i saw the look of pain grimace on your face
as the truth got exposed and i was unable to deny
that last few months all we spoke to one another were lies
i wanted to say i had done everything in the best interest of you and in a
way that was true
but this time i won't lie, beside you and i both know it, i was out for me
too
i sit beside you yet you are a million miles away, wishing that i could get
beneath the pain that lies within your eyes... and somehow raise you up....
but i know that my strength alone is hardly enough
it's funny that that day riding back home with you i knew that this would
be the one last time that i would say goodbye... i knew this was the end of
a deep friendship but somehow i manage to smile as i say goodbye... one last
time... and in my head wished you the best in life...
i couldn't find exactly the words to say
to describe the moment and what it meant to me
so instead i closed my eyes and let it be meant to be
there was no tomorrow only this precise moment in time.... one that shall
never pass in all eternity again but is forever to be called mine
and though i tried hard not to let thoughts of yesterday cloud my mind... i
remembered that this would be our last time
so i just watched the moonlight dance off our skin and for a moment i had
wings and you were my wind... as the end started to begin all over again
and i kissed your lips and felt every brush of your fingertips as they
caressed my skin... and now if i close my eye... i can see the confusion in
yours
and i wish i would've held you a bit more closely to me and pressed your
lips more firmly to mine and let my soul completely melt and flow outta me
when i looked into those beautiful haunted eyes... i surrendered to you
that nite only b/c i knew, it'd be for the last time...
i remember you used to say the sweetest things and even though i was stupid
to believe them for a moment in time, those lies are what kept me alive
it's funny how so drastically things change and after all that time we went
our seperate ways
i remember that letter you left in my mailbox that shattered my heart
such harsh things to be said to someone you supposivly loved so a reply i
didn't even start
and after that we didn't speak and i love you's were no more
one day i saw you for the first time in months... you hadn't changed one
bit..
you'll be the same forever, i'm thoroughly convinced
that's besides the point...
and we talked like we had never been in love
and you tell me to get a hold of you that nite... yeah right... you were
stupid to believe i would
cuz there's nothing left and i knew that would be
the last time that you ever spoke your lies to me
i sit and just chill, reminencing back on how it all used to be
sadly realizing that none of this is any longer me
and see saddened faces when they realize i have lost my identity
maybe neither of us have any sourt of direciton, probably not cuz we both
get lost a lot
and you think that's a metaphor
it pisses me off that this doesn't feel like before
knowing every single time that i hop in your ride, how possible it could
be, that one of these could be the last time...
and i remember how we stayed up cuz sleep wasn't important we'd rather gaze
at each other
we had breakfast and that morning went by so bittersweetly slow
knowing that every second that passed was a second sooner we had to go...
time is so cruel
and a lil bit before it was time to go my eyes finally closed... and i fell
asleep in your arms
and opening my eyes to you just gazing at me... asking me what i was
thinking about
i was thinking about us, dreaming about us... never wanting to wake up so
this moment wouldn't end
and i reconnect with what i want
and suddenly i am alive
as i remember that i am not the keeper of time, and i shall treasure every
moment, be it good or bad, b/c you never know when it will be but there
will always be the one last time.
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