++ the last fourteen ++
Thursday, 2 November, 2006 0:08 AM

14 mins to midnight, and the start of the 1st day of our a's.

nothing fancy today cos i'm just gonna write this quick and hop off to bed, hopefully within these 14 mins. well that's the time i started typing anyway.

14 mins to the day we've been waiting for, to the start of something we've spent our lives preparing for.

okay, not gp, since i didn't study for it AT ALL, but it's a symbolic day nevertheless.

yet oddly enough, i'm emotionless. no jitters, nothing. maybe not till i set pen to paper tomorrow morning.

can't say the same for the rest of the world though, it seems. the whole night my phone has been beeping off the hook with smses of a strangely doomsdayish quality, written with so much love [thanks guys, good luck to you all too!] "good luck for a levels" "get a good night's sleep" "we're all running this race together" "do your best" and my favourite, "remember to bring your entry proof!"

heck, i almost forgot to bring mine. imagine me being sent home, now that would be bad =(

do i sense a certain finality about these messages?

hey, kids, WAKE UP. it's not the end of the world. some of us are gonna do well and some of us aren't. i'm in the latter category - and people would normally add a "sadly" at this point - but you know what? that's okay.

to all those people who feel like their world is gonna come crashing down on them tomorrow, and in the weeks to come:

trust me. i've been there. once upon a time i woke up from my wishful dreams and realised i was in the wrong combi with horrible grades and there wasn't a thing i could do about it. i almost broke down in the middle of a school day. but now i've realised that maybe this is the right path for me, maybe i'm meant for bigger things.

i'm not gonna be spending my working life chained to a desk, big deal, i'll totally miss that yeah. maybe i'm not meant to end up as a corporate whore working my ass off for someone else, yeah, oh so sad. i'm not saying that everyone who goes to uni is gonna end up like that, nor am i saying it just cos i'm jealous i can't get there and i'm trying to comfort myself.

honestly i'm not. i know what i'm gonna do from here on and i'm gonna do it with or without my degree. if i can get it, sure, but if i can't, too bad. i'm happy now. no worries. doesn't mean i won't try my best of course.

and most importantly i don't regret the 2 years i've spent in sa. if i hadn't been in this combi i would've taken an arts combi and dropped maths, which i now realise i need to get into business, and that would've been bad. but better than that, i wouldn't have met all the wonderful people in s91, especially my gang, did i ever tell you guys how much i love you? cos i do! <333 to jo salt val feng lili alicia! go out on 16th okay! b&j!

andddd not forgetting the team i adore. if i hadn't come to sa i wouldn't have started the team and... we wouldn't have had all those wonderful times. an amazing bunch of people all unique in their own way. i love you guys too okay =)

see? "no one is here by chance." i truly understand that sentence now.

okay this turned out way longer [and mushier] than intended. OFF TO BED. good luck everyone.

see you at the end of the road =)

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