unknown
Are you a gift or a curse?...
Until I meet you I shall never truly know
� 2003 Skandelous LaLa (All rights reserved)
The Demons
Chaotic madness, load voices filling my head, telling me to go there... join them in the dance of insanity, my demons call...
Different shades of blacks and reds, sharp jagged shattered glass piercing my soul.... cold rusty razorblades cutting my nerves....chanting....chanting....chanting.... beckoning me to join the insane dance
Screams so loud, screaming of my demise.... nobody can hear the shouts but me... silently sitting... listening to what they're telling me ....
Come on over.... I'm losing control... what will happen if they become me and I become them... I'm so scared ... just sitting there, listening to the demons dance and chant
An evil realm ... so close to me.... slipping there) where I will feel nothing but pain.... cause nothing but hurt. Sickening crunches of a broken heart... with my last memories of reality... cringing...groetesquely realizling that the demons love the pain,...and for a moment I enjoy it myself... go where...the insanity suddenly becomes sane,..they want me to hurt myself and cause others pain., its so frightening at times I'd rather just slip away than fight my demons...one day I'm afraid they'll win.... I could go there.... dance with them.... chant with them...
Light...bright white light... a simple pinprick shining thru the realms of eternity... I reach... I stretch to grasp what's right..not being able to decide which is stronger... the night or the light... demons...so strong...But I'm stronger dammit.... tiny pinprick becomes larger and larger.... I pray.... I shall not walk alone.... Opening my eyes...Once more I'm free
For now...
I never know when they'll be back
Beckoning me with their hellish delights
� 2002 Skandelous LaLa (All rights reserved)
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