I want, I want, I want
I want wealth. All the money to buy all the things. All the fame. All the status. I want to rule the world. Hell with ruling the world, I want to own it.
I want big houses and fancy cars. Diamonds dripping from my neck and ears. I want fancy designer clothes and people to do my bids. I want it all.
That's greed.
Greed iswanting things I don'tneed. An obsession that clouds the mind, of things I wish to be mine. Having enough but always wanting more... Greed destroyed half of my life and now IT wants more
Greed refused to let me see... that growin up my mother did the best she could for me.
It made me yell and scream... when she couldn't afford designer jeans. Blocked my personality and made me believe, the only weay to have friends was by having IT's things.
Greed made me pick up things at the store and let me walk out with them not being paid for. Hundreds of dollars worth of unpaid things, all indebted to Greed. And one day I got careless with Greed... and two security officers chased IT and me... out of a store and onto the street.... as I thru out the things I'd copped which I had not bought... And vowed if I got away, I'd forever denounce greed. I got away but that didn't stop "the need."
Greed made me want to be the most loved and most adored. So people different from me I scorned. Just so "they" would like me... I lost friends.
Greed made me use the ones I cared about... My abuse to them to get what I want... carelessly hurting... never realizing the pain I had caused... as long as I got what I wanted...
Money... clothes.... material items... jewelry... drugs.... alcohol... cats who would let me drive their fancy cars...
Then one day I woke up... and greed was no longer by my side. Disillusioned... it must've crawled outta bed and left me in the middle of the night...
And only then did I realize, the pain that IT had caused.. suddenly hurt and pain is all I saw...
My mother killing herself, working extra hours so she could afford... all the ugly designer clothes.. I had previously cried and whined for... And the look of disappointment on her face, thinking she had failed...
How I had about ruined my life...for a few bucks.. what if fate hadn't had been on my side... Greed wouldn't have hesitated to slap a felony on m y ass then sit back and laugh...
Friedns that I miss... just cuz I thought I was too good for them back then... that's when I met pride too... but that's a story for another time... I had wanted status... but missed out on great people in return... And you know..did those other people turn? Let's put it this way, I got burned.
And I see... what probably hurts the worst... the people I used and abused in order to get I want.. I see the pain in their eyes... I see the tears that they cry...I see friends say goodbye...
I I see how deadly Greed truly is...
It took half of my life....
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