I�m missing something
Something that once made me feel like a king
I used to be able to describe it
But now it seems like nothing will fit
It seems like nothing will ever be able to fill this void
Of the piece that is now destroyed
I thought I would always be happy
Not realizing I�d end up feeling crappy
I thought I had found the once piece to make me complete
But it was nothing but a deceit
And now I ask myself questions
That some times led to suggestions
That the real question isn�t �How did I loose it?�
But rather �Have I ever found it?�
No matter how hard I strive
It kills me to have to hide
How I truely feel
In fear it wont come to be real
Cuz it tears me up every time
That I wanna make her mine
Cuz every time I look into her eyes
My heart feels the hit and sighs
Cuz every time she looks at me and smiles
My heart beats as if I ran miles
And despite the obvious signs that say tell her
I just can't build the nerve
Cuz I think she's trying to show
That she already knows
And without dealing me pain
That she doesnt feel the same
So I dont know what to do
Wheather I should stop giving clues
Or if I should just get it over with
And put an end to this myth
When people look at me they think they see the real me
They think I�m the happy, fun-loving, kid who is care free
The kid who has nothing to hide, nothing to bring me down
But they don�t see the real me, the real truth where on the inside I drown
Drown in the pain and agony of what once was
What once gave me the happiness that nothing else does
For now I am alone searching in the dark for that glimmer of light
That might relieve me of this endless fight
The fight of despair and sorrow
That makes me think there�s no hope for tomorrow
For no one sees that it always rains inside of me
And that I pretend to be who they see
For every night I wish upon the stars
To find the one to heal these scars
