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Thursday, 1 June, 2006 1:21 AM

maybe i shouldn't blog any more. a blog is there to record your life, hopes and dreams, not to screw them up.

i don't really wanna study any more, either. for the sake of some stupid paper degree, for the sake for of the so-called dream job with the high pay, we lose the things that we care about most. the people, the things, the dreams we love. everything we care about the most.

it's not bloody worth it.

why are we chasing the fat paycheck, the swanky office, the big cars and designer homes? at the end of the day, the reason we run on the hamster wheels of the system so frantically and continuously is to further materialistic ideals.

i'd like to have money to feed myself, yes, and a little extra for spending wouldn't hurt, either. it's naive to believe that we don't need money for survival, that one can live on love alone. i need money, yes. but what i don't need is a job which will give me a fortune, an excessive, materialistic lifestyle, and a lifetime of regret. not when it comes at such a cost.

why must it be a choice?

just when your fire is burning out, your determination is waning, when you're tired of everything, you find that your last pillar of strength has fallen.

all i said was that i hoped my efforts and sacrifices would be worth it in the end. that i'm not giving up everything for nothing.

but why do you forsake me when i need you most?

and without you all i'd be is
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